Cindy D NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

The first thing I recall is seeing my 'fiancé' beside my bed and then doctors/nurses surrounding the bed in a 'flurry of activity'...and then seeing myself laying in the bed...and being shocked by that and then 'realizing' I was 'floating' above the bed and then in the corner of the room...and at that moment I left the room and was in a state of panic mentally/emotionally.   

Things went dark and I had a sensation of floating but seeing nothing. I was very afraid and then I heard/felt a Presence. This Presence was telling me (not necessarily with words?) that everything was okay and not to be afraid. The level of Peace and Comfort of this Presence is not describable. After lots of this 'support' I realized that I recognized this Presence. IN fact this Presence was closer - more connected to me (and had a history with me) than any 'relationship' in my life. Again - not describable.  

But I do remember thinking at first when I realized I recognized the Presence - 'Oh...it must be my Grandfather' (who had passed away about 3 years earlier and the only person close to me that had died). But I quickly realized it was not my Grandfather... nor any human being I had had a relationship with. In the first few 'moments' it seemed I was trying to make sense of recognizing this Presence? 

This Presence continued to comfort me and assure me that everything was okay and that it was going to be wonderful. More incredible than anything I remembered. And after some time of 'floating in darkness and being comforted...a light appeared at the end of a 'tunnel'. We drifted toward the light - again this is hard to describe because it was not only with 'senses' we normally use that the experience was being interpreted through?  

As we neared the LIGHT the brightness and magnificence were indescribable. You could not 'look' into the LIGHT. It was humbling and magnificent. I was told that everything would be wonderful and the sensations/feelings had become so peaceful and warm - indescribable. 

Even though I had calmed down and was not as afraid I was protesting and adamant that 'I was not ready' and had a lot yet to do.

I then remember 'standing before GOD'.  I can only describe GOD as a huge ENERGY presence radiating LIGHT so intense and brilliant you could not look. And even though I had a sensation of 'standing before God' I was not in a body or any type of form. There were many other 'PRESENCE' around as well, but again nothing to 'describe' as far as visual or audio...just an awareness. I was aware of the presence of LOVE. I was 'told' that

'All there is - is LOVE.  There is nothing to fear. All that matters is LOVE,   LOVE being so pure again there are not really 'words'.  

I heard the question (not with my ears?) 'what do you want?' And I adamantly  replied 'I want to go back, I have a lot to do and I want to help Nelson - he needs me' (my finance).  

The next thing I was aware of - I was 'waking up' in my hospital bed.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     There are no words to accurately describe the intensity of the experience - words tend to limit or minimize something that is beyond those boundaries.

Describing it seemed to 'take away  from' the Holiness.

 Also words seem to put it out there for 'judgment' of something that is beyond judging.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     As mentioned, I had a head injury and was in and out of consciousness and apparently had a blood clot or they were concerned of a blood clot.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    I don't know how to answer this. There was a lot of confusion and extreme fear at the beginning. As the journey progressed the fear went away but it was all a 'heightened' experience using 'senses' I don't know how to describe.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            I don't know how to answer this. There was a lot of confusion and extreme fear at the beginning. As the journey progressed the fear went away but it was all a 'heightened' experience using 'senses' I don't know how to describe.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Uncertain      as mentioned earlier - I don't think it is 'vision' in terms of 'seeing with my eyes'.

It was an awareness that had brightness, unlike anything usual.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Yes     as mentioned - it was an awareness but not 'hearing with my ears'. More like when you recall a conversation and you 'hear it in your head'.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            As mentioned - I was extremely fearful and in a panic. Then I became almost curious as I was comforted and then I felt extremely humbled and then I experienced a feeling of peace that is indescribable.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes     See above - after leaving the hospital room - it was total darkness with just an awareness of a Presence and a feeling of moving - being propelled in a direction. After some time of this (during which I was comforted by the Presence) eventually I was aware of a light - seeming to be at the end of a tunnel. It grew much larger as we neared it.

Did you see a light?           Yes     See above

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     See above - they were more a Presence.

Yes I knew one of them very well - felt closer that I did to my Mother type of thing.

The communication was all about Comfort and then Peace and LOVE.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No           

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     Definitely yes - but hard to describe.

Things could happen in a 'flash' - instantly - but also there were feeling of being comforted over a 'long time period'.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     No      

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No      

Did you become aware of future events?       No           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     No      

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     It seems that perhaps I told my fiancé and my sister a little about it not too long after the accident - but it was somewhat 'dismissed' and I did not share it further.

About 15 years later, I was involved in a church group activity where one of the participants father had died and she was very sad. I decided to share my experience with her with the intention of comforting her. Since then I have shared it with a handful of people as it seemed appropriate.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No      

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    The experience was definitely real.  I did not ever consider that it didn't 'happen' but I did not allow myself to think about it.  I blocked it for many years.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?    It is all significant and yet hard to process.

The most important thing for me is realizing that 'there is nothing bad' and that GOD is real - LOVE is really the connection - and there is nothing to fear.

I have not really incorporated this into my life (??) fully but maybe it is a process.