EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:
I was in the delivery room of the hospital with a doctor, nurses,
and an anesthetist giving me small intermittent doses of anesthesia with a mask
he placed over my nose and mouth. I was having contractions that were fairly
weak compared to my three previous deliveries. The first twin was presented seat
first and the doctor was struggling to deliver her when I experienced difficulty
getting air, I felt like I was choking and began struggling, thinking it was the
mask over my mouth that prevented me from breathing. Then I saw people around
me, but they acted like I was not there and said things like, "Is the priest
gone?" "Where is her husband?" "I would be gone too if I did this to her" I
assumed the delivery was over, and the twins had been born, and I wanted to see
them. I felt no discomfort at this time and went to sleep.
The next thing I was
aware of was lying on my back on some type of bed, within a dimly lit room. I
noticed the window that looked like the one in the delivery room, but I recalled
it had been shaded and now was not shaded. It looked like the sun was rising and
that too seemed strange since it was close to noon when I went into the delivery
room. Then as I gazed at the sun it kept coming closer to the window, getting
larger and speeding up and getting brighter. My thought was that the earth and
the sun were about to collide and I was witnessing the end of the world. The
ball of light came through the window with the sound of a swift wind, and I saw
that it was an awesome image of illuminating white light that was Jesus. I was
afraid because I felt unprepared to be judged. I wanted to speak but was unable
to do so. I noticed his youthful appearance and thought him to be near my age. I
saw his sandals were old and worn and wondered why he would not have newer ones
to wear. He took steps suspended in mid-air. His arms were reaching out to me,
and then he spoke. He said "You are not ready to die, you still have work to
do." He hesitated, and then said "And don't be afraid, I will be with you." I
watched him back up toward the window and leave just as he had entered. The
bright light then returned to the sky.
I
woke up gasping for air, just like I had earlier. There was a blank covering my
face and over my head. I was in a most comfortable position with my arms at my
side, and my legs laying flat, but I was not able to move any part of my body.
My hands and feet felt like chunks of ice. Again I thought the twins had been
born, as I did not feel pregnant, or feel life in me. I wanted to get the
blanket off of my face and began to try to blow it off. The only person nearby
was a nun, as everyone else had gone to lunch or to the chapel. She heard me
making noises and came rushing into the room, calling out as she came "
Help...Someone help...I need help in here" She removed the cover from my face
and began pushing on my stomach, and then proceeded to attempt to deliver the
unborn twin with the protruding buttocks, and as she accomplished this I fell to
the floor, as I was on a gurney and no longer strapped to the delivery table. As
I hit the floor, landing on my lower back and my head hitting the floor, I was
knocked unconscious and my next conscious event was being wheeled down a
hospital hallway to a room where I remained paralyzed for several weeks, from
the fall causing a spinal injury. The twin girls were in relatively good health
and today they have college degrees, are married, and have children of their
own.
Was
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
No
At
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
Yes Extremely high blood pressure with prolonged light labor, about ten days
or more. My small physical frame with almost no wiggle room for babies. One
weighing 5 lbs and the other weighing 4 lbs 12 ozs.
At
what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness
and alertness?
I felt a high level of alertness throughout the experience, and have relived it
throughout my life since then, almost on a daily basis.
How
did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience
compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?
Normal consciousness and alertness
I felt a high level of alertness throughout the experience, and have
relived it throughout my life since then, almost on a daily basis.
Did
your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect,
such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of
solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
No
Did
your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any
aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness,
etc.)?
No
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
Fear, Awe, Relief
Did
you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
No
Did
you see a light?
Yes
Did
you meet or see any other beings?
Yes I believed the image I saw was Jesus, and believe it to this day.
Did
you experience a review of past events in your life?
No
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
No
Did
you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions?
No
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes I believed I was experiencing judgment and the end of time.
Did
you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes I felt I was being offered a second chance at life on earth, and that I
needed to offer my life for the good of others.
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
No
Did
you become aware of future events?
No
Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
you did not have prior to the experience?
Yes I am able to accept adversity with knowledge that Jesus is near when I
seek his aide.
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes It is only in the past ten years that I have been able to talk about my
experience. I did not think people would believe it, and some still do not.
Did
you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
No
How
did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was definitely real I never thought it did not happen.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
I
don't need to be perfect to be forgiven by God. I do need to believe in Him and
His forgiveness, and work towards perfection by seeing the good in others and
being forgiving of their transgressions.
How
do you currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was definitely real I know that it happened.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
No
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
It
is so good to know that others have had the experience. I wish every living
person could experience this before they finally die.
Did
the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes
