Ellen K's NDE

Experience description: 

At first I was experiencing the most excruciating pain I had ever felt in my life, It was like being stabbed with a white hot sword over and over again!

after  roughly twenty minutes of this pain I began to feel serene and the pain was fading, I was apparently slipping in and out of consciousness, I vaguely remember people calling my name and touching me for a response but I was too busy concentrating on this "golden vortex" which seemed to be reeling me in!  The pain was going and I remember a strong sensation of warmth, comfort and pure love.

I was vaguely aware too when the ambulance crew arrived and were calling my name and trying to get a response out of me, but I could not respond as I was apparently unconscious! I also remember getting into the emergency room in the hospital and the staff there calling my name but getting no response, at this time I knew I was probably going to die as I could see the urgency in the faces of the doctors and my partner, but I didn't care, the pain had gone.

I eventually left the people here on earth and went into the brightest white light, there was nothing but light and love, warmth comfort and a feeling of forgiveness and understanding.

I couldn't see anything or anyone just the light but I feel I was communicating with my "father" which is strange as my father is still alive he didn't feel like my biological father but an "ultimate Father of all"(???)hope you can understand that!!

I experienced a time of rest and love and healing and then (I cant say when as time was meaningless) I had like a life review which was quite funny even though it was emotionally upsetting. I was asked what I thought and we agreed, much like the comments on all my school reports, "could have done better".

I was then asked what I would like to do next, whether I would like to go back to my life and try to improve or stay in the light, I guess I must have been undecided as I was then shown a vision of all my family around my hospital bed crying and looking really worried, this tugged on my heartstrings and I decided I wanted to go back as I couldn't bear to upset my family by leaving them behind!

so then I remember sick feelings and pain and my eyes opened and I awoke to see my family around my hospital bed all worried and upset!!!!!

I had been unconscious for two days and it was touch and go whether I would survive.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes    

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     My fallopian tube had burst and by the time I was rushed to hospital for emergency surgery I had fallen into deep unconsciousness and had to be resuscitated

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    When I was in the light.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            I knew and could see everything.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     I could feel the colors and knew they were more than just colors, maybe part of a being.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Yes     seemed faint but clear,

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            love, security, forgiveness, sadness and joy.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes     like a warm golden tunnel/vortex

Did you see a light?           Yes     after the tunnel everything was the brightest white ever, there was only white.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     felt like "the boss of everything" but very paternal, he was the light.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    Yes     I saw all my flaws and where I had been going wrong in my life, as well as my good points.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes     when I had a vision of everyone around my hospital bed. I awoke and there they were, although no one would believe me!

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Uncertain      I think so beautiful gardens and places to rest.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     no time or space etc just the white light.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes     I have forgotten most of it but the truth is love.?????

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No      

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes
            I would become a mother.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Yes     people say they feel healed in my prescience!!!!(?!?!?!?!)

Have you shared this experience with others?         No      

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No      

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    Exciting, I felt relieved, happy, no longer feared death or pain. I knew at the end of it all everything would be alright for everyone. hell is a myth!

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?   

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real    it happened to me and that's all I can say

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     I am more interested in justice and standing up for myself!

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            Uncertain      probably slightly more spiritual, but skeptical at the same time, I feel like I can see right through fake mediums etc. (which is most of them in my opinion!!!)

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes     feelings and experiences.