Cindy E's NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

It was a beautiful fall day. It rained all night, so it cooled down outside. It was Friday, so I only had one day to work before having 2 weeks off. I wanted to finish that recertification I had waiting for me at work. Then, the following week, I was to drive Mom to Gainesville. I decided to take a 3 mile jog, instead of the 2 mile jog, since it was Friday. It was around 6:30 A.M., so it was relatively dark out. I passed by a guard gait and a bus stop, where a girl was sitting and studying, as she usually did. Than, less than a 10th of a mile down the sidewalk, a very handsome young man on a bicycle hit me with the bike. It jarred my neck, but I didn't fall down. He kept saying "I'm sorry, I'm sorry", until it drove me crazy. I finely said "it's OK", and turned around to go home. The man started beating me about the head, left shoulder and face. He seemed very violent. So, knowing that the guard and kids were at the bus stop, I screamed Help, Help." I was starting to get scared, so I was almost frozen. The man put me in a choke lock. I took him about 2 times to get me down on the ground. I was thrown on the grass, next to a street lamp and trees. My feet were on the sidewalk. The man then started to choke me.

Being a nurse, I knew a lot of people didn't survive manual strangling. I was scared out of my mind. without having to think about it, my body started bucking. The man was sitting on top of my chest and strangling me, while saying that I'd be sorry. But, I kept bucking. I realized I was running out of oxygen. Then, I passed out. I was still hearing the man cursing me and saying I'd be sorry. I passed out but, I could still see and hear the man yelling. During this, I chastised myself for passing out saying, now you are dead. I was upset, because I finally had a job I loved and felt there were too many loose ends.

I said repeatedly, I'm dying while I could still hear and see my surroundings. "I'm dying. born in 1962, died in 1997. Then, everything got dark. I saw my whole family in front of me, except my beloved nana. I didn't know why she wasn't there. I kept telling my family, "but, I'm dying." I saw mom's head, and I was relaxing on the sofa. I kept saying that "but, I'm dying", while talking to mom. I wanted her to tell my boss that I wouldn't be coming back to work because, "but I'm dying" and to say good by to everyone in my family for me. Then, mom was gone, and God came. I couldn't see him. But, I knew he was there. He kept telling me how I was special and that I shouldn't think so lowly about myself. I felt this being infused in me and I felt very loved. I had low self esteem at the time, but God made me feel good. I saw I little light, but I never went there. I thought it was the street lamp. Then, I wanted to go back to my family. I didn't want my last conversation to be with that man. I really thought I was dead and I was never coming back, but God let me come back.

I was told that the man thought he killed me, so he kicked my chest and left the scene. I believe this jump started my respirations.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No      

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     I was manually strangled until I passed out.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    After I passed out and God was infusing me with his love

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    Normal consciousness and alertness

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            After I passed out and God was infusing me with his love

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  No      

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Yes     After I passed out, everything got louder.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            At first, sadness and loss. Then, I felt God's love, and it became a very positive experience.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Uncertain      If you can consider darkness a tunnel, in my experience. Though not like the experiences a I've read about.

Did you see a light?           Yes     It was a small pinpoint of light in the sky. I confused it for a streetlight, but now that I think about it, it was like a bright star, in the sky. {It was cloudy out thought.}

Did you meet or see any other beings?           No      

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Uncertain      I did not see nana, even though I saw my whole family. Two years later, she died of liver cancer. I always wondered about this. However, I'll tell you, I didn't know she was to die.

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No           

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     I felt as if I was out forever. Normally, my conversation with mom would have been an hour for this much dialog to take place. God was also infusing his love into me for a very long time.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes     I used to hate myself and I suffer from Bipolar disorder with paralyzing depressions. But, since God had his talk with me I feel better about myself. I've been able to get better medical care. Also, when the depressions were severe, I would never consider suicide, because of God's help and love.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No       I didn't want to die. So, after God's infusion of love, I didn't even think to go into the light.

Did you become aware of future events?       No           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     No      

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     My psychologist thought I was hallucinating. But, my mother believed me. She said she didn't feel my energy while I was nearly dead. My mother and I became a lot closer. It was a positive experience.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No      

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    It was so real. It really happened. Plus I was very bruised and swollen. Mom commented on how fast I was healing up, too.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?            The most meaningful was God's infusion of love. Also, his advice was better then any advice, I'd ever gotten related to my very poor self esteem.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real    I had never been so close to death as this. I know this happened. It's something that you never forget about.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     I have a more positive relationship with my mother. I've gotten rid of all the negative relationships I've had. I used to think that I was only a somebody if I was married. I stopped thinking like that. I learned to enjoy my life as it is.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            Yes     I'm not religious. I'm just very spiritual.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        People are more attracted to the positive energy I give out, even when I'm depressed. Also, I live my life as I want to. I like to hang out and smell the roses more. I know my likes and dislikes more.

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes