Fanny L Probable Life-Threatening Event

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

It was 9 p.m. I was lying on the couch with my 6 year old son, who was sleeping. I had just smoked half of a cigarette and was watching a show about haunted houses. My heart started pounding, my left side started tingling, and I was having trouble breathing. I thought, I am having a heart attack, but that can't happen. Not now. I got up and crushed and swallowed some aspirin. I laid down and propped my legs up in order to have better circulation. I kept feeling different things happening to my body, but I kept fighting to hold on. Everything seemed to be going in slow motion. I kept doing things to stay in my body like flexing my fingers and toes, trying to do deep breathing, which was hard because I was struggling with that, and most important, I would feel my son's face and hair, just to keep that connection. He kept me going. I should have called 911, but I was afraid that if I left my son's side, I would die. I was scared and I prayed to God. I told Him that I knew He could save me, and that I needed to be alive to take care of my son. There was a point when I left my body. I didn't exactly see, but was given the knowledge that if I left now, my son would never recover from the experience. I was uncertain of what was going to happen, but I knew that I wanted to stay alive. I heard a familiar voice, although I can't quite remember who, saying; "You must return now." Eventually, I felt myself back in my body. I was absolutely freezing even though I was totally dressed and my thermostat was at 74 degrees. It took a long time to get warm. Also, it took a while to regain the different feelings and sensations in my body. My chest still hurt and I was totally exhausted. I was so grateful to be back and alive with my son.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No      

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     I felt that I was having a heart attack.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    It is hard to say, but I think it was when I was on the verge of leaving my body.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            It is hard to say, but I think it was when I was on the verge of leaving my body.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Uncertain      I saw things around me, but it was as though the room was not real.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Yes     The sound of the TV was very muted during my experience, even when I was consciously trying to focus on it.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            I felt fear about leaving my son. I also felt so much love for him, which was my reason to stay with him.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          No      

Did you see a light?           No      

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Uncertain      I didn't see anyone, rather I felt impressions of them, speaking to me and giving me knowledge.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No       What I learned, was that it would have been really bad for my son if I would have left him at this time.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No           

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Uncertain      I felt that things would be bad in the future for my son if I left, but that if I stayed, things would be alright.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes     I learned that I had to go back to my son in order to help him. I could only help him if I lived through the experience.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No      

Did you become aware of future events?       Uncertain
            Since I have lived through this experience, I don't know exactly what is to come, only that it will be ok.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     No      

Have you shared this experience with others?         No      

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    Yes     I have heard many various stories through my family, and, of course, through the media.

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    It has still been less than 24 hours since this has happened, but I believe with all that I know of life, that this was real. I believe this happened, not only as a warning to change some things in my life, but it is also a gift that I have survived.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?            The two things I learned, were that I must start taking care of myself better, and also that I have even more of a special job, as the mother of this, my child.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real    I believe that I have a definite purpose in being here, even if I don't fully understand it.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           No      

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            No           

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        I don't know if what I experienced was truly a NDE, but I feel it was.

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes     I feel like I have said all that I went through.