Frank G's NDE

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Experience description: 

In '74 I was doing drugs and alcohol.  I was an atheist, life had no purpose, I was somewhat depressed.  Me and three other guys decided to go swimming after work at one guys apartment complex.  Before going to the pool we drank and smoked marijuana.  At the pool I decided to swim across the pool under water.  The weird thing about this is that I do not know how to swim.  Didn't think about that, though, just decided to swim across pool.  About half way across I thought "I am swallowing too much water" but I did not panic, it was just a thought.

The very next instant I am sitting in a meadow.  Everything seems perfect....the grass, the sky, my being there...it seems like I belong there and I am not surprised to be there, it just seems very natural.  I do not remember that I drowned or anything about the life I just left.  Being there seems to be all there is.  There is no sense of past or future, just NOW.  After a while, I see someone far off in the distance.  He is too far away for me to see his face, but it seems like I know him.  In a way, he seems to be ME.  He said "are you ready?"  But it was thought transference or telepathy instead of audible language.  As he said this he knew, as I did, that I was not ready.  And I also understood that this was an adjustment to get me back on the path back home.  Also, there are many paths that lead home and whichever one I chose would be perfectly alright with him.  This is when I realized that I had died, and I had to go back.  I screamed NOOOOOOOO!!!.............that's when I woke up. 

My friends said I was unconscious ten or fifteen minutes, but when you are scared, as they were, time goes by very slowly.  It seems to me that only ten to fifteen seconds had elapsed.  In a way it seems that I created this event in order to get out of my worthless life.  Trying to swim when I didn't know how; no panic when I swallowed too much water; meeting someone who I thought was ME, all of it seems like a subconscious desire to change my life.  Anyway, it worked.  Ha Ha!!!.....and I am living happily ever after.                                      Seek the silent mind and the open heart, Frank

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     Uncertain

 drinking and smoking marijuana

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes

no one I knew wanted to hear it, attempts to communicate were met with silence

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           I had drank a beer and smoked a joint

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No, it seemed more real than "reality"

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain

I wasn't aware of my body, but that is often the case in "reality".  Focus determines awareness.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Peacefulness and the rightness of being there.  These are not emotions but that is what I felt.  Also I felt fear, once I realized that I was dead, but I don't know if the fear was about being dead or having to come back.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           no

 LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?    No

Did you see a light?           No

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes

this is described above, but again, a man in the distance, seemed VERY familiar, like if he were ME, said "are you ready", also get back home by whatever path you choose

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?          No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Uncertain

time didn't seem to exist, there only seemed to be NOW

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?             No

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       Uncertain

I was aware that I had to come back.  Don't know who made that decision.  I kind of think I decided, long before the event occurred.  The emotion I felt was fear.  Not sure if fear was caused when I realized that I had died or that I had to come back.  Coming back was not a pleasant experience.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Yes

my abilities stem from studying and meditation, but everyone has those abilities.  Yes it did happen after.  Long after.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes

Yes, but not immediately

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       Everyone is unique.  Each person is trying to get back to the source from which they came.  I can tolerate ANYTHING now.  Everything happens for a reason.  Our reactions to events in our lives is what makes us unique.  Otherwise we are one.  I pray every day.  I have no religion.  Neither does GOD.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes

Years ago, when I mentioned my experience with others their reactions were usually silence.  Now people are more open to this sort of thing because of the shift in consciousness toward the new spiritualism.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  I experienced fear and depression at having to come back.  But I am over that now.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      The worst part is that I came back as the same person.  I was still a druggie.  I didn't have any special abilities.  I still had to get myself together on my own.  The best part is that I found that I am a part of ALL THAT IS for whom I am experiencing this life.  And when it is over He wants me to come home.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        to return to the SOURCE, seek the silent mind and the open heart.

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes

 Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    I think you have asked all the necessary questions