Gloria G's NDE

Experience description: 

I went through a tunnel and arrived in a garden.  I walked with a very beautiful man who gave me counsel.  I looked at him in his essence and did not understand how such a beautiful, good, intelligent person could be interested in me.  He spoke to me, but I do not remember what he said.  Perhaps his words are engraved in my soul.  The curious thing is that he didn't make me feel guilty.  I had attempted suicide and he spoke to me as if I had made an unimportant mistake and he counseled me to do better.  As I spoke to him we walked along and soon he told me go and join with a group of people. Even though I didn't want to leave him I obeyed.  I then went with these people.  They were a group of young people dressed in white.  I only remember that they were women, I don't remember if there were any men. 

Everything was in a park.  There was a gentle breeze and the grass moved with the breeze.  The sun was shining brightly and lit up the plants and birds that were flying around.  I was seated on the grass with the women but beside me was a hole, a well, a hollow place...I don't know how to describe it.  I felt very happy being with the women.  We communicated without words through our spirits.  It was like being joined in great peace and happiness.  But my words are inadequate to describe all this because in this earth life I never experienced such a feeling. 

After being together in this way a force pushed me toward the hole or well.  I grabbed onto the rim of the well with all my strength because something was pulling me downward.  As I ran out of strength to hold myself back, I held out my hands so the women could catch me and bring me back up and not let me fall down or go into the hole.  But they just waved goodbye to me.  I yelled to them not to let me go ("If you are good why don't you give me your hands?  I want to be with you.")  But something kept pulling me down and I kept going down the tunnel until I opened my eyes and found myself in this world.  I felt cold.  I did not like this reality and began screaming that I wanted to return to where I had been.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     Uncertain

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? As soon as I returned to this life I wanted to return to where I had been. It was a paradise. But after many years I understood that I had experienced an NDE. The experience I had was very beautiful. I met people of great purity and goodness. I looked for people that were like them here on earth but I never found any.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?         Yes. I tried to commit suicide by shooting myself.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           It seemed real

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     This happened to me but in another situation. Two other times. I saw what they were doing to me. Also, at another time, I experienced being in sort of a prison.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           no

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          I went away in a tunnel and returned in a tunnel.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes, They appeared to me and we conversed but I don’t remember what we talked about.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    Yes

Yes. I saw scenes from my life but I don’t remember. I learned over time that we are visiting this life and we are here to learn and that the best is yet to come after this life.

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           It was a park with trees, birds, sunshine, breeze, people.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes. I received special knowledge I don’t remember but I think that it is engraved into my soul. I do know what the purpose of this life is.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? I don’t remember seeing any border.

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       I did not want to return to this life. I felt very well being there.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         I have some kind of gift.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes, Sometime after the events of this experience.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       I live spiritually, thinking we are visiting here. I don’t give importance to material things that separate me from this or take time away from my preparations for the next life. I am at peace with life.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes, Different things to different people. Generally I recount my experience to someone who is going through a hard time to give strength for continuing on with what life has given.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  I wanted to return but after awhile I felt at peace.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      I felt well there with good friends.  The worst part was returning to this life.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?        Yes. I had other experiences on other occasions.