1st accident
- I do not remember the accident.. a complete blank... what I do remember is
being on my way to work one Saturday morning... then the next thing I remember
is standing in front of a person, in a beautiful landscape.. very peaceful...
trees, babbling brook... etc. The person in front of me was wearing a flowing
robe with a golden rope belt. I never saw their face. I just remember that
they told me I had to go back, but I felt so peaceful and happy I didn't want to
go back, I think I tried to argue and say No... I don't want to go back... I
felt so good there.... but this person became a little more forceful and said
again "you have to go back now". The next thing I remember was hearing the jaws
of life and someone screaming at me "how old are you.. how old are you" I was
angry that I had to leave the place I just came from and I was in pain.. so much
pain.. I remember telling them to stop screaming at me, and then went
unconscious again. The next time I woke up I was in a hospital bed.. a couple
of days later.
2nd
accident - again... driving to work... next thing I know I'm waking up in a
hospital not knowing how I got there. I had been in a coma for several days
caused by head trauma and brain swelling. I had lost my short term memory and
had a sort of amnesia... I knew my name.. but I didn't remember much about
myself. For instance, I didn't know what kind of food I liked, have any
childhood memories, remember the names of people I worked with for years. I
recognized their faces.. but didn't know their names. I also lost words from my
vocabulary.... simple words like it, if, the..
When I got
home I started to dream my entire day the night before. With no short term
memory, I was still able to recognize that things were very weird and that I had
already seen/done this. luckily this didn't last long.... a week or two. I
seemed to know things.. just "know" things. a little voice in the back of my
head kept telling me to write it down.. write it down.. because of the short
term memory loss I couldn't hang onto anything very long. I with that I had
listened to the little voice.. but I didn't. I regret that.
Was the
kind of experience difficult to express in words?
Uncertain Knowing that people would not believe what I was saying.
At the
time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
Yes a car accident.....
At what
time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and
alertness?
??
How did
your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare
to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?
Normal consciousness and alertness
Did your
vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such
as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of
solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
Uncertain
Did your
hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect,
such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
Uncertain
Did you
experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Uncertain
What
emotions did you feel during the experience?
1st accident only - very peaceful and lost my fear of death completely
upon my return. I also appreciate the beauty so much more. I have become
exceptionally intolerant to any kind of violence or anger. I get very uptight
even seeing it on TV. Don't want any part of it.
Did you
pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
No
Did you
see a light?
No
Did you
meet or see any other beings?
Yes This person was a man, in a robe, but I never saw his face. The voice
seemed familiar to me.. but I couldn't place it.
Did you
experience a review of past events in your life?
No
Did you
observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that
could be verified later?
No
Did you
see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions?
Yes A beautiful place outdoors... just beautiful
Did you
have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes Although it seemed very fast... I definitely knew I wasn't on the Earth
anymore
Did you
have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes yes, I knew it was special when I was there.. but it wasn't until I was
conscious and recovering that I had time to try and put my feelings about it in
order.
Did you
reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Uncertain
Did you
become aware of future events?
Uncertain
Did you
have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you
did not have prior to the experience?
Yes described above
Have
you shared this experience with others?
Yes I'm not sure how long after the experience it was before I shared. The
reaction(s) were always pretty much the same. The person would make a joke.. or
become quiet and distant.
Did you
have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
Yes I read a lot
How did
you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was definitely real I know it was definitely real.... still felt
very unsure/questioning myself.
Were
there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
Too many to
explain
How do
you currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was definitely real I know what happened. I know I am
changed forever because of it.
Have your
relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
Divorced my
husband.. whom I should have divorced years before. I find that I don't like to
be in crowds, I tend to hide away. It's too hard to be with a lot of people and
have to feel what they feel. Did I mention that before? That didn't happen
after the accident... just got a little more unbearable.
Have
your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Uncertain
Still
seeking... still don't subscribe to organized religion. Do however believe more
strongly the all people and animals and the earth (with everything on it) are
connected.
Following the
experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or
substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did the
questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Uncertain
this is a very brief description. The experience is so much larger then my
attention span allows me to share.
