David A's Probable NDE

Experience description: 

      I remember going to bed, the night before the accident, and awakening in the hospital after experiencing a most remarkable dream. I dreamt that I was flying alongside of a helicopter facing downward, and could see that we were coming down for a landing at a hospital landing site. 

Then, a sense of void and darkness surrounded me, and I could sense a presence watching me and causing me to experience what would follow. I tried to move my arms and touch my face but I had no arms or hands to do so. I tried again and again attempting to use any part of my body, but I seemed to no longer have a body. I became enraged and soon afterward I could feel other beings in my same state, and they were angry too. I could feel them searching for a place to go, and that they were envious of anyone with a body. I thought to myself, that this is hell and I said to whoever it was that was watching me that I didn't want to be like that, and suddenly I could feel that I was curled up in a fetal position and I could see a tunnel with a light at the end. I somehow knew I was in a woman's vagina, about to be born. I also somehow was told by the one watching me that I will forget everything and learn all over again, and that there was no guaranty that I'll be o.k.. I thought to myself, this is what it must be like for angels who don't have any experience. They're like children and could easily be fooled, or hurt. So I refused, and suddenly another being took my place in the womb. Then I saw children laughing and playing, and then teenagers talking with each other, and young people going through experiences and learning from them, and becoming old and calming down from their worries and finding peace, which made them happy. I said," this is what I want." "A life in a human body." "with the ability to taste, touch and feel, smell, and see, and especially the knowledge between good and bad. To live. And have an advantage over the other two states of being". then I awoke in the hospital. I was then trying to figure out if I was dreaming or awake. I then became afraid because of what I had just experienced and I thought that I maybe was being tested in another way. It all seemed like a dream from 1/14/00-2/19/00 when I started retaining my memory, and I realized that I was actually awake, and that being in the hospital was relaters a lot more to say About what I feel I learned from this experience, and how I view life now, but I'm trying to be as brief as I can.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience:  Uncertain

      Explanation:  I awoke after choosing life as a human three weeks after accident.

At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event?  Yes

      Describe:  Auto accident, definite fatality, if not acted on quickly.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?  What I remembered was what I described above. But I don't remember the accident, or my family and friends who came to see me prior to my awakening. Even though they say I spoke to them, but incomprehensively.

Was the experience dream like in any way?  Yes

Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body?  Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?  Anger, sadness, confusion, anxiety, astonishment, helplessness, trapped.  Then, happiness, uplifted, wonder, and realization of certain truths.  Thankfulness, and humility.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?  yes

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?  Uncertain

      Describe:  Could have, but decided not to.

Did you see a light?  Yes

Did you meet or see any other beings?  Yes

      Describe:  It was everywhere, It was also inside my thoughts, like a voice that was, just, there.  A consciousness.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?  No

      Describe:  Yes, but I still have not figured out how to express what I learned, to people on a large scale, without causing an uproar. What I explained about my experience was as brief as I could make it. But I am suffering a bit of depression now because of what I feel I have discovered. It involves humanity in its entirety.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?  No response

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?  Yes

      Describe:  I explained them in my brief description of what happened.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?  Yes

      Describe:  I'll be blunt. We got a long way to go, I mean the Christians and the Jews, to even get a fraction of the way close to love. The way God meant it to be.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?  Yes

Did you become aware of future events?  Uncertain

      Describe:  Based on what I feel I've learned, we have a long way to go to true liberty and love, and peace.

Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body?  Yes

      Describe:  Its all in my brief description of what happened to me.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?  No response

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Yes, but I would rather not talk about it until I'm ready.

Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?  It has greatly affected all of the above. But I'm still trying to put it all together.

Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes

      Describe:  With my mom and my brothers. I tried to explain it to my wife but she was not very empathetic toward my situation.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  I now have a sense of sobriety in my view of life, in that, I may have lived in a sort of drunken state, before the experience.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?  The best part was life itself, with understanding as a human.

The worst part was life without a body.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?  not now, I need to put it all together, then, maybe I'll have a lot to say, so watch out world!

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?  Yes

      Describe:  The world needs a hero, and I hope to create one, someday.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?  No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?  Uncertain

      Explain:  There is a lot more to say, but I need to get it together, and recuperate still, from what has happened.

Please offer any suggestions you have to improve the www.nderf.org questionnaire?  No, its a wonderful questionnaire.