Christy's NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

I remember total darkness, being comfortable, and not wanting to leave.  I felt like I was on one side that was separated by a grey boundary.  On the other side was chaos.  I heard my mother crying.  Instantly, I felt like I was given a choice, even though I didn't hear anybody speaking to me.  Somehow I knew that I could stay and it would be easy or go back to the complicated chaos.  I didn't want to go over to the chaos.  I felt no pain, and I was completely comfortable.  My mom's crying pierced that zone, because I became worried about her.  I felt myself make a choice to go back.  Next thing I knew, I woke up with everybody crying and carrying on.  I was completely calm, although the left side of my head severely hurt.  The weird thing is that while I was in the darkness and comfortable, I felt like I was on the right side of the boundary.  All of the chaos was on the left side of me.  I woke up right when the ambulance arrived.  I don't believe my heart stopped or that I stopped breathing.  The doctors told my parents I had a grand mal seizure.  I was only 11 years old, yet I remember "the choice" I made very vividly.  I haven't had one since.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     I felt that wherever I was, no words were needed.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No      

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    I would have to say hearing my mother cry and making the decision to go back.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    Normal consciousness and alertness

            I would have to say hearing my mother cry and making the decision to go back.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     I only saw black and grey.  The grey was the divider for the boundary.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?            Yes     While I was happy and content in the darkness, I heard nothing.  But I suddenly heard my mother cry and it bothered me and worried me.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            At first very relaxed and calm.  No worries at all.  Then I heard my mother cry and I became worried, bothered and couldn't enjoy the calmness.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     On my side of the boundary, time seemed to go slow.  On the other side, time went by faster.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes            Somehow I knew I had a choice.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes     I felt like I was on the right side of a boundary and it was total darkness.  To my left, was a grey boundary.  Once I was able to hear my mother, I understood that she and everyone else were on the other side.

Did you become aware of future events?       No           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     No      

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     I was 11 when it happened, so I didn't really know how to put into words what happened.  I have shared it with my mother, but I don't think she believes me.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No      

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real   

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?    I felt in control of my life after the experience.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real   

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           No      

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            No           

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        I enjoyed reliving the experience.  It has been so long since I have talked about it.  It would be interesting to know if it sounds like a NDE or if it was just my brain trying to recover from the seizure.

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes