EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:
I do not remember going to the hospital or anything that entailed my arrival
there. They told me afterwards that I had to be resuscitated and I remained in a
coma for 3 days.
I remember it was dark,
pitch black.. I am terrified of the dark in life but I had absolutely no fear..
It was neither hot nor cold but I was aware of a tingle. I knew I was dead. I
knew I had no body. I looked at myself and was there, but not. My son's father
was there he had committed suicide a few years before and at that time we had
been on terrible terms.. All I felt from him was absolute love all I felt period
was complete love and peace and knowledge like I was full.
He kept telling me to
go back, but it was not in words it was like telepathy or something. I kept
begging to not but he kept saying I had too I did not belong here, and our son
needed me.. My son was kidnapped years before and I had not seen him since. I
kept saying " I wouldn't know him if I saw him and my ex showed me a visual of
him.. It did not look like what I remembered. He looked like a perfect mix of
his father and I. When he was little he looked exactly like his father, I did
not believe him I said that isn't him. He said you will see..
A figure I could not
distinguish came towards me he was in a robe. I felt safe though I did not know
him.
He guided us toward
what seemed to be something out of Clash Of the Titans like a reflecting glass
of sorts and pointed towards it, indicating me to watch. What I saw was like my
entire life in seconds but I did not have my experiences what I experienced was
the people I was dealing with feelings, like my effect on them how I had made
them feel. Kind of like without judgment but I knew how I had hurt people. Guilt
but not really more of an understanding of my energy on people.
Then my ex was pushing me back telling me to go I could not stay it was not
time, I begged to stay there with him. I was not allowed. He said this was not
the place for me. I must go back and make things right.
Was
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
Uncertain It is not something I find easy to describe.
At
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
Yes My blood alcohol level was .48 and someone had dosed me with MDMA
apparently.
At
what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness
and alertness?
The whole time
How
did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience
compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
If
your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was
different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please
explain:
The whole time
Did
your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect,
such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of
solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
Yes I was somewhat transparent as was my ex
Did
your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any
aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness,
etc.)?
Yes I didn't really hear anything so to speak it was more of a
telepathy
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
Unequaled peace, love
Did
you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
No Felt like I was floating
Did
you see a light?
No
Did
you meet or see any other beings?
Yes My ex was there and someone I didn't recognize
Did
you experience a review of past events in your life?
Yes I learned what my son would look like at an older age
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
No
Did
you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions?
No
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes it was irrelevant
Did
you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes cannot describe
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
No
Did
you become aware of future events?
Yes
my son
Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
you did not have prior to the experience?
No I have always been psychic to a degree
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes 2 years- I don't honestly know what their thoughts are, don't care
either.. I know what I saw.
Did
you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
No Only had heard of them, did not believe in them though
How
did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was definitely real I knew it had happened but thought perhaps it
was just a dream
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
my
ex was there
How
do you currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was definitely real The more I read others stories the
more I know I wasn't dreaming.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Yes
I
value them
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Yes
I am
very spiritual now
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No And I have done plenty of drugs
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
I
will never doubt life after death
Did
the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes Very encompassing
