Fulvia B's NDE

Experience description: 

For precautionary measures and to ensure no internal injuries, I admitted myself into the ER after a car accident I was able to walk away from. Did not want to take ambulance because I felt fine immediately after the accident.  However, 30 min or so later, I developed a headache and other minor aches and pains post accident. A Double city bus hit my car at fast speed.  At the hospital, I was given a neck brace and told to wait until an available nurse was able to help me. The doctors and nurses wanted to take x-rays to insure no neck or spinal injuries and brought me to radiology.  A series of x-rays were being performed when all of the sudden I didn't feel well. I told the radiologist I felt faint.  He told me to hang on, and that there was only 1 more x-ray he needed to complete. 

At that moment, I was in a space or entity filled with Golden light. It was peaceful. It surrounded me.  I was in it. Although I did not have a body form, I was floating and moving forward and backwards and all around.  Everything and Nothing was in this space which seemed magnified. I felt like I had been there before so I was not afraid at first.  As I floated, I looked around and said to myself "WHERE AM I?" and "WHY AM I HERE?"( even though I had felt I had been there before) " SO THIS IS IT?"  (Referring to knowing that I had died and entered this place)....Since I did not hear or see anyone, I felt alone and then became a bit afraid.  I then said "I GUESS THIS IS WHAT I DESERVE." (Referring to accepting the fact I was alone in this light and had just died.)

At that moment, I felt a presence behind my right shoulder. Frightened and yet ecstatic, I had a great desire to see who or what  it was.   I said "Jesus?" and as I was turning to my right to see WHO or WHAT was behind me, it was then that I was instantly back in the ER hospital.  Hooked up to IV's and monitors.  Not knowing exactly what happened to me.   The doctors later told me my heart stopped. They could not get a pulse for close to a minute.  (from the time the radiologist tried awake me to the time the doctors were called in to do resuscitation.)   I am not afraid to die.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No      

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     Heart stopped for 18 seconds

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    Throughout

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    Normal consciousness and alertness           

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Uncertain      I was in a Golden light, which was bright but not blinding. Nothing was in it that I could compare depth perception but at the same time, I felt that Everything (even though I couldn't see anything but the light) was in this light and everything was enormous, magnified.  As though the light was dimensional.  (Difficult to explain.)

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?            No      

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            In sequence, I went through more than 1 emotion:

1.Peace

2.Acceptance

3.Afraid

4.Joy

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          No      

Did you see a light?           Yes     I was in a Golden light, which was bright but not blinding. Nothing was in it that I could compare depth perception but at the same time, I felt that Everything (even though I couldn't see anything but the light) was in this light and everything was enormous, magnified.  As though the light was dimensional.  (Difficult to explain.)

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Uncertain      I felt a presence

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Uncertain      I was in this Golden light

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No      

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     No      

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes     As I felt a presence behind my right shoulder, I tried to turn around to see what or who it was.

Did you become aware of future events?       No           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     No      

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     I was in ICU and 1st shared it about 8 or so days after the event.  My family  asked questions and wanted to know what I saw and what it was like. They were inquisitive.  Soon after the accident, I had to start seeing a Cardiologist, who's 1st question to me was " Did you see the Light?"

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No      

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    I was at first confused and didn't remember the entire experience and sequence immediately. There was a lot of commotion and chaos when I "came back".  Doctors working on me... cardiac tests etc....I thought maybe it was a dream and a little embarrassed to say so I did not mention anything to anyone for a couple of days. I remembered bits and pieces at first and kept it all to myself until it all came together and then it's like I remembered it all as it was happening.  I was quietly upset that I had "come back" without knowing WHY I was sent... and WHO or WHAT presence was with me , behind me.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?            The part when I called out Jesus' name.  I often wonder why I didn't call out for my parents, or other family members.  Or even look for my family

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real            Definitely real and not embarrassed about it.  Feel lucky to have gone through it and to tell about it

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           No      

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            No           

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?       

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Uncertain      The information I provided was as accurate and comprehensive in describing my experience.  However, some of my answers may seem contradictory.  For ex:  I went through many emotions throughout my experience and some of the questions asked to specify only one.  For ex; if there was  ONLY a feeling of peacefulness , joy etc...one or the other.  I feel I experienced many at the same time.