Experience description:
It was about 10 am
Saturday morning 15 Feb 03, I was in my kitchen waiting for a kettle to boil for
a cup of tea before I went out. I had a stiff neck and then severe chest pain.
The pains increased across my chest and down my left arm, I was hot and sweating
and unable to talk. (I live alone so there was no one for me to cal out to) I
slumped to the floor as the pain increased. Sweating and gasping for breath I
became weaker. I reached a point that the pain was so bad that I said to my self
that "I don’t know what is happening but whatever it is it is killing me" I
could feel my self dying I knew it was unmistakable the feeling of my life
ebbing away was very clear, whilst lying on the floor there seemed to be a
separation I could distinctly feel the life force energy or what ever it is
leeching out of me I was aware of the difference between me and the life energy
leaving me.
It is difficult to describe in
words but there was a time when I seemed to occupy two different places I could
feel the pain in my body but I was also away from the pain as if floating beside
me I then felt frightened I could tell I was dying or dead not really sure which
would be right. But I knew that I did not want to be dead then So I remember
saying to myself "If I don’t stand up now I will never stand up" so I went back
to my body and made me stand up I remember feeling a rush of life back into my
body it was like a sharp gust of wind filling my body and then I was back inside
me and I could feel the pain again, the physical reality was a sharp contrast to
the sublime formless energy of being outside my body
The very
real and distinct separation of my consciousness and my body is something I will
never forget.
Any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience?
No
Was
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
Yes
At
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening
event?
Yes
Heart
attack that lasted 2 hours I was not expected to survive by the time I reached
hospital.
What
was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?
I was
very conscious and aware, as I have described it was very distinct and as real
as any other experience I have had.
Was the
experience dream like in any way?
No not dream
like at all it was very real and direct not remote or fantastic at all.
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
I was
it seemed in a formless state away from my body conscious but formless.
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
No
Did
you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions?
Uncertain
Perhaps being separate from my body would be a different dimension but there
wasn't any other 'place' I went too.
Were
you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?
Yes
I
made the decision to return to my body
What
emotions did you experience following your experience?
I have been
depressed lost and lonely since the experience
What
was the best and worst part of your experience?
The best part
it seems is that a fundamental question has been partly answered for me that
there is a life force that is separate from the body. The worst thing is having
had the heart attack I feel death is known to me and that there is very little
between life and death.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes
