Diane C NDE 4626

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

 First, a bit of background, I had left Quebec on April 30, 1983 to go learn English in Alberta.  I was working as a family helper in a house in Wanham about 300 miles North of Edmonton.  It was a very, very small village and one day I bought a “Mountain Dew” soda (in a green bottle).  I was drinking with a straw and half way down I noticed there was a lot of filth floating in the bottle.  As I was drinking with a straw I drank all the concentrated contamination.  I think my discomfort started there.

The next day I had abdominal pain and after spending a week in the local hospital I was transferred to a bigger hospital and was then sent to the hospital in Edmonton.

After many tests I was told there was blood in my intestines and I was given some powerful medication which gave me very unpleasant side-effects.  And, my breathing was different.

I was hallucinating, I was hardly sleeping and I felt so weak and ill, I was sure I would die.

One day, I think the nurse was near me, I don’t know if it was morning or night, but I took a deep breath and felt it would be my last.  I was no longer breathing; I was still conscious and didn’t miss the air at all.  I simply stopped breathing and felt quite well.  A few seconds later, I felt someone giving me mouth-to-mouth at least three times.  At the same time (oh yes, I think it was very late in the evening) I heard noise in the corridor like a piece of metal furniture on wheels.. I imagined that they were coming toward me to resuscitate me.  Then, before they even came into my room.. I lost it.

At that instant, I felt myself floating in the air, lying horizontally about three-quarters of the way up, that is to say.. a few feet from the ceiling.  I wasn’t moving at all and none of my senses was working.  I was very content and would have wanted to stay there it was so peaceful.  I was in danger but didn’t know it at all.  Also, I saw a big tunnel right in front of me, very near and it was very very brightly lit.  The tunnel was at least ten feet in diameter and was just a few meters away from me.  The light was very, very intense.  It seemed to have a very thin veil in front of the entrance and there was an extremely bright light behind it.  Also, during all this time, I was still lying horizontally without moving.  However, when I lost it at the beginning I felt that my eyes had opened as if I were dead.  I think that during all of this experience my eyes were open.  Also, I could see five or six people who were all white, like the surroundings and I could only see the outline of their bodies in silhouette.  It’s impossible to say if they were men or women because everything was white and nothing else about them was identifiable.

I don’t know at all how much time I stayed in that state but suddenly, I woke up and saw the five or six people around me for real.  It was the doctors and nurses who were at my bedside.  I had tubes everywhere.  At the time when I came to I was told to take deep breaths and I started having abdominal pains again.  I was given a morphine injection and I was sent to intensive care for the night.  The next day I learned that I’d come very close to dying.  It’s an experience which, even after 27 years, still seems very vivid in my memory and I will never forget it.  It’s practically inexplicable to try to get others to understand how one experiences such an uncommon occurrence.  It’s the first time that I have the chance to tell my story in detail and I’m very pleased because it intrigues me a great deal!

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?         No      

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?         No      

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?            I was very lucid when I stopped breathing and when I had artificial respiration too.  My eyes were closed and I knew that I wasn’t breathing anymore but I felt fine and my body was telling me not to breathe.  After the third mouth-to-mouth which I felt every time my abdomen inflated, I lost it and in a fraction of a second, I experienced what is described above.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            I was very lucid when I stopped breathing and when I had artificial respiration too.  My eyes were closed and I knew that I wasn’t breathing anymore but I felt fine and my body was telling me not to breathe.  After the third mouth-to-mouth which I felt every time my abdomen inflated, I lost it and in a fraction of a second, I experienced what is described above.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?   Yes      My vision was very different because I can describe in detail the degree of brightness and the very precise outline of the people (who looked like ghosts).  It’s the enormous intensity of the light from the tunnel that struck me the most.  I could see all the details of the whiteness without even moving, and I was lying down.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Yes      Just before falling into unconsciousness, I could hear all the noises, but once off into my experience, nothing, I could no longer hear anything at all

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?       I was very calm, I felt very good, I wasn’t afraid.  It was perfect happiness. It’s very difficult to explain.  Never again in my life will I feel these same emotions.  It’s indescribable. 
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?      No      

Did you see a light?  Yes      The light, of a maximum intensity was right in front of me but wasn’t blinding me because it seemed to have a thin veil in front of it.   I could still feel myself floating in the air, lying horizontally and motionless.

.Did you meet or see any other beings?     Yes      I only saw the outlines of the five or six people who were at my bedside as though they were covered by the same piece of cloth..  I very easily could produce a drawing on request.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?            No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?  Yes     As I said, I could see five or six people all in white and I only saw the outline of their bodies.  No other details. When I came to, the same people were at my bedside but in flesh and bone.

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            No      

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?           Yes      I can tell you that time didn’t exist. It seemed to be stopped.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?       No      

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?          No       I saw the big tunnel in front of me as though I was standing, but in reality I still felt as though I was lying on my back with my head toward the sky and not the ceiling.  There was no ceiling, space was unlimited.  I didn’t know why this immense tunnel was there and I had the impression that had I crossed that boundary, that is to say: had I entered the tunnel, the way back would have been impossible.

Did you become aware of future events?  No      

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?    Yes      I feel truly transformed since this experience. I often guess the thoughts of others and my life has really taken on another meaning.  I feel much stronger and it seems as if an extreme power inhabits me.  I feel very different from others but it’s imperceptible.  I also feel protected.

Have you shared this experience with others?    Yes      I spoke about it with my bosses a few weeks after the experience. But it’s the first time that I write it in such detail.  I love it. I talked a little about it with my family about a year after coming back to Quebec.  I would say that the people with whom I talked about it didn’t listen to me religiously.  Their reactions weren’t explosive, the people didn’t ask any questions, it seemed to leave them indifferent.  Maybe they didn’t believe anything about this story but I did experience it as described.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?     No      

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real         I lived it as described and remember all the details as though it were yesterday even after 27 years.  I will always tell this story the same way and the experience was quite real, there is no doubt. Only the people who’ve lived such an experience can understand us.  You have the impression of being nowhere, of being lost in the universe and of having quite literally left the Earth.  It’s very weird to explain.
 
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?    

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:        Experience was definitely real        Because it’s still very vivid in my memory, I remember everything and know that I lived this experience as described.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes      I’m definitely not the same person.  Following this experience, I feel gifted with an interior strength bursting with energy which permanently inhabits me.  I am very different from others.  I’m often told that I am mysterious.  This strength helps me and accompanies me in my daily life.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? No      

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?   No       I don’t think that I’ll ever experience anything similar again in my life.  It’s impossible!

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?       I only hope someday to be able to share it with others who’ve been through it.  It fascinates me and we can surely decode things thanks to these experiences.

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?      Yes      I’ve told you my story as I experienced it at the end of August 1983.  It is with great pleasure that I responded to your questionnaire, hoping that my answers enlighten you.

Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience?    I am convinced that people who have lived this experience would like to talk about it in public.  The questionnaire seems comprehensive.

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