Dian S's Probable NDE

Experience description: 

      I'm in a very very dark place (frighteningly dark), but I know to look for a light, and I find on off in the distance.  The light becomes a tunnel head (opening), a force pulls me into the tunnel and pulls me very rapidly through a bluish-green tunnel.  I'm thinking "Why am I back here... what have I done wrong?"  I'm slammed up against the end of the tunnel, and can not get a breath; simultaneously my life is flowing in front of my face, no matter how I turn to get away from it.  Willing to shake hands with The Devil for a breath, I realize I'm going to have to do something about this life I'm confronting.  My feeling is I'm being tortured because I can't breathe and I finally have a realization that I have to do something with this life.  It dawns on me I will forgive myself for not doing it perfect, and I say this out loud to my self.  Upon saying this, the wall disappears, and I'm in a warm beautiful "really neat" place.  The 1st thing I thought was "They lied to me; there's nothing to judge here with" (read that carefully).  The experience of being there was "Like swimming naked at night in the Gulf of Mexico" totally supported, perfect environment.  the next realization was that my body was not there, but I had a sense of where it should be.  Next, I knew everything; I had all knowledge.  There was also the realization that the past was around me, the future was around me but everything was Now.  I was not the Nowness, but I was a part of that Nowness, and it could not be without me, and I could not be without it.

  I begin to be moved again and I wonder where I'm going, but I stop.  I look around, and look below and see I'm over the University of Texas at Austin.  While attending University of Texas I never bothered to find out what the quote carved into the administration building meant.  Between classes you read "Ye shall know the truth and the truth shall set you free".  Everyday I would read this and wonder what that meant, but I was into beer and football not truth.  Voices speak; they are in my thoughts; they ask do you know what that means now?  Before I could say no, bodies were stepping out of graves in the plaza in front of the administration building where I would pass to go to class.  As I surmise I say "Yes, it means you have to die to be born", but I realize this will not effect me as I'm already dead.  However, the voices say "Now that you know, you have to go back".  I said (furiously) "I want to talk to the Boss".

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience:  Uncertain

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  No

At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event?  Yes

      Describe:  Complete loss of blood pressure.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?  ?????????????

Was the experience dream like in any way?  It felt absolutely real.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?  Happy at being there, but angry at coming back.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?  I don't remember if there were any.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?  Yes

Did you see a light?  Yes

      Describe:  I became the light.

Did you meet or see any other beings?  Yes

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?  Yes

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?  No

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?  Yes

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes

      Describe:  I entered Te Oneness

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?  Yes

      Describe:  The meaning of the word free is Love, there for Love is Truth.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?  No

Did you become aware of future events?  No

Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body?  Yes

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  Merging with other people's thoughts

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  I realized death was an adventure.

Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?  I thought I was crazy, so I went into Jungian Dream Analysis for 9 years to realize I wasn't crazy I was in grace.   My children have never understood how it is that they have slipped from being the center of my life.  My husband has adjusted......

Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  Angry to be back.  Feelings that I was crazy.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?  coming back was the worse part.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?  When I finally recollected that I had been in the tunnel before, I was able to identify 3 other NDEs and 2 when I was in the light which I had always called dreams.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?  No response

      Describe:  I am the result of all my experiences.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?  No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?  Uncertain

      Explain:  Perhaps more descript answers could be gleaned.