Experience description:
I floated up to the
ceiling and could see my body lying on the table. The doctors were alarmed and
saying that they were losing me. I was not scared, I was with a couple of very
kind people that I believed at the time were angels. They told me not to worry
they would take care of me.
I heard a
whooshing sound and was being propelled up through a dark tunnel towards a
light. As I looked around there were other people who I believed were angels who
surrounded me in the tunnel, they were singing. I wasn't worried I felt very
calm and happy.
When I
reached the end of the tunnel I was bathed in a bright warm light that felt
very serene. I felt safe and happy. A woman held out her hand to me , she was
lovely and I felt that she loved me and knew who I was. I felt safe in her
company. I didn't know who she was. She held my hand while I heard a
conversation between the angels who accompanied me and the voice that came from
the light. The voice said that it was not my time. The voice said I had not had
my children yet so I had to go back. I didn't want to go back! I wanted to stay
where I felt loved and safe from harm. The beautiful lady said not to worry
someday I would be back and she would see me then.
I found
myself back in my body. I woke up from the surgery and didn't tell anyone for
many years what had happened. One day a few years after the surgery my mother
showed me a picture of my paternal grandmother, who had died giving birth to my
father. It was the lovely woman who held my hand at the other side of the
tunnel. I had never seen a picture of her before.
Was the
kind of experience difficult to express in words?
Uncertain Well at the time of the event I was afraid to tell anyone what
had happened because I thought they would think I was crazy. I was an abused
child who had PTSD so not telling was easier than telling.
At the
time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
Yes My heart stopped from anesthesia during surgery.
At what
time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and
alertness?
heading through the tunnel and while listening to the voices discuss me.
How did
your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare
to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
If your
highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different
from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:
My mind was clearer because I didn't feel endangered, my thoughts weren't
clouded by fear.
Did your
vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such
as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of
solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
Yes Everything was brighter, clearer , colors were more vivid.
Did your
hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect,
such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
No
Did you
experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
What
emotions did you feel during the experience?
I felt loved, accepted, happy, secure and sad when I was told I had
to go back to my body.
Did you
pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
Yes see
above number 3
Did you
see a light?
Yes see above number 3
Did you
meet or see any other beings?
Yes see above number 3
Did you
experience a review of past events in your life?
Yes All I saw was that I was terribly unhappy child that was just trying to
get through life and tried really hard to be good so that I would be loved.
Did you
observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that
could be verified later?
Yes Explained in number 3. I was met by a grandmother I had never knew and
had never seen before.
Did you
see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions?
Yes Well the end of that tunnel was the most peaceful place, it was
beyond my imaginings, pure, serene and loving.
Did you
have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes time didn't seem to be relevant...
Did you
have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes I knew from that moment on that there is life after the body dies. I
knew that we are not judged by others when we die. I felt unconditional love.
That's a big step for a little girl who didn't know what love was.
Did you
reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Uncertain I don't really understand the question.
Did you
become aware of future events?
Yes
I became aware that I would live to have children.
Did you
have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you
did not have prior to the experience?
Yes Well I had an intuition about people and things. One of my teachers was
doing a thesis on ESP and used his classes as test subjects. I showed the
highest level of ESP out of all of his 240 students tested.
Have
you shared this experience with others?
Yes I didn't tell anyone for about 10 years. I told my husband and he
believed me totally. Later I shared with others and yes, some of them said I was
a "nutcase". My husband has always accepted that I have some different
connections than most people.
Did you
have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
No
How did
you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was probably not real I had never heard of anyone
experiencing something like that and I was scared to tell anyone for fear they
would label me as insane. So I kept it to myself.
Were
there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
Yes, I will
never forget the feeling of being totally loved and secure, the kindness of
those who surrounded me.
How do
you currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was definitely real I totally accept that this was a real
experience and that I was chosen to know that there is another place that is so
incredibly loving, accepting, joyful and perfect that awaits us all after our
time on earth or in this dimension is done.
Have your
relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
I am not afraid
to love with all my heart. This is a big deal for me, because I was severely
abused in all ways possible as a child.
Have
your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
No
Following the
experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or
substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
Concerning the last question. Before the experience I had many out of body
experiences in which I was surrounded by beings I assumed were angels during the
course of beatings and rapes that I experienced as a child. I would float up to
the ceiling and the angels would comfort me, distracting me from what was
happening to my body. So this is why I hesitated to tell anyone about my near
death experience. I had shameful secrets that I was forced to keep under threat
of death of those that I loved. So if this maybe makes my experience
questionable to anyone I would understand that entirely. After that year my
father was not around anymore to hurt me. So far in my life I haven't had
another NDE.
Did the
questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes
