Dan W's NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

            After receiving the injection, within a few seconds two things happened. The first was that my sight was completely obliterated and instead, I was rushing down - at very high speed - what can only be described as a tunnel of red blood cells. Red corpuscles. I was moving very fast although I had no sensation of propulsion. Also I heard a very loud and distinct buzzing in my ears - it was like a huge wasp or laser beam buzzing from ear to ear. It was never in both ears at the same time. Shortly after that I was in fact aware that my body was dying. I was in neural shutdown and my body was fighting to stay alive. My heart beat went up to over 200bpm and I was paralyzed from the hips down.

The doctor's face was torn in half with one eye on the ceiling and one eye on the wall. I was conscious of the fact that this was death and that awareness, not the actual act of dying, scared me. However, amidst the confusion and chaos, there was very serene part of me. It was surveying the event, not quite out of body but definitely as a separate source of consciousness. It was doing so almost in a vacuum where there was no sound, no chaos, no fear - just observance. Like watching a storm on TV with the sound turned down. This part of me was very calm. However, the other part of me was still in the midst of the fury and very strong was a sense of fire: not burning, searing, hurtful fire, but the fire of life. The fire of what I describe as my spirit. It was truly alive, as if almost literally roaring into life, although my body was doing the opposite. Also, above me was a strange window. It was made of brittle frosted glass I couldn't see what was on the other side, but it was bright and white) and I knew that all I had to do was agree, and I would be lifted up and would smash through the glass to the other side. I knew that in doing so I could not come back. But very strongly and very clearly I knew that it was my choice. I could stay or I could go. There was no pressure, no lobbying: it was simply what I wanted to do. The part of me that was calmly observing things saw my mother in the corner of the room (she had driven me to the doctor due to an infection in my leg) and I knew that leaving her would break her for good.

It was then, very calmly, that I decided to stay. There were no words spoken with anyone, just a decision that was received and accepted by whatever was in overall control. With that I yelled out "God, please save me" and instantaneously the event ceased. I came to with the nurse standing above me with a huge needle ready to inject my heart, which was just about to stop. End of experience.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No      

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes            anaphylactic shock - allergic reaction to needle in doctor's office

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    Probably the part where I was calmy surveying the event. I seemed to be able to take in the entirety of the event and assess all aspects.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    Normal consciousness and alertness

            Probably the part where I was calmly surveying the event. I seemed to be able to take in the entirety of the event and assess all aspects.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     There was distortion of certain tings (doctor's face) but the most striking was the appearance of the window above me. It was a very distinct louvered window with frosted glass - not common these days and not what I had had an exposure to.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Yes     Heard strange buzzing and the went deaf.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            I felt a mix - fear but also calmness and also a certain detachment - as an observer.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          No      

Did you see a light?           Yes     The light was there but it was behind a window - I had to decide to go to it. I was like a balloon tethered to the ground - all I had to do was say the word and I would have been released upwards to the window, and thus the light.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           No      

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No           

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     Time seemed to stop - the whole event took nine minutes but it felt literally like less than 30 seconds. There was no time in the vacuum.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     No      

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes     The window was definitely the boundary, which I could pass through if I wanted to.

Did you become aware of future events?       No
           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     No      

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     I have shared it many times with people. Right after the event I had a bad period of anxiety - was anxious for a period of several weeks. This subsided and life returned to nroaml. I was also very conservative in my Christian views and active in the church, views which have evloved/changed since then. I do though carry a fear of death, which I guess is disappointing and strange. More though as a result of some fundamentalist teachings from many years ago, rather than the experience itself.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No      

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    It was very real and it had an impact on me.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?    I suppose I knew and know that the soul/spirit lives on. I had in some ways never felt more alive. It was literally like the fire of god - like a rocket ship taking off in a huge fireball. It was full of power.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real    I suppose I wonder why it happened and in a sense, I wish it had progressed a bit more and I had seen angels etc so that I had no fears at all, as I still have some.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           No      

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            No           

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        At no time was there any threat of not going on (i.e being 'lost'). The event, whilst trauamtic, was actually ls gentle and the outcome very much in my hands. I defintely felt that the choice to stay or go was mine and would be respected.

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes