Christine S's NDE

Experience description: 

      I remember passing out from the smoke and not being able to breath. I remember becoming aware of being in a dark place. there was no sound it was just dark. I seemed to be waiting there. then I began to move toward a brightly lit area. the area appeared to be a bright yellow wall with uneven sections that had definite lines running along it. along the lines the edges were faintly pink. I was floating along this wall but could only see one side of it as if my back was against the other side. yet I had no sense of having a body. I was just aware. as I continued to move along I became aware of a feeling of horror. that's what I remember feeling. I had the intense urge to get out of there. I kept saying to myself I've got to get out of here . I repeated it several times and then I felt myself falling and everything was black again. I woke up in the emergency room with all of these doctors and  nurses around me asking me if I knew who I was.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience:  No

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes

      What was it about the experience that makes it hard to communicate?  unable to explain feelings and location

At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event?  Yes

      Describe:  dead on arrival from carbon monoxide poisoning from fire

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?  very aware

Was the experience dream like in any way?  not at all I was there where ever there was.

Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body?  Yes

Describe your appearance or form apart from your body:  I was me but had no awareness of having a body but I was definitely aware of myself

What emotions did you feel during the experience?  at first nothing, but as I was moving along the unchanging wall I began to feel horror about being there.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?  no

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?  Yes

      Describe:  when I came back I felt as though I was falling through a tunnel.

Did you see a light?  Yes

      Describe:  but not a point of light. it was just lit up

Did you meet or see any other beings?  No

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?  No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?  No

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?  Yes

      Describe:  the area I was in was definitely a place but it went on and on unchanging

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes

      Describe:  I knew I wasn't here

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?  No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?  Uncertain

      Describe:  the wall. but I only moved along it

Did you become aware of future events?  No

Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body?  Yes

      Describe:  I made myself come back

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?  No

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  I fear death intensely because the horror of the place where I was , was due to the fact that I was totally alone.

Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?  no effect that I am aware of

Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes

      Describe:  they say that's interesting but I don't know if they believe me. they seem more interested in the fact that I died.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  fear

What was the best and worst part of your experience?  there was no best part. the worst part was being in that place alone.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?  no

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?  No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?  No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?  Uncertain

      Explain:  its very hard to explain what I felt. I have examined and re-examined what happened to me trying to make sense of it. I have never heard of an experience like mine. and whenever someone I know of dies I wonder where they are and if its where I was.