EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:
I was freebasing cocaine and seized. I left my body and saw myself
seizing including graphic physical unpleasant visualizations. I was tied up. I
was told as I was unconscious to envision a rope and climb up it. I pictured
myself at the bottom of a deep pit, or black tunnel with a light at the top. I
pictured a rope and physically felt as if I was climbing up it toward the light
(life.) I did also feel the general impression it was a choice to do so. When I
reached the top, I regained consciousness.
But this was not one experience. It opened a door to may other experiences. I
received messages from God and Buddha in a dream, many years later, right before
miscarrying a child.
Was
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
No
At
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
Yes death
At
what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness
and alertness?
When I was out of my body.
How
did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience
compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?
Normal consciousness and alertness
When I was out of my body.
Did
your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect,
such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of
solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
Uncertain
Did
your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any
aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness,
etc.)?
Uncertain
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
Wanting to live, survive.
Did
you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
Yes I was at the bottom of a "hole" or "tunnel" and a voice, which I assumed
at the time was my boyfriend's, though I have never confirmed this, told me to
envision a rope and climb up it toward the light. I did so, and it felt very
real and physical. When I reached the top, I awakened from a seizure. I had a
few before that, a couple afterward, and had a Grand Mal 2 years ago.
Did
you see a light?
Yes
Did
you meet or see any other beings?
No
Did
you experience a review of past events in your life?
No
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
No
Did
you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions?
No
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes I have learned since, specifically told to me, that "time is bendable"
Did
you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes Well, my NDE did not give this to me, but I had an experience
around the age of 4 or 5 where I was spinning in circles on beach and all
became clear to me about the universe, I had an existential experience where I
questioned who I was and where I was and why, but I was too young to understand
the answers.
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Uncertain
Did
you become aware of future events?
Yes
Yes, but only many years later. Still waiting to see.
Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
you did not have prior to the experience?
Yes Well, I feel I always had some kind of paranormal experiences throughout
my life, however insignificant, but I have experienced "spirits" throughout the
years and also clairvoyant experiences, and tons of synchronicity.
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes Most people do not take me seriously.
Did
you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
No
How
did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was definitely real It has been 21 years and I remember the
experience in entirety, and I actually have a poor memory at times.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
I
did view myself out of my body.
How
do you currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was definitely real
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Yes
Many
people think I am a little crazy or eccentric.
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
Yes I had contact with my deceased Grandmother, first through a dream, which
consisted of 3 parts in which the "secrets" of existence were revealed to me,
and then the next morning she conversed with me through stream of consciousness
writing.
Did
the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes
Current occupation
Now,
raising my children (4) many of whom when young have spoken about prebirth
experience...also have an autistic child who remembers "picking us as parents"
and remembers and talks about events from a baby/toddler/preverbal.
