Fatima A's NDE

Experience description: 

My NDE was in December 1998, I was pregnant in my second month for the fourth child.  I returned from a vacation in London.  I didn’t take care for my pregnancy as I was holding many bags in the airport.  I remember that I felt strange movement in my womb when I hold a heavy one. I didn’t pay attention to this feeling.  After 2 days, I felt my hands and feet were very cold and I had headache.  Then I began to bleed.  I spent long hours at toilet and I expected that the fetus can get out without a help of a doctor.  But the the bleeding did not stop.  My husband tried to convince me to go to the hospital or to call my family and my sister who works as doctor, I refused.

When my husband noticed that I began to lose consciousness and talking nonsense, he called my family.  They hurried to my home and took me to the hospital.  I remember that my dress and blanket which covered me became red.  I remember also that the doctors were very surprised to see all that bleeding, and hurried to prepare the operation room.  I heard them talking to my sister, that my situation is very critical and my blood pressure is very low which threatened my life.  They gave me anesthesia, and then they began to ask me many question to be sure that I lost my consciousness to start the operation.  I lost consciousness gradually.  

After that, I remember I saw the most beautiful garden I ever seen, and I saw my cousin who died 5 months ago in an abortion operation, she was in the same age as me.  I saw her swinging in a high swing.  her legs were in a running small river, the water of that river was very clear like crystal, as I could see her legs inside it very clear.  I saw red stones in same size under the water, she was so happy, I tried to sit with her, but there was a fence.  She asked me to jump this fence, I told her that I can't.  I am fat and the people will look at me.  She told me that there is a gate there, and I can go to it, but she added that entering through that gate is very difficult.  She insisted and begged me again to jump the fence, I tried more and more, but I couldn’t.  I had strong desire to enter in that wonderful place, when I felt desperate from jumping. 

I went to the gate which my cousin pointed to me, it was very big gate with a big high beautiful door, with glittering golden hands like the big gates in the historical films but more beautiful.  There were two huge guards, they were holding spears, the spears are crossed, the legs of those guards are so huge like a building size, I was so small running between their legs trying to enter to be with my cousin.  I heard the door opened dragging across the ground with a high sound.  I tried to enter, but they forbade me, by putting the crossing spears in front of my face. 

I talked to one of them to let me enter.  I remember that he has white long beard, his beard started directly below his eyes and reached his belly, he looks strange but not scary.  He told me that entering through this gate is very difficult.  He described exactly what I needed to do.  I replied him, "ok , I will do.  I will pray more, and fast more and give more money to the poor."  It seems that he ordered me to do so, as I don’t remember his orders directly from him.  I told him that I will come to you next year, and ran back.  I returned back to him and told him that I will bring my father with me to live both in this wonderful place.  He told me, "No, your father has no place here, (as my father is a secular, he doesn’t believe in God or prophets or the lasting life)."  I told him, "No, I will bring him with me, I love him so much!"  He replied me, "no, your father can not enter here at all.  Go out from here."  I told him, "ok, I will go out, ok, I will go out."

Then I opened my eyes and found myself in the bed in the hospital, and all my family were surrounding my bed and heard me saying, "ok,  I will go out, ok, I will go out."  I closed my eyes again, and after many hours I awake again with full consciousness. I told them all what I have seen in my NDE, they were laughing at me and thought that this is a kind of hallucination or dream as a result of anesthesia medication.  A few of them believed me, and what supported the skeptical ones is that I didn’t die after one year of this accident as I promised those huge guards. Sometimes I think this is a hallucination or a dream as my family say, and they added that I was so sad and touched by the death of my cousin many months before from her abortion.