Florence O's NDE

I knew I was dying, seconds before I actually died.  My husband was there.  I hit the floor and he grabbed me.  I looked at him from way above his head, he was holding me and screaming at me.  He looked at my body and yelled my name, and then yelled get back here right now.  I watched him from way above him and laughed.  I thought, "Does he think that's doing any good?  Yelling at me and I'm not in there, I'm in....." and then I realized where I was.  I was in a tunnel, going in backwards.  I thought to myself, please, don't let me die like this.  Not like this.  It was then I tried to turn around to face the tunnel, but a woman in a yellow dress grabbed my shoulder and my waist and pushed me back into my body.  I opened my eyes, and I was looking at my husband.  It wasn't until almost a year later, that my Uncle showed me some old photos that he had in a shoe box.  One of the photo's was of the woman in the yellow dress.  She was my grandmother's sister, Maggie.  My great-Aunt.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?          No     

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes    Accidental drug interaction

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?  See above

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?          More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:        I have died before, when I was a child.  I'm not sure how to answer this question.  I did decide to become a psychologist after this though.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?          Uncertain     I've always seen spirits.  My grandmother and my daughter can see them too.  I'm not the best at it.  My grandmother is the best.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?          Uncertain     Not sure how to answer this question

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?          Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?          Laughter.  Happiness.  Freedom.  One part was sad though, when I realized how I would die.  I don't mind dying, but I didn't want to die like that.  It was important that I not bring shame to my family.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?        Yes    I saw the tunnel, but I only got a little way into it.

Did you see a light?         Yes    A glowing light.  Soft.  Friendly.

Did you meet or see any other beings?         Yes    She loves me.  My grandmother was there too, but it was my Aunt Maggie who pushed me back.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?   Uncertain    

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?         Yes    Recognized my Aunt Maggie, who died before my mother was born.

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?          Uncertain     The tunnel was beautiful, seemed out of place with the rest of the world.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes    Husband said I was only dead for about two minutes.  I thought I was gone for maybe 30 minutes or so.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     No     

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain     Not sure how to answer this question

Did you become aware of future events?      No         

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?       No      I was born with intuitions. My whole family is.

Have you shared this experience with others?        Yes    I shared it with my husband first.  Then I talked to some elders about it.  This isn't something that I felt comfortable discussing with everyone though.  Only with people who could help me understand it, or had experiences similar to it.  Indians are more open to these things, so I talked mostly to us.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes    I've died before, when I was a child.

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real   I viewed it the same.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? Meeting Aunt Maggie, knowing that my grandmother and my family will be there when I'm really ready.  Also, that I had to straighten my life up and make my family proud so I can join them with pride.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:          Experience was definitely real         It's real.  It's as real as I'm sitting here right now.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?          Uncertain     I've changed my life around.  I don't like hanging around with people who don't have it together anymore.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? No     

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?    No         

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? I'm not afraid of death.

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? No      You'd have to have been there to understand it completely.  It's really a beautiful experience, at least it was beautiful for me.