Deborah P's NDE

Experience description: 

I had taken a herbal supplement for the first time, recommended by a naturopath.

Within a couple of minutes I new something was wrong.

I was helping my mother who had fallen and had a suspected broken wrist. I did not want to alarm her so I did not tell her my full concerns for how I was feeling.  I have always believed that the body is an amazing thing. It somehow kept me going until I was in an environment that was safe for me e.g. hospital, three hours later.

During this approximate three hour period my main concern was not to worry my mother, who is very good at this. I'd seen a doctor who had advised that I go to hospital as I was having an allergic reaction and I should be observed.  When I arrived at the hospital I was taken straight into the acute section.

I remember getting into a gown, I remember questions, machines being hooked up, the sound of the heart monitor. I remember my right hand trying to pull the adrenalin mask off my face and a nurse with left arm and me having to use every ounce of strength, will power, determination, what ever it was, just to get the words 'not good' out. I remember thinking that I was falling, to the right, apparently I was lying down the whole time. I remember hearing someone say 'get the mother, now'. I remember hearing my mother say 'oh, my god'. I remember knowing that my mother was holding my hand but I don't remember physically feeling her hand.

I remember the sensation of being pulled backwards, not lying down, I was in a sitting position. Everything around me was a hazy grey, like thick grey fog but with a bright white light in the distance, at the top ('top' being the only way I can describe it) shinning down and through the fog.

There were no sounds.   There was also no more fear, no more pain, I wasn't terrified anymore. It was peace, it was my nirvana and I was happy to be there. I have never felt anything like it. I can still feel that feeling today.

And then I was back.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           100%

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain

I did not see my body from a distance. I felt my whole body move.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Uncertain

            Describe:      There were no walls as such.

Did you see a light?           Yes, Bright white light as stated at the 'top'.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           No

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No, That family, true friends and health are what truly matter.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Uncertain, The experience was beautiful

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   What is time?

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Uncertain, The experience was special

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         No

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Uncertain

There is another dimension

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       My life will never be the same. I can not do, feel, look, think, taste, live anything ever in the same light. I feel so lucky but at the same time very alone. I don't know anyone who has had the same experience, felt what I've felt. I feel in a way different from everyone. I keep asking myself why I was bought back? What is my purpose now?

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes

I will never take life for granted again. I value every moment. At times I'm confused.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes, I don't share it with everyone. Some look at me strangely, some have cried, one was jealous. I have lost friends.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  Mostly the greatest joy, but then there are times when something will trigger the emotions right before hand eg terror, fear, anxiety. I'm told that's normal.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      The way it's changed my life, the way I feel, think.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Uncertain, To a degree, but question it myself every day.