Francesca M's NDE

Experience description: 

My daughter had just been born, everything had been very fast. I saw that the physician was giving me a new shot to sew the cut on the vagina that to prevent further tearing. I remember that I told him it was not necessary since anesthesia had just worked for on me for the cut. He didn't listen to me. I felt a big heat rise inside of me, the tongue began to swell and I fell back because it was suffocating me. I didn't see us any more and the ears whistled.

I said to Mark (a close friend in the operating room), 'I am about to die.'  I know what it feels like to faint, before and after. When one faints, nothing happens before and after. This was different. I was out of body, but I was not afraid.  I felt a infinite peace.  It is difficult to describe, because it was not happiness but harmony, peace, a very beautiful feeling. I went fast, projected into this dark space and headed for a clear, bright light. I was projected toward that light that became brighter and brighter.  I thought that there was there the Madonna. I was raised to believe and to be devoted to the Virgin Maria. I thought about the child who had just been born.  I saw my child’s face, but I was too well for fermarmi.  I knew that if I had reached the light I would not have been able to return back anymore.

Then I thought about my husband and I looked at him, then at me, and then I saw the face of my first-born. I understood that I had to stop and to return for her, she needed me. In that moment, I woke up in the birthing room.  I saw a coming and going of physicians, the cardiologist, all shaken ones and at that time I began to be afraid.

mia figlia era appena nata, tutto era stato molto veloce. Vidi che il medico mi stava facendo una nuova iniezione per cucire il taglio sulla vagina che si effettuava per impedirne la lacerazione. Mi ricordo che gli dissi che non era necessario dato che mi aveva appena fatto un'anestesia per il taglio. Lui non mi ascoltò. Sentii un gran caldo salire verso di me, la lingua gonfiarsi e cadere all'indietro soffocandomi. Non ci vedevo più e le orecchie fischiavano.

A Marco che stava accanto a me (amico che faceva uno stage medico) dissi: ‘sto per morire’ Premetto che sono svenuta spesso da piccola e so cosa si prova, prima e dopo. Quando si sviene non succede nulla tra il prima ed il dopo. Mentre qua fu diverso. Di colpo mi trovai nel buoi, ma non avevo paura, anzi provavo una pace infinita.Difficile da descrivere, perchè non era felicità, ma armonia, pace, una sensazione bellissima. Andavo veloce, proiettata in questo spazio buio e lontano una luce chiara, forte. Ero proiettata verso quel bagliore che diventava sempre più grande mano a mano che mi avvicinavo. Pensai che là c'era la madonna. Sono stata educata in una famiglia molto credente e devota a Maria vergine. Pensai alla bambina appena nata, vidi il suo viso, ma stavo troppo bene per fermarmi,sapevo che se fossi arrivata alla luce non avrei più potuto tornare indietro. Poi pensai a mio marito e lo vidi, poi ai miei, e poi vidi il viso della mia primogenita. Capii che dovevo fermarmi e tornare da lei, aveva bisogno di me. Nel momento in cui decisi di fermarmi mi svegliai nella sala parto, vidi un viavai di medici, il cardiologo, tutti agitati e in quel momento ho iniziato ad avere paura.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience:  Uncertain

      Explanation:  The physicians have said that what I experienced was due to the hallucinations of the anesthetic; I medici hanno detto che ciò che ho vissuto era dovuto alle allucinazioni dell'anestetico

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes

      What was it about the experience that makes it hard to communicate?  Difficult to explain with words about the perceptions and the feeling of peace that don't have relationship with our world. It seems to me that the words; reduce the experience because they are unable to correctly express the experience. 

E' difficile spiegare con parole delle percezioni e il sentimento di pace che non hanno relazione col nostro mondo. Mi sembra che le parole riducano o meglio non riescono ad esprimere correttamente quanto ho vissuto

At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event?  Yes

      Describe:  According to the physicians, from the anesthesia there are from 1 to 2 deaths and that I would have been in the norm and not die; Secondo me si, i medici mi hanno poi detto che su circa 300 parti all'anno ci sono da 1 a 2 decessi e che io sarei stata nella norma.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?  During the NDE, I did not see the faces of my relatives; Durante la NDE non ho avuto contatto con la realt?a se non vedendo i visi dei miei familiari

Was the experience dream like in any way?  no

Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body?  No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?  Deep peace; pace profonda

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?  no

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?  Yes

      Describe:  the dark space described above was like a large tunnel; ample lo spazio buio descritto sopra era come un tunnel ma ampio

Did you see a light?  Yes

      Describe:  clear unbagliore but she could be seen with the clear light;  unbagliore chiaro ma che si poteva guardare con gli cchi, una luce chiara

Did you meet or see any other beings?  No

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?  No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?  No

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?  No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes

      Describe:  Space and time non measurable; Spazio e tempo non misurabili

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?  No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?  Yes

      Describe:  I had a choice; Sono arrivata al punto del non ritorno ma senza superarlo

Did you become aware of future events?  No

Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body?  Yes

      Describe:  ... then I saw the face of my first-born. I understood that I had to stop and to return for her, she needed me. In that moment, I woke up in the birthing room.  I saw a coming and going of physicians, the cardiologist, all shaken ones and at that time I have begun to be afraid.; ...poi vidi il viso della mia primogenita. Capii che dovevo fermarmi e tornare da lei, aveva bisogno di me. Nel momento in cui decisi di fermarmi mi svegliai nella sala parto, vidi un viavai di medici, il cardiologo, tutti agitati e in quel momento ho iniziato ad avere paura.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?  No

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  No

Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?  to elaborate a similar experience has not been easy, however, I have more ever become convinced that each of us has an assignment on this earth; elaborare un esperienza simile non è stato facile, comunque mi sono convinta più che mai che ognuno di noi ha un compito su questa terra

Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes

      Describe:  someone has given me some mitomane. I have told him a little. It is not easy; qualcuno mi ha dato della mitomane. L'ho raccontato a pochi. Non è facile

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  Fear, I have been unafraid since I have discovered that to die is beautiful and I understand why many don't fight for returning anymore. Death is beautiful and attracts you; Paura, ho avuta paura poichè ho scoperto che morire è bello ed ho capito perchè molti non lottano più per ritornare. La morte è bella e ti attrae

What was the best and worst part of your experience?  to have tried that state of deep peace that I don't know if I will still succeed in trying here. To know that death is beautiful and is difficult to detach from that knowledge; Aver provato quello stato di pace profonda che non so se riuscirò ancora a provare qua. Sapere che la morte é bella ed è difficile staccarsene

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?  No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?  No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?  Yes