At
first I heard what seemed to be a train going thru my head...a brief darkness
and I climbed up a Golden stairs. Once I reached the top I began floating on
pink iridescent clouds. I liked that park cause my head didn't feel as if it was
going to explode anymore. I didn't see any of my relatives but I did see ones
from the elderly couple...Her sister and his brother, but they told me I
couldn't stay with them that I had to go ...that's when a Guide took me I wanted
to stay with them but I wasn't' allowed. We ended up in what I called a library,
but there were no walls, floors. But in my mind I ran to the wall and began
reading...Then the Guide flew me (about a foot off the ground) and I saw The
Garden Mary, Joseph, and Baby Jesus were there waving at me. Next, we flew over
a river where tulips were alive at the bottom of the water and you could hear
angels singing and the tulips sang along. Next I saw a beautiful woman on the
side standing. I wanted to go talk with her but was not allowed. The Guide then
took me to a room (no walls etc) there were around 11 people walking around in a
circle pacing as if they were following the first guy. He came up to what seem
to be glass wall and said help me. So I tried to go there but the Guide said I
was not allowed only he can save himself.
Then we returned to the
library...I heard Jesus speaking in the room to the side. I quickly ran to him
but could not go thru. I was very angry not allowed to be with Jesus. As I stood
there Someone grabbed my wrist and when I turned my head I saw A huge figure
standing as if made up of golden energy. The don't talk non of them did but you
can hear them in your head you know what they are saying. I then knew the figure
to be God. He was very loving yet very stern.
I
told him I was very angry that I couldn't go with Jesus. God said if you go thru
there you cannot return. Then he asked me do you want to go there and I said
yes. He then said but you cannot return...I said I don't want to stay here I
just want to see Jesus. But God told me I must return to Earth. He said I will
tell you 2 things then you decide if you want to stay. All of a sudden I woke up
in the elderly couples kitchen. My memory was gone I didn't know anyone. The
second NDE I was in a car wreck and had a head injury I passed out and plopped
in the room with 7 people in a circle with one of the 7th as the guide...He
looked at me and said what are you doing here go back its not your time.
Was
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
Yes Because I thought I was dreaming...Yet I knew I hadn't had a dream. I
didn't know what NDE's were until I mentioned a bit of what happened and she
said she just read a book on that subject...and I lost some of my memory for 6
months.
At
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
Uncertain well I guess so cause I did have a Heat stroke
At
what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness
and alertness?
During the time it was happening I was very alert I knew I wasn't dreaming. That
was only when I returned and from the memory loss did I think it was a dream
How
did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience
compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?
Normal consciousness and alertness
During the time it was happening I was very alert I knew I wasn't
dreaming. That was only when I returned and from the memory loss did I think it
was a dream
Did
your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect,
such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of
solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
Yes Brighter colors and in there the tulips were green and blue..
Did
your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any
aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness,
etc.)?
No
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
Happy, sad, anger, confused and sometimes peaceful
Did
you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
Uncertain well I don't think I did but if I did it only was for a second
cause I remember having the train go thru my head and a terrible headache then
poof I was walking up stairs
Did
you see a light?
Yes that was the first thing I saw, it was like a glowing light pink and
gold very soft that illuminated everything around it
Did
you meet or see any other beings?
Yes I met the elderly couples sister and brother and God...and when I told
you about the beautiful woman standing on the side.. I found out thru dreams it
was my sister who died like 4 yrs ago so I saw her before she died. They didn't
want me to know her there
Did
you experience a review of past events in your life?
No
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
Yes 1 was my sister there. and 2 was when God told me 2 things to get me to
return to earth...one was that my mom would need me that in the future I would
be taking care of her...which I did for many yrs and the last 2 yrs she was very
ill and last yr she was bed ridden...she passed away dec2, 2006..and the 2nd
thing God told me I only got a feeling it would be a reward for doing this.
Did
you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions?
Yes I loved the river it made my heart sing it was beautiful. and the
library ( I called it that) where the knowledge is, It was kind dark like an
entry way , but to me it was the best place I loved all the knowledge I wanted
to drink it up
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
No
Did
you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
No
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Yes When I wanted to go see Jesus in the other room but I wasn't allowed
cause if you go there you don't return..
Did
you become aware of future events?
No
Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
you did not have prior to the experience?
Yes I use to go to a chat site in 1998 and as I was going thru chemo in 1999
that's when I met a bunch of people that became friends...each has a certain
gift. and one included whom I call my husband now. although our gifts may vary
and come and go at times we all remember what we have been told. with me I hear
dead people and sometime they communicate thru me..
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes my first time was like a yr after it happened . then when I met the
group of friends in 99
Did
you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
No
How
did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was definitely real well I knew I hadn't dreamed but I couldn't
explain it and what happened I guess I was afraid of what others would say
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
yes
I am no longer afraid to die...and I no longer want to kill myself as I know I
have a greater purpose here even though I don't care to be here
How
do you currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was definitely real by becoming more spiritual I've realized
anything possible with God
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Uncertain
not
at first I was very critical of people and how hey looked...it wasn't till I had
cancer and chemo did I realize what and why God wanted me to come back to teach
me to look at the heart not the cover
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Yes
somewhat. I'm more in tune and believe more in angels and prayer
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
Uncertain just when I had the wreck and passed out and ended up in this
room and was told to leave it wasn't my time
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
I
believe we who have had a NDE had one for a reason so that we change and tell
everyone what Gods plans are and to tell everyone to love
Did
the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes its brought it all back all the feelings and made me look at my life and
I know God is proud of who I have become
