Gracie T's NDE

Experience description: 
 

I was going along living my happy little life, when in one day, it was almost taken from me.  I thought that I had the flu, but it turns out that the virus attacked the lining of my heart, causing it to swell.  I lost consciousness at home, and an ambulance took me to the hospital.  I coded 2 times that night, and once the next afternoon.

the third time, I didn't struggle any longer.  I thought, "this is it...I'm not coming home."  I let myself swirl away.  I saw darkness, but felt peaceful, and not scared at all...almost like I was in a deep sleep.  my husband was in the room, and he saw them bag me, inject me, and race in with the crash cart.  the next thing I saw was the nurses face.  she said, "you made it baby...stay with us."  at first, I felt disappointed.  I thought..."why is this woman waking me up?"  then almost instantly, I felt like I was given a job to complete, or a mission to fulfill, but I couldn't tell you what that was.  each and every day, I began frantically searching...(refusing to notice the clues that were given to me along the way). I was so desperate to find it, but it just wasn't coming...I began to wonder why I was forced to come back. 

as I regained my strength, I began to remember being at the top of the earth in the white clouds, only the earth wasn't huge with me as a little speck in the middle.  it was small, and surrounded me.  I saw two groups of forest (noticing the brown tree tops), with a green valley cut between.  I can feel a distinct field of energy around me at all times...it's all positive energy, and makes me feel so good.  I have had one real connection with a woman who put her arms around my body without touching me, and said that she could feel the heat surrounding me almost a foot off of my body.  and when I was standing face to face with her, I could almost breath her soul.  the connection was unbelievable. 

my physical well being has changed also.  I'm stronger, more focused, and energetic.  the world is too important to be consumed with pettiness, and hypocrisy, and things are in perspective.  day to day chores, are now just common, and nothing except this mission that I'm on consumes me.  my husband is having a hard time believing this, and has threatened to leave me at least 5 times...but I still can't stop myself from finding out what my job is.  all in all...my near death experience is the best thing that has ever happened to me, because it has opened my eyes, and with each passing day, I find another piece to my puzzle, and am becoming more and more complete.  sometimes I even feel like I'm stuck somewhere between here and there.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     Uncertain, when I coded for the third time, I know that it was harder for me to come back than the other 2 times.   I know the doctors injected me with some drug that I do not know the name, to bring my blood pressure back up.  but I still know what I saw, and I know what I feel.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes

well, it actually took me a couple of days to remember it, but when I did, I knew.  it almost felt like I was at the top of the earth looking down.  but the earth wasn't huge, it was small and circular around me.  I saw two groups of forest with a green valley cut between.  I just remember being surrounded...it was peaceful, and I think about it a lot.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Uncertain, I'm not sure I understand the question.  I had a life threatening event, but did anyone else that I know have one?....the answer is no.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           I just remember swirling away...deep into the pillow...and then everything was black, but peaceful.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   no.  not at all.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain

this just happened to me 7 weeks ago, and it seems that I am remembering more and more as time goes on.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           no. I don't think I did.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Uncertain

            Describe:      I was surrounded by the earth I think, but it was small and round...so...I really don't know.

Did you see a light?           Uncertain

at the time...no.   but thinking back...it certainly wasn't dark.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           No

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    Uncertain

I am still uncertain about a lot that happened to me...all I can tell you is that as time went on, my life has changed dramatically for the better.

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Uncertain, just the top of the earth.

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       Uncertain, all I can tell you is I felt kind of forced to come back.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Yes

I can feel some sort of energy all around me.  and if someone else is "glowing", I can see it.   I've seen and felt all positive energy except for one night.  I felt a negative source...not surrounding me, but nearby.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes

I know that god is real, and I feel the holy spirit all around me.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       well, my husband of 11 years, suddenly packed his bags...stating that he couldn't handle the change in me.  my family members have also noticed changes.   career....I enrolled in school, and I'm ready to contribute back to the earth and humanity more than I have taken...in other words...I need to live up to my potential which is more than just a mom and a wife.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes

oh my gosh...yes, yes, yes!  don't sweat the petty things in life...focus on the major issues.  be open-minded, don't judge others, and pray.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes

only with people that I know will believe me.   my favorite question to a new person is..."what does spirituality mean to you?"  their answer determines whether or not I share my experience with them.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  at first...depression..."why am I back here"...some confusion...a little unstableness...    now....energetic, focused, and really happy to be alive.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      worst...my husband not believing in me.  he made me feel like I was going crazy, and I even began to question what I saw.     the best...well, I believe that I've met some guides in this life, that helped me to believe in myself, kept me on track, and pushed me towards my mission.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        mmm....just that it has turned my life around, and I like the way I feel with this energy force around me, and when I remember where I was.  oh...and trust yourself, no matter what anyone tells you, because, as long as you work towards your mission, I don't think any harm will come your way.  that's what I feel anyway.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes, I told everything that I remember, and feel.

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    nope...I think you've covered everything.