Experience description: 

Around late summer of 1989, the doctor informed me that I needed to have a hysterectomy. I didn't want to have the surgery. I felt that I was too young and having lost my own mother to uterine cancer at the age of 30, I was petrified of what they would find in me. But having no choice in the matter, as I was experiencing such severe pain and problems, I finally agreed to go ahead with the surgery. They put me in a single bed ward, and I was left for the rest of the afternoon to think about what was about to happen to me the next morning. I remember praying, telling God that I was scared and to give me strength. All day I prayed and told God that I didn't want to die.

Around 8AM. they wheeled me into surgery, and brought me back sometime later....I think around 11AM. but I'm not sure. What I do remember is that from the time they took me back to my single room, I kept calling the nurses to tell them that something was wrong. They kept saying that nothing was wrong, and sometimes would just give me a shot thinking that I was needing pain relief even though I kept telling them that I didn't want any. Finally around 8:30PM that night, I remember opening my eyes at one point and thinking "I'm going to die." When I tried to reach the buzzer to call the nurse, I didn't even have the energy to do it.

As my head dropped to the right, I saw a bed at the other end of my room, with the most beautiful (pure white hair) older lady that I have ever seen. I had a feeling that she was very old, and yet she looked so perfect, so young. She looked at me with the sweetest smile and said, "I will call the nurses, do not be afraid, everything will be all right ." I must have passed out, for my next recollection is of the nurses hovering above me and saying ,"what do you want now?" "I can't breath, I think I'm dying!"

They took my blood pressure and in a panic the one nurse told the other one to quickly call the doctor, that something was wrong. She gave me oxygen, and soon the doctor was by my bedside telling me that I had been bleeding internally all day , and that they would have to open me up again. Up to this point I had been so scared thinking that I was going to die, but as they were flying down the hallway with me back to the surgical room, all of the sudden this warm, cozy, comfortable feeling came over me and I wasn't afraid anymore.

I thought, "OH! this is what is supposed to happen" and it felt good. I told the doctor who was talking to me as he was running beside my bed on wheels, "your voice sounds funny, It sounds almost like an echo". "Don't you leave us Corina!" he said. The first thing that happened was that after they put me out , I was floating over my body watching them in panic, the doctor saying " I can't see anything, too much blood. He cut me one way across and then the other, up and down.

My next thought and feeling is of being in total darkness, while feeling my body but on looking down not seeing anything. I was petrified, and remember saying "Please God don't let me be alone, where are you?". The next thing that I saw was the most brilliant, intense light that I have ever seen. It was so bright that I could barely look into it. In front of the light was like a huge cathedral-like door way, and by that was my mother who had died when I was around 8 years old. There were some others there, but didn't recognize who they were.

The feeling that I experienced is somewhat hard to explain , but I will try my best. All and any abuse or pain that I experienced in my life, whether it be physical, emotional, or mental, was completely gone and in its place, an intense love, acceptance, devotion, and sense of well-being was put. For one second...I understood it all, so simple, but then it was gone ...as if we are not meant to understand "ALL".

My mother then looked at me and said...but not in words only in thought, " You have been given a second chance, I can take you the rest of the way, or you can go back". I remember feeling soooooo good there and wanting to stay, but then I thought of my young children and said to my mother, " I have to go back, my children still need me, and you know how hard it was for you to leave us when we were young."

All of the sudden , I felt like I had been on a huge rubber band stretched to the max, and they brought back again with a jolt so strong, it almost hurt and felt awkward to be back in there. I opened my eyes to a nurse crying by my bed, in I.C.U. whose eyes were as wide as saucers in exclamation, "you're back, Oh! you gave all of us such a scare, I will go call the doctor."

I had two questions right off the bat. One was ,"Who and where is that old woman that was in my other room?"  They said ,"what old woman, you were alone in your room." Then I said, "I died, didn't I?" They would not answer me, but when I started telling the doctor about floating over my body, and what all was said and tools that were used, he almost fled from my room.

Well, since that experience my intuitive gifts have become stronger and stronger. Sometimes I feel so connected to everything... plants, trees, sky and all that is. It's the most wonderful feeling in the world. Where I felt anger before, I now feel love . This experience has touched every facet of my life.

I know that God has a purpose for me, because I just had another abdominal surgery (which should have taken 1 and a half hours, but took 4 and a half hours) and apparently, I was very "lucky." They called me the tough cookie, and the miracle girl. I don't remember having the same experience as the last time, but came back with the most tremendous wonderful feeling. Before them putting me out for surgery, I remember saying to my doctor, "Don't worry, I have asked that God guides your hands and the specialist's hands when he's called in." And that's exactly what happened , they had to call a specialist half way through because of complications.

I know God wants me do do something, but I wish that I was sure of what that is. I would be comfortable , counseling, writing (if I was better at it), doing workshops of some kind, etc but would be nice to have the gift of healing in some way. I would like to make a BIG difference in the world before I go again. I know that this may sound silly to some people, but believe me, this is from my heart and soul. What a wonderful feeling!

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  No

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?  It was like being as awake, and real as I sit here writing about it.

Was the experience dream like in any way?  NO.

Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body?  No response

What emotions did you feel during the experience?  The most wonderful, positive, intense emotions that I have ever felt.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?  NO.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?  Yes

      Describe:  It was like a blacker than black tunnel, just before I saw the bright light. I was floating through it, could feel my body, but could not see it???

Did you see a light?  Yes

      Describe:  A bright, intense light that felt so warm and good , so loving and full of wisdom. My personal feeling is that we are all "sparks" that come from the "Big Light". When our physical bodies die, our soul, spirit, essence, feelings and thoughts, go back to the source....the "LIGHT".

Did you meet or see any other beings?  Yes

      Describe:  My mother and some others, but didn't know who they were. The rest I have explained in my story.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?  Yes

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?  Yes

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?  Yes

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?  Yes

      Describe:  I think that the boundary for me , was the huge gate in front of the light. I had a feeling that had I gone past the gate, I could never return.

Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body?  Yes

      Describe:  I wanted to stay there so much because it felt sooooo good, but I knew that if I even put my hand past a certain point , that I would be allowed to come back.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  Before and after. After the experience, they progressed.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Yes

Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?  Explained in story.

Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes

      Describe:  Some laugh it off, and say it was just the "drugs" or something. Others have grown and learned from it.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?  Yes

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?  No

      Describe:  I have never taken drugs, or alcohol in my life.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?  Yes