EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:
Took handfuls of any pill I could find, lied down. I remember a
dark tunnel but it was not that scary. I next remember being in a high chair
with my twin sister's next to mine. I remember how our living room was laid
out. I did not like my mother. I would not eat my carrots. I could turn in my
high chair, to look at her and did. I remember pretty much everything about the
kitchen, living room, and dining room. Why I had to remember this I do not
know. I then go to a place that is very beautiful. People all about the same
age, 25 to 30 are walking in different colored robes, all long. There was a
beautiful fountain, and the gate was one I could not get into to. I wanted
someone to let me in. It was as if no one could see me. It appeared to be a
place of learning. It was very beautiful. Next, I remember a male voice telling
me more in my soul than audibly, that I did not belong there yet. Boom. I was
back in my room. My mother was over me, and she had thrown a glass of milk on
me that had been next to my bed and was shaking me. I cannot remember if my
father took me to the hospital that day. I remember that before I tried to kill
myself, I was looking out of my bedroom window and it was snowing. It does not
snow very often in Georgia. I thought it was beautiful, I was not particularly
sad, I just did not want to be here and took the pills. My family life was
horrible. My parents kept kicking me out for no reason. I did not want to have
to live on the streets ever again, just because one of them got mad over
'anything'. My twin sister lived with a family up the road and was OK.
I
had a very strange experience during a back fusion. I felt the doctor's warmth
from his stomach; he was a rather portly man. I could not feel any pain
though. I should have been in pain as the surgery was done through my stomach
to get to my back. No pain. I wanted to get out of there. I kept waiting for
someone to come through the doors so I could get out of there. Someone opened
the door, I went out, turned to the right, but it was a fire exit. I turned
around and went to the left, and ended up in a small refreshment room. That is
all I remember about that.
Was
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
Yes
At
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
Yes
At
what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness
and alertness?
Being in the highchair and looking around my old house and my first sight of
'the school'.
How
did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience
compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
If
your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was
different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please
explain:
Being in the highchair and looking around my old house and my first sight of
'the school'.
Did
your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect,
such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of
solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
Yes I could see the sights around me, see myself, yet be 'there'.
Did
your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any
aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness,
etc.)?
Yes I cannot explain the 'voice' that would not let me in the
school. It was audible but yet, more explicit in intent through feeling, what
he said.
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Uncertain
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
disappointed that I was not worthy to stay at the place I was at and
would not be let in-I could feel my own emotions and those of other's, although
I was just a baby. I felt pretty good about not eating the carrots, enjoyed my
dad being close to us, remember disliking my mother, and feeling her aggravation
Did
you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
Uncertain I went through something that felt like a twirling. It was very
quick, but dark, like going through a dinosaurs intestines or something like
that.
Did
you see a light?
Yes When I got out of that quick trip through the darkness and got to the
'school?'.
Did
you meet or see any other beings?
Yes I could see people, but they would not acknowledge me. The voice was
not present visibly, but when he said I was not ready to be there, I was back in
my room.
Did
you experience a review of past events in your life?
Yes The only one I remember well, is being in my high chair and not eating
my carrots.
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
Yes I could describe perfectly the highchairs, the living room, the kitchen,
the way my father was lying on the couch; everything. I finally told my mother
and she said there was no possible way I could have remembered that; but what I
told her about the scenery was 100% correct. She was very shocked.
Did
you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions?
Yes Beautiful building, fountain, beautiful grass, nice looking but serious
people in different colored robes, walking through the outdoor corridors of this
buiding.
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
Uncertain I don't know. I was just where I was. I liked it.
Did
you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Uncertain If I would have been let into the building, I felt that
what I would learn would ease every pain and question in my soul.
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Yes I quickly got out of the darker place.
Did
you become aware of future events?
Uncertain
Sometimes I just know things. More when I was little. This was
true before and after the experience.
Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
you did not have prior to the experience?
Uncertain
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes thirty years
Did
you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
No I had no religion and never sought outside help of things of the soul.
I just lived.
How
did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was definitely real I thought nothing of it for many years. I
just went day to day as that is all I could do then.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
Seeing my dad lying on the couch, and especially the school as I call it.
How
do you currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was definitely real I finally validated the experience by asking
my mother some of what the environment looked like and telling her some too, at
the same time. She was shocked.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Uncertain
Not
really, the experience was mine.
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
Not
this experience. No.
Did
the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes I am not feeling well today, but love C2C so thought I would fill out
your questions.
Are
there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience?
Keep up the interest. There is so much we don't know, need to know, and may
know one day. Keep up the research. It is the only way to prove anything.
