Hanz J's NDE

There was about 25 min from when I slid off a bed to waking up in an ambulance. the person I was with punched me in the chest and I breathed in deep and laid on my side. ambulance and fire came. They rolled me on my back... heart stopped 2 min and they brought me back... picked me up to put me on stretcher and died again for 2 min. switched paramedic. Firefighter broke ribs. brought me back. they didn't move me for 15 min. ( All according to girl that saved me and neighbor and paramedics) Then off to hospital. I regained consciousness in ambulance.

While out...

very short time. silhouette of women in black. remember black patent leather shoes and either holding black lace or black lace around her waist. couldn't see her but knew it was my grandmother that had died before I was born. There was a faint light behind her. No tunnel. I can see how people mistake a tunnel. Its more that there is just darkness everywhere else and just a light. no tunnel.

That's it and I woke up. Though I am very different today. The same but different.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?          Yes    to express that there was a feeling that has no word. It just was.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes    Flat lined twice 2 min. brought back by paramedics

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?  while seeing light and grandmother

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?          Normal consciousness and alertness

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:        It was not the same. Though I don't recall being super aware or far away. it just was. I don't know how to explain. there were no regular body feelings. I just was there.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?          No     

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
          Uncertain     I don't remember hearing anything

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?          calm. no feeling. safe. It's hard to have feelings without a body I guess.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?        No     

Did you see a light?         Yes   

Did you meet or see any other beings?         Yes    saw Grandmother. No talking. There was a "Knowing". She sent me back or stepped in between.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?   No     

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?         No     

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?          Yes    the place where I saw my grandmother. though dark and not visually beautiful had a peace to it

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  No     

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes    I knew that she intervened and that I had a purpose and to not turn my back again. I don't know the purpose, just that I'm not done here.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No     

Did you become aware of future events?      Uncertain
          I am having an awful a lot of coincidences

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?       No     

Have you shared this experience with others?        Yes    I told siblings. I don't want to tell anyone else because I cant put into words what happened

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No     

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real  

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:          Experience was definitely real        

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?          Yes    I don't judge people

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes    I have a peaceful feeling inside me that has not wavered

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?    No                   

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Uncertain     You touched on many of the aspects but are asking for specific feelings. It is hard to describe a feeling that is usually manifested by your body when you are not in it.