Experience description: 

I was taken to hospital due to complications with my pregnancy.  I was in labor, but three months early.  They decided to perform a caesarean, this is where they discover 'placenta previa' and then preformed a hysterectomy.  my body was not responding to stemming the blood flow and further complications occurred. My family was 1000's of miles away and were warned I would not make it through the night. 65 pints of blood were transfused but still would not stop bleeding. I was in intensive care unit on a life support system with staff manually pumping the blood into me as the machines at the time were not keeping pace with the loss of blood, five operations were performed over the time.  This occurred over five days from Monday the 3rd June 1991 to Friday 7th.

What I distinctly remember to this very day is firstly a flashing of beautiful scenes, fields, oceans, dolphins, horses, everything racing then suddenly i left the earth as such entering into a tunnel spiraling upward (not vertically upward) a lean of 30 degrees say, there was this intense light at the end and then when i exited into the light there was this enormous overwhelming sense of peace love warmth security.  I was at 'home' at last!

the light was intensely white, but it was not harming my vision, but there again there was not really anything to 'see' so to speak, but rather more a sense of 'feeling' . I could 'sense' the 'entities', their welcoming, the pleasure the peace the happiness and utmost relief to be 'back'. But then there was this voice, clear, kind, deliberate, never to be questioned, omnipotent. It simply said these very words "you must go back, you have more lessons to teach." I remember what seemed a nanosecond of disappointment but more so acknowledgement of my duty to fulfill part of the plan.  It certainly was not a reward. Then I awoke! I was confused, i was complacent and tried to tell one and all what had happened.  I thought it was strange that I was sent back, not for the sake of family etc it was a definite 'purpose' and I knew the 'teaching' was not grade school but 'something different' and that is how my life has been since 'something different'

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     Yes

I was on life support system and probably medicated with pain killers eg morphine

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes

describing the brightness of the light yet still able to see, the entities, the clear message of the voice but that it was not from a 'person' as we people on earth imagine a being

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes

apparently clinically dead, had received 65 units of blood but still bleeding and all organs were shutting down

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           I felt and know it really happened, I was alert

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   the floating context could be considered dream like.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain

I felt as I was an entity not in body form.  The body is of no real use, it was of no importance to me. ie I was not conscious of it being there or not being there. I was just a spirit, the only important part of existence.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           just a voice at the end telling to return

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes

            Describe:      I described above

Did you see a light?           Yes

described above, indescribable brightness but you can still see ie you don't have to shield your eyes

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes

I described all this before

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    Uncertain

there were lots of visions of life on earth in general and lots of events and people i knew but didn't seem to be much of any order.  I learned a lot, but i don't relate this to a review of life past events.  It had more to do with the peacefulness at the end, the finding a purpose/duty of life, not fearing death etc

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           Yes

this level / dimension at the end of the tunnel that was 'home' was very peaceful and 'beautiful'

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Uncertain

It was more a sense of no time, and definitely a different level of space, The 'higher planes' I now call them.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes

we all have purposes to fulfill and we obey that order, if we try to intervene we will only have to start all over again and it could be a more difficult 'journey' next time

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       Yes

yes describe in my recall

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Uncertain

i had always been able to 'sense' things and find lost things, which i thought was eerie, but now I take it for granted eg we all probably have this ability but just don't bother to fine tune it

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes

yes, yes, yes.

*no longer fearful of death

*no longer contemplate suicidal thoughts (knowing this interferes with the 'plan')

*not as materialistic, gave away many many of superfluous household items

*became minimalistic

*more interest in karma and Buddhism

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       I am no longer with my husband. I do have greater difficulty relating to people who have not experienced this as I at times feel they may think I'm a bit 'loopy' as I have different priorities. yet I know a lot of people find comfort in my words of 'wisdom' or guidance. I am now counseling in a high school and at last can understand I am fulfilling a sense of purpose. It is an enjoyable 'duty'

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes

plenty of times.  people have showed interest, but at times skeptical and questioning but i feel it is only something really believable if you experience this.  Perhaps I need to remind one and all of the saying

"for those who believe no proof is necessary, for those who don't know proof is possible!"

oh and I did remind my dad as he was dying in 2001, not to be afraid etc etc. hopefully this relieved him a bit.  I didn't feel so devastated when my father died, (just miss his company) as I knew he would be peaceful at last.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  confusion, disappointment (to be back on earth), surreal, reflective, calm, pensive, content about feeling death will be a peaceful experience eventually

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      best bit was the peace and happiness of being 'there'