Charlene P's NDE

Right before the experience, I was rushed to ICU.  I had a collapsed lung, and was severely septic and dehydrated, this was six days after the original surgery.  I was in the ICU, and I could feel myself slipping from consciousness.  I recall there were at least six people standing around me.  The next thing I recall is that I was above myself watching them work on me.  I recall feeling so at peace. 

My direction was quickly drawn away from what they were doing to my body, to a longing feeling and a light.  It was so overwhelming and I felt this love that I remembered but never felt here.  I was drawn toward it, feeling so much love and acceptance.  It was bright, but it did not hurt.  I felt I was actually part of it.  I knew whatever I wanted to know, although I cannot remember it now.  I seen others there, that I knew and knew me, but I do not know how I knew them or they knew me.  I was told by telepathy that I am done here if I want to be done here or I could return.  It seemed like I was there for days and days, like in some sort of "holding room".  The feeling I got was that they were waiting for my decision.  When I told them my decision, it seemed to take days and days again.  Something that kept coming to mind was something of a "re-write", I am not sure what that is.  As soon as I said I wanted to return to be here for the ascension (this is one thing that I didn't forget...out of everything...it was this), all the beings present seemed to be so exuberant.  I was told that at first return I would struggle and it would be difficult, but as I progressed it would become easier.  I wasn't sure what was meant by that, but I am beginning to see the picture now.  I was told many things of which only a few I still recall but cannot share.  On my return, I felt lost and alone and unloved. 

That day I awoke from my coma, on life support with my family in tears of joy around me... I also seen what appeared to be the people from the "holding room" and what looked like angelic beings (the very tall long haired people that I could not tell if they were male or female).  I sometimes feel that glimpse of eternal love and light when I am depressed with life.  I regretted coming back for a while (about two years) and constantly felt that I was going to die again.  I don't fear death, I actually look forward to it again.  I am glad that I am never alone, although at times I feel that way.  I know they are there watching me and cheering me on.  I take great comfort in knowing that.  In my life now, I feel so different than I did before.  I feel like an alien here, and the mentality of most people hurts me.  I feel this twinge on the inside, I just wish others knew what it feels like to not belong to this world but to be living in it.  It is hard to explain in words, I guess you just have to have been through it to know.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     I cannot explain feelings of such strong emotional worth in words.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     I had surgery for an acute appendicitis, after surgery I went into septic shock and a lung collapsed.  I went into a coma and was on life support for a few weeks.  I was pronounced clinically dead more than twice during the three week coma.  I was given a 5% chance of survival.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    During the "Holding Room", I felt I was my most alert, I had a serious soul decision to make, I had to be.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            During the "Holding Room", I felt I was my most alert, I had a serious soul decision to make, I had to be.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     Everything seemed more vivid and I could see in all directions at once if I wanted to.  Everything was clear and I didn't need my glasses to have it so.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Uncertain      I don't remember hearing with sound.  It, to me, was all a telepathic sort of conveyance of thought.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Love, Acceptance, Knowing, Unknowing, Oneness, Belonging, Joy, I think at a few points I felt every emotion known to man.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Uncertain      I just felt after I felt a longing feeling or a calling of sorts, I was just in the light... no tunnel or enclosure.  Even in the "holding room" it wasn't an actual room but a place... no walls or anything like that.

Did you see a light?           Yes     Very bright, soft, pleasant... not uncomfortable or anything.  Not hot or cold.  No physical feelings associated with it.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     There were others that appeared human, and others that were human like, and still others that were light beings.  The ones I felt were angelic were the tall ones with long hair, I could not tell if they were male or female, maybe neither.  The light beings were brilliant rainbows, I felt very joyful in their presence, and then there were the human ones, but were very bright like the light itself.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    Yes      I will not discuss in detail my life review.  But, I will say that I have a forgiving feeling of myself and my decisions.  And, I have a forgiving feeling towards anyone in my life that I had previously held contempt for.  I do not anger easily now, like in the past.  I understand life lessons I have had, and why others treated me the way they did.  And, I understand my decisions I made and how it was needed to affect others, we are in this together. Your enemy is your friend.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes     Yes.  I responded to questions that family members had, but never asked.

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Uncertain      I seen a lot.  But, the most I remember is being "held", guess they didn't want me to see too much... might have changed my final decision.  It was for the greater good.  I know.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     Felt past, present, and future were all one.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes     I cannot comment on what I know.  I don't know why, I just know I can't and I won't.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain      I was in the "holding room"..... that would be a boundary.

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes
            I will not comment on future events other than to say that they were right, it was very difficult on my return and it is getting easier.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Uncertain      I had a NDE when I was ten.  So, I have had psychic breakthroughs ever since.  I am more highly focused as an empath, or as I like to call it clairsentient.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     As soon as I was able to talk, they had to remove the ventilator and I had to learn to reuse my tongue to speak.  I was diagnosed with an ABI (acquired brain injury) from lack of oxygen (hypoxia). The reactions I got was.... okay it is all the drugs taking effect on you.  It seems that once I have come to grips with the way I have changed, it appears that more want to adopt my philosophies on life.... those of peace, love, and acceptance.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No      

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    I still feel them with me, I know it was real.  I sometimes go there in my sleep.  I need to feel their support and love, because I need that to make it through these dark days on earth.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?            Yes.  I felt so loved and accepted.  And, I was also surprised at the exuberance they showed me on my decision to return.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real            Same reason as above.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     I have more patience and understanding.  I don't view the "bad" things as bad, and the "good" things as good.  They just are because they need to be.  I have had marital issues, because I have changed and find importance in other things than my spouse.  It isn't bad, it is just different.  It is no one's fault we are not connecting on a spiritual level, which has now become of great importance to me, he has given me space to be me, which is helping tremendously.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            Yes     I don't practice one particular religion.  I believe they all have a place for different spiritual paths.  I choose to be non-religious, but I step in spiritual light.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        The doctors said I would never be the same again.  Well, not spiritually I am not, but physically I have overcome many obstacles... I went back to school and I have a 4.0 average after three semesters at college.  I went back to become an RN, I have this overwhelming need to heal people.... spiritually, physically...etc etc... I can lay my hands on people to heal them.  It happens more often than not, sometimes people need to be ill (that is hard to explain, but we all die from something)... we weren't meant to live forever in the physical.

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes     I believe so.  Yes.

Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience?   Not at this time.