Dian C's Possible NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

            On the afternoon of January 10th 2007 I began to feel kind of funky, like maybe I had eaten something bad. I went home that night and went straight to bed. Thursday, I went to work and by the afternoon I had a stomach ache and thought I was coming down with a virus. I went home that night and straight to bed again. About 12:30 a.m. I awoke with a strong pain in my gut like someone had stabbed me; it would not go away. I tried to call someone I knew and all I got was an answering machine. I waited (in pain) until I finally reached my neighbor at about 7 a.m. I had her take me to the nearest urgent care place hoping that if it was serious enough to go the ER that I could bypass the wait from a doctor's referral.

When I got there they saw me right away (to the annoyance of the others there) and gave me a "direct admit" to the nearest hospital and called them to say I was coming. I got to the hospital a few minutes later, but it was almost eight hours before I saw anybody. Meanwhile I called work throughout this time to give updates and became less and less coherent. The ER first assumed that I was a domestic abuse victim even through I had insisted that there had been no fight. Then they decided I had crohn's disease (which I knew was also wrong since my symptoms did not match others I have known with crohn’s) and an inflamed appendix which was a routine surgery and I would be out by Monday.

Well, when the surgeon went in, it was discovered that I not only had appendicitis (which the doctor later said probably went on Wednesday afternoon) but also a ruptured ileum (which the doctor later said probably was the sharp pain I was feeling starting the previous night). Puss went as high up as my liver. I did eventually recover (to the doctor's amazement) but I never told him about the NDE that I had during this process. I figured he would probably think I had lost my mind and fill me with antipsychotics. I went through the in multiple steps throughout the next several days. 

During the wait in the ER at some point I slipped away. It started with a darkened area (which was not a void) that was kind of a roadway with different colored streaks and sparks. I had the sensation like I was riding one of those airport level escalator things. Then the next thing I knew I was in a kind of desert-like place and I could see a stream of people going toward a building. At that point I knew what had happened and went to the building. At the building there was a door which admitted one person at a time. When my turn came I went through the door. What was inside looked like a cross between an old 19th century church and a barn. There were people there (none of whom I knew) and some small animals. No one would talk to me because they were occupied with whatever they were doing. This did not bother me at the time. I tried to talk to a woman who was especially distressed but could not get her attention. I realized I could not help her and went outside through another door which was not the door I entered from.  The area I went to was very bright, much brighter than a normal bright sunny day but I needed no time to adjust to the light. There were large animals and several roadways which I will not go into detail here. I then went back inside and finally found a badger who would talk to me. I was there for a very long time but he told me that I would eventually go to where I needed to go. I then was met by an unfamiliar man who told me, "You don't belong here." I was sent away. I then was back in the ER still in the lobby sitting uncomfortably in a chair-probably was slumped over and no one noticed. My experiential time was approximately a week although only a few hours had passed here. I had the mental state as though I knew I was going to die and was okay with it.

Eventually I was called back into the back part of the ER and then went to surgery. At some point I slipped back into the experience and found myself in a "class" with several other beings. It was kind of a neutral place similar to the physical plane. There was a large building that looked somewhat like an outdoor tent similar to the ones rented for vendor space only this took up an area about the size of a city block. There were tables with a variety of “tools” which went to the 100 or so students. Each of the students got one and knew which one we needed to take. These "tools" all had different functions. Also, the students were divided in groups of three except for mine which was one being and me. It seemed that both of us were last minute additions to the class. There were several instructors and it always seemed that we got the instruction we needed (never having to wait until an instructor was available). The being I worked with had a tool which could make constructs which could contain and manipulate metaphysical energy. I had a healing tool but it wasn’t physical-it seemed to do emotional healing. It wasn’t your typical college class. All the content was experiential and it did not matter how long it took us to “get it” since time did not work the same way as it does here and some of the tools were more complex than others requiring more time to learn what we needed to learn from using the tool. The class took experientially about four months. Half of it was actually at a place for learning how to use this tool and other related matters. My tool fit over my right hand then melded into it. It then stayed with me most of the time. After some time I learned to use the tool which did not come instantly. There was a lot of trial and error, guidance from the instructor and assistance from my “lab partner”. I also assisted him in a similar way with his tool. I found that in a typical healing, I take in a sample of the emotional energy which I am healing into my right hand. It then runs through the tool and the rest of me where I am able to get an idea of what the injury is and how to heal it. Then I get some energy (either from myself or ambient) and use the tool to form it into the correct healing energy for this particular injury and run it out my left hand into the person or being I am healing. If they accept the energy, it goes to the place within them and does its work. If not, it just runs through them and does nothing. The last half of the class involved going with my "lab partner out in the field" using our tools in a variety of situations. The clearest memory of my work in the field involved going into an area that looked somewhat like a prison complex (I know this association by some volunteer work I have done), but it seemed to be more precisely a mental hospital that looked like a prison. I worked at healing some of the beings there and my “lab partner” worked at making the place more comfortable for the beings that had to stay there.

After the class was over we then went to the home of my “lab partner” and we built some sort of healing construct. I met several of his closest friends who assisted us in whatever way they could. His tool built the construct and mine did the healing aspect to it. Experiential time passage for the class and building this construct was approximately six months. 

At some point, I don't know exactly when this happened in the hospital, but I met "the lady of the veil" who put her left hand beneath my neck and her right hand on my belly and I passed out. I then went to a place that was kind of like rolling hills of memory foam grass with little flowers all over the place. Some entity like none I've ever encountered was embracing me. Complete unconditional love and acceptance. I interacted with this entity for the next experiential two months. We had conversations and also just quality time together. This area was clearly a place where the truly dead can only go and I thought that I was not coming back. I knew that the last place I went to was beyond any "barrier" to come back but something or someone made an exception. I felt like I was completely loved and accepted for who I exactly am. I may have quirks in my character but that is insignificant. I felt completely open and totally immersed in this love and acceptance. There was no judgment but there was an all knowing aspect to the entire situation and place. At some point this entity told me it was time to go. There was no mission or purpose mentioned nor did I have a choice of whether or not to go. I did not know at the time where I was going to go but I knew I had to go there.

 I woke up to find at least two people (I think there was a third person out of my immediate vision) beside my bed. The nurse had a big needle and was flicking the air out of it. I felt very disoriented. It took me a few seconds to realize how little time had passed here since I had been “gone” to about 8 experiential months. The doctor leaped back when I said, "What are you doing?" He said something kind of lame like, "It took us a lot of time and effort to wake you up...." He asked me to move this, that and the other thing then asked me questions and pushed me to answer. He checked me over for the next several minutes. 

Obviously at some point I did come back. I noticed that my "life cord" was changed or absent and that I really wasn't back on some levels. This has remained true, in fact, if anything it has intensified since. This is only the tip of the iceberg. I went through eight months of experience while only eight days passed here. I did not believe in a higher power before, I believed the "gods" were mentors and elders, not gods in the common sense of the word,  but when you are embraced by this higher power, belief is not an issue. One cannot argue with experience. I am as much pagan as ever having not been raised (or indoctrinated) in the more common religions of this day and age. I interpret this “higher power” as my “patron deity” or personal guardian or whatever term you are familiar with. I did not have one prior to this and do now and am now able to interact with him/her. 

A common side effect to near death experiencers (one who has been through an NDE) is a drastic “paradigm shift” which means a drastic change in one’s perception of the world resulting in a big change in one’s personality. People that know me have said “you’re a completely different person” and in many ways I feel like I am living a totally different life than before. Anyway, a rather amusing epilogue is that a week before this happened I got moved to a different program at work. I am an engineer and I work for a company that has many projects (programs) and a person will shift from one project to another fairly often. This is rather routine. In this move, there had not been any people common to both positions. I then went through the NDE. Six months later, performance evaluations came around. My boss got reviews from both bosses and they did not match. It was like a review of two completely different people. When they got together with me they argued with each other the entire time, each accusing the other of being totally wrong in their assessment. It got up to the center manager (a level of management about three or four above these two) and he called it a "discontinuity" and attempted to make sense of it. I said nothing for the assessment. The later manager was a lot better that the earlier one.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     Certain things just do not have the words to describe.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     Burst appendix, ileum and cecum and waiting 8 hrs in the ER before anyone saw me.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    I think you don't mean how aware I was of my physical surroundings. I think you mean how aware was I during the experience. Then my answer would be during the "class"

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    Normal consciousness and alertness

            I think you don't mean how aware I was of my physical surroundings. I think you mean how aware was I during the experience. Then my answer would be during the "class"

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     I could see distinct things up to several miles away. My color spectrum was broader (I could see IR and UV).

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Yes     Broader range and could recognize things further away than usual.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Peace during the memory foam place. Do not recall any other strong emotions.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes     It was like an airport flat escalator thing. The surroundings were dark with flashes of various colors.

Did you see a light?           Yes     Very bright outside the building described in my experience

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     Most of the beings in the "class" were not human. There were animals and people in the barn-like place. There were "god-like" beings in the memory foam place.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes     I briefly came back to the hospital and found a friend crying by my body. She later verified it.

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Yes     The memory foam place with the "god-like" beings described in my NDE.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     I went through a few days here but experienced several months while away.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes            The class taught me how to do emotional healing and empathy.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes     but I passed through it. This made me think I was not coming back. I did not choose to come back but was sent back across the barrier.

Did you become aware of future events?       No           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Yes     Empathy, telepathy, healing and ability to read other aspects of people.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     I told my friends after I got out of the hospital a week later.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No      

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    One can not argue with experience. It changed me completely. One can read several books, talk with several people and form an opinion. However, this type of experience is a solid conveyer of fact.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?    It came in three parts. The first was the barn-like place, then the class then the memory foam place with the "god-like" beings.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real            The changes are permanent, or seem to be. It has become a part of me and I have chosen to accept the outcome.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     I have lost many of my friends who could not adjust to my changes. I have grown closer to people who now find me more approachable.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            Yes     I did not believe in a "higher power" before. I met one. How can one argue with that.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         Yes     I went to a hypnotherapist to try to retrieve more of the memories, especially of the memory foam place. I got more details but nothing actually added.
           

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         No       No talk of after effects which are a significant as the experience.

Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience?   Have another section on the after effects.