EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:
On Sunday the 11th of Sept. 2001 I awoke around 10:30
a.m. got my laundry in order to do some washing. Piles of dirty clothes on my
living room floor and stacks of quarters on my coffee table. Someone was using
the washing machines in my apt complex so I thought I'd take a hot bath. I sat
in the bath for 45min. and read the Sunday paper. After my bath I did a little
house keeping. Around 3p.m. I started to feel bad. I got on the phone to a dear
friend and at that time she was on her computer and so it went straight to her
voice mail. the next thing I remember is stand at the foot of my bed and
watching the phone fall out of my hand and thinking that that was he dumbest
thing I ever done. 911 was called and I didn't not do that so I do give that
over to God. Seven minutes later the Fire Dept. broke down my door and found me
dead at the foot of my bed were I had fallen on to the TV. stand were I had hit
my jaw and had broken out a tooth but because my heart had stopped beating there
was no blood. They defibrillated me 12 times from the time they found me to the
time I arrived at the hospital.
Now while all this was
happening, 200 miles away my grandfather had a heart attack at the same time. We
were both kept alive through the night but the next morning we both had heart
attacks again. At that time I had my NDE. There was no tunnel of light that I
hear some much about, it was just an expanse of white light. Off in the distance
to my right was what appeared to be the shadow of a large oak tree with a large
group of people standing under it. As I got closer the this group I recognized
the people standing in the front of the group as my grandmother, my great uncle
Glenn, my great aunt Lala, my great aunt Wanda her husband Lee, a woman that was
like a grandmother to my sister and me and then a group of people that I thought
I knew but at that time I couldn't put names to their faces. I tried to speak to
them but all they would say to me is "We're not waiting for you go home". I
spoke to most of these people and everyone said the same thing "We're not
waiting for you go home". Then the last thing I remember from that side was my
grandfather's voice, I did not see him I just heard his voice say "Your the
luckiest boy I know". Then three days later I awoke in the hospital with my
Mother and Sister standing over my bed. My Mother says that my first question
was about the play I was working on at the time and my second question was about
my Grandfather. The Doctors told her not to tell me right away that he had died
two days earlier so as not to put me in shock.
I've told this story to many people and the local weekly wrote an article about
my experience. But I still struggle with this every day.
Was
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
No
At
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
Yes My grandfather died at the same time 200 miles away.
At
what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness
and alertness?
From the time I was in the light till I hear my Grandfather's voice.
How
did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience
compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
If
your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was
different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please
explain:
From the time I was in the light till I hear my Grandfather's voice.
Did
your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect,
such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of
solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
Yes Very bright and clear and encompassing.
Did
your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any
aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness,
etc.)?
Yes very clear
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
confusion, joy, love, what ever the opposite of pressure is.
Did
you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
No
Did
you see a light?
Yes a huge expanse of white light.
Did
you meet or see any other beings?
Yes deceased family members and the only thing they would say was "We're not
waiting for you go home"
Did
you experience a review of past events in your life?
No
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
Yes Some of the people that I thought I knew were long deceased relatives
that I'd never meet but after this experience was shown pictures of them but
living relatives.
Did
you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions?
Uncertain It was definitely some place not of this world although It had
some familiar site.
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
No
Did
you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
No
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Yes The tree and the space that my family was standing.
Did
you become aware of future events?
No
Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
you did not have prior to the experience?
No
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes The next day and for many days after.
Did
you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
No
How
did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was definitely real It was as if I were seeing and talking to
anyone any day of the week.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
Seeing my deceased relatives and hearing my grandfathers voice.
How
do you currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was definitely real It still hangs over me as if it happened
today.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Yes
Hard
to put in words but it concerns me greatly.
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
It
makes me feel that I missing something that I can't put my finger on.
Did
the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes I'm a really bad typist but I hope that what I've shared with you made
sense.
