Diane S' NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

            When I woke up in the morgue, I was naked and paralyzed.  The only available light came from the opaque glass window in a door.  Two people stood in the doorway. a nurse holding the clothes I had had on and my brother in law.  He said "do dead people cry'.  The nurse looked at me and said "oh, my God".  I passed out.  I came to again and was being wheeled down a corridor with signs above me saying intensive care.  I passed out again. 

Then I became aware that I was semi-alert.  Not awake but aware of something happening to me.  I felt like I was a smoky being inside my body.  This smoky being was curling up.  First I curled up inside my feet, then legs, then arms, then body.  All very, very slowly.  When all the smoky being was inside my head I suddenly felt a  big pop and I was outside my body.  I could look down on my body from above.  I wondered if I could go through the wall.  I did. outside of the room was a long corridor. 

My mother, sister and brother-in-law were there.  My sister said I wonder if we should stay.  My brother-in-law said I will do whatever you guys want.  My mother said well you know I don't like hospitals.  If felt annoyed with them.  I decided to go up the corridor to see what was there.  Around the corner was a seating area.  I got nervous about being away from my body.  I decided to retrace my path.  Back in the room I was amazed to discover the body was talking to two police officers.  Describing an accident but not in any way the one that I had been in.  I decided to go back into my body.  I saw that there was a bright light outside the window.  Outside the window was a parking lot.  I had seen it when I left the room.  Now I could not see any parking lot, just the bright light.  I thought to myself, I am not ready to go.  Immediately I was inside my head and the smoky being was unraveling slowly.  I felt that someone else was in the body.  I felt that someone had a name "Cathy".  I thought Cathy you do not have to go.  You can stay too.  I felt that person was frightened.  I did not talk to the police.  Cathy stopped talking.  I passed out again.  I spent weeks in the hospital.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No      

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No       woke up in hospital morgue

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    yes

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            yes

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     The light from the window was so intense it obscured all other colors and made them look washed out.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Yes     Acute

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            I had no affinity for my mortal body.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          No      

Did you see a light?           Yes     I saw only this extremely intense light.  I knew that I had the option to go into it or stay back.  It didn't entice me.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     At the accident scene.  I was thrown violently from the vehicle.  I passed out and came to several times.  One time I was aware of a man holding me in his arms.  He ask me if I was cold.  He said I can get you a blanket.  I knew that if I opened my eyes he would not be there.  I asked him who he was.  He said "I am just a drover".  He said "you are going to be alright".  From that point on I knew that I had nothing to worry about so I did not worry. He said this with a most calming voice.  A voice I heard only in my head.  Not with my ears.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes     My sister and  brother-in-law verified the conversation in the morgue and corridor.  Years later an Aunt told me that he grandfather, my great grandfather had always said of himself, "I am just a drover".  She added that he had a remarkably beautiful speaking voice.

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No           

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No      

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     No      

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No      

Did you become aware of future events?       No
            Not at that time.  However later from time to time I saw visions of the future.  Also sometimes I could hear what people were thinking.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Yes     I had other near death experiences.  One time my car hit black ice and skidded out of control.  I saw clearly my two little girls years before they were born.  I was frightened at all.  I knew I wasn't going to die.  The car righted itself and I continued to drive.  I glimpsed the two occupants of an oncoming car.  They had a look of abject horror.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     Many years.  When I was discharged from the hospital I was in really bad shape.  I had amnesia.  I went back to work with no knowledge of what I did.  I had no fondness for my family.  I was a clean slate.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No      

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    I wondered who was living my life myself or Cathy.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?    I underwent a complete personality change.  First thing I did was a lot more traveling.  I gained a tremendous amount of self confidence.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real    My parents were very timid.  They never expected much from life.  The life I have lived is not the life that I would have lived if not for the accident.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     For example without reading your questionnaire, I have anticipated every question.  This has been my experience all my life since the accident.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            No            Intensified.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No       All my experience have been unrelated and never duplicated.  The other out of body experiences were a result of an accident on the operating table.  I left my body and saw what happened and later told the Doctor what he did.  He never tried to do that particular thing again.  I did not sue him.  It was a mistake.  I tried to have out of body experiences but could not of my own volition.  Now I have cancer.  I am fine and healthy but in pain sometimes so I can take morphine when needed.  I know that I am not going to die just yet.  I have something yet to do.  I do not know what it is though.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        I don't want to spook you.

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes     You know.

Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience?   No