EXPERIENCE
DESCRIPTION:
I
was out drinking with my ex-boyfriend and we were driving in his car after we
left the bar. An argument took place during a heated discussion. (3 years later
I still can't remember what we were arguing about)!
After this
took place I found myself in a dark tunnel with a bright light gradually coming
toward me. I then saw my mother who passed away in the year 2000. She was in
front of the light. We were communicating through each others minds, not
verbally. We can understand one another I remember, but I don't have any memory
of what was said. I just remember me feeling a floating sensation, not being in
my physical body. I didn't like the look my mother had, it was a look of fear. I
got that same look when she was alive at times she had worry and disappointment
in her eyes. (she tilted her head down and kept her eyes staring straight
inline with mine.
When I
woke up, I was never dead. I was in a coma for 3 weeks with a crushed skull,
brain injury, tracheotomy and a fractured 5th vertebra. The fracture was 1
centimeter from cutting into my spine that would have paralyzed me from the neck
down. Four months in the hospital, four surgeries and physical therapy. I went
to Illinois to stay with my father for a month.
The
doctors told my father that I would never be the same, they all said I would be
retarded. My dad then got guardianship over me and I recovered back 100%
mentally over a period of time. Physically you wouldn't see any flaws. I have a
dent the size of my hand on the left side of my head, only it is not noticeable.
I have a tracheotomy scar, scar in my stomach from the feeding tube and once
right handed...now left. A quarter size piece of the fine motor skills part of
my brain had to be removed. It effected my writing, eating with utensils and
typing. I had to train myself to do all of those things with my left hand.
It was
told to the police by my ex at the scene of the accident that I was so mad I
jumped out of the moving car (Corvette) going 40mph. They couldn't find proof
after investigation that it was attempted suicide. His insurance wouldn't cover
my medical expenses and I was 3 weeks shy on my new job collecting any medical
benefits. It cost me to file Chapter 7 Bankruptcy with just under 1 million
dollars that I owed.
After I
moved back to Dallas, TX, got my job back and moved in with my ex...I started
piecing together that he was cheating on me, that the argument the night of the
accident was about that. I still don't know how I ended up where I did, but I
think he had something to do with it. A doctor interviewed my after the accident
and reported I wasn't suicidal. The seating in a Corvette sits so low, you have
to step up and then out of the car. I was heavily intoxicated at the time, so I
know there was foul play.
Was the
kind of experience difficult to express in words?
No
At the
time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
No
At what
time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and
alertness?
At the bar we were at, Humperdinks
How did
your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare
to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?
Normal consciousness and alertness
Did your
vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such
as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of
solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
Yes My vision is fine, but when I drive now...only traffic to my right seems
they are closer then they really are.
Did your
hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect,
such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
No
Did you
experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
What
emotions did you feel during the experience?
I felt like I did something wrong where the afterlife had turned me
away, that look my mom gave me and always trying to make sense of the situation.
Given a second chance at life, I fear I'll mess things up.
Did you
pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
Yes Dark
tunnel with a bright light and my mother slowly moving toward me.
Did you
see a light?
Yes
Did you
meet or see any other beings?
Yes My mother
Did you
experience a review of past events in your life?
No
Did you
observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that
could be verified later?
No
Did you
see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions?
No
Did you
have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes The 3 weeks I was in a coma, my NDE seemed only like minutes
Did you
have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
No
Did you
reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
No
Did you
become aware of future events?
Uncertain
Did you
have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you
did not have prior to the experience?
No
Have
you shared this experience with others?
Yes I told my doctors, nurses and my family
Did you
have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
No
How did
you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was definitely real
Were
there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
The
disappointment in my mothers eyes
How do
you currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was definitely real
Have your
relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
I'm a lot more
personable and im closer with my family
Have
your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
No
Following the
experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or
substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did the
questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes
