EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:
Was in an accident. Hemorrhaging badly, vomiting blood. Taken to
surgery I suddenly became aware of slipping out of my body from feet through the
top of my head as if I were the inside of a concord grape and pan caked above
the surgical site as if my spirit got out of the way of my body. I could feel
this process happen. I watched everything that was going on in a completely
detached mode. The tools looked like a carpenter's shop. I heard the music, the
buzz of saws, and I could read the minds and future's of the people there
including my own. I saw the reason for my life and what I needed to work out.
Physically speaking, I saw through walls. My husband was home chopping wood, red
roses waiting in my patient room from my sister in Alaska and my kids were in
school and I knew what they were doing. I could instantly read the mind's of
those in the surgery room and what they would do next. I also knew one
physician's had cancer and didn't know it. He would die the following year (and
did). The other was having a Romeo and Juliet affair that would end up badly
(and did). I was in the middle of some kind of hologram. I noticed all my
feelings, emotions, personality and knowledge were still with me and that I
carried a large amount of anger toward certain people, especially my parents and
the religion they used against me. I'd been an agnostic for years. Then once
having this experience during surgery in an out of my body state, I suddenly
observed a Being of Light instantly entering this holographic space and when he
came, I was washed with a flood of love and forgiveness for everyone and
everything. I even loved the earth and all its beauty and the animals on the
earth and "felt" the spiritual process we are all in, and how we are literally
tied together as brothers and sisters needing to be unified in love and care.
This experience totally changed my life and the direction of my life. I never
drank another alcoholic drink or used another chemical. I reunited with my
estranged family. I wrote a letter of forgiveness to my ex-husband and he wrote
back expressing the same; something neither of us could do before this. Many
other impressions came to me that were very personal. I went to sleep one person
and woke up quite another. I am now 70 years old and no longer fear death as
this experience seems as if it happened recently and all images are deeply
impressed upon my mind even though it happened in 1982.
Was
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
Yes Everything in a hologram. The ability to see and know everything at
once. Seeing through walls. Knowing the past, present and future of people in
surgery and seeing family members and what they were doing. Great peace and
comfort after turbulent life.
At
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
Yes Hemorrhaging do to accident.
At
what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness
and alertness?
? It seemed as if I was totally alert, but my body was under extreme sedation. I
could remember everything and recalled everything. It completely changed my
life, my belief system and the angst formerly felt toward certain family
members. All emotions were the same as prior to surgery, but changed by this
spiritual insight. Obviously I took myself with me wherever I go.
How
did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience
compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
If
your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was
different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please
explain:
? It seemed as if I was totally alert, but my body was under extreme sedation. I
could remember everything and recalled everything. It completely changed my
life, my belief system and the angst formerly felt toward certain family
members. All emotions were the same as prior to surgery, but changed by this
spiritual insight. Obviously I took myself with me wherever I go.
Did
your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect,
such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of
solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
Yes I could see through walls. I read the surgeons mind and instantly "knew"
he was having an affair with the attending nurse; that his brother would die of
cancer the following year. (and did). My sister had sent me roses, my husband
was home chopping wood. My kids were in school A list of details, all too
trivial to write about, but confirmed to me what I saw was real. Unlike dreams,
I remembered everything as if it just happened. It changed the direction of my
life and the way I took care of my body, my life, my family and patients forever
after.
Did
your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any
aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness,
etc.)?
Yes Heightened hearing. More than that, I could "hear" thoughts
of the people in the room.
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
All my human emotions including past experiences, except all past
emotions were completely washed with love in a way that I never again held on to
my former anger.
Did
you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
No Stayed pan-caked over my body, detached, watching from above the
operating table and observing everything with greater clarity than if I were
doing the surgery myself.
Did
you see a light?
Yes Only aware of being in a bright light, surrounded by a bright light and
the light of a Holy Being. All was in some kind of a hologram and not
necessarily face to face. In other words, I could understand how God might
project into everyone's life at the same time, like some Skype computer image or
TV, but all was far more personal as if we are all connected as one.
Did
you meet or see any other beings?
Yes A Holy being so filled with love and forgiveness I searched afterwards,
to find a picture of what I saw. I finally found a pencil drawing by Frances
Hook of Jesus with the children. That is the closest image of a Holy Being to
what I saw although I'd never seen that particular picture before my NDE
experience.
Did
you experience a review of past events in your life?
Yes Absolutely. I understood why my parents had rejected me. I understood
the part of my childhood religion that was definitely man-made and ego-centered.
I no longer believe in that religion or any "religion," but I believe in God and
eternal life, but no religious affiliation. Also our personality including our
knowledge and emotions seem to always go with us wherever we are, in this life
or another.
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
Yes Definitely. I saw what all my family members were doing at the time and
was able to verify those activities later, they were astonished that I could see
what they were doing, and talking about.
Did
you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions?
No
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes Everything in a hologram. I watched everything happening within the
surgical arena. I could "see" and "hear" everything in my world and it blended
easily within the sidereal universe as if past, present and future are all at
once.
Did
you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes I knew my purpose and it changed the direction of my life and how I
treated my children and my career.
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
No I could see through walls and go anywhere instantly by thought if I so
desired.
Did
you become aware of future events?
Yes
Absolutely changed my life and my beliefs. I now believe in Christ.
Before I studied Eastern religions and felt that all knowledge is relative and
like the adage of the "Six Blind Men and the Elephant." Everyone had a different
handle on truth. After the experience I changed this perception. I do feel there
is an absolute Truth, but so complex and eternal we will never understand it in
the dimension and simply don't have the tools for such knowing. But it doesn't
matter. "Everything," is simply love. Jesus was right, "Love everything that is
Godly. Love yourself, love your neighbor." (Matt.22:37-40, but I don't adhere to
any specific religious organization.
Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
you did not have prior to the experience?
Yes Anything electrical shuts down. However, it also works in the reverse. I
have some uncanny ability for anything mechanical or electrical. I instantly
figure it out and so, my husband turns such things over to me. I used this
ability in energy healing of my patients as they came out of surgery and were
still sleepy and became known as "The nurse who had the best patients." I never
told anyone however, what I was doing. It was assumed by my co-workers I had
given them a cola drink and percadan i.e. double caffeine.
Have you shared this experience with others?
No I attempted to with my physician, but he was so scared by what I saw in
his future and that I'd "seen" his affair going on, he cut me off directly.
After that, I kept everything to myself. (By the way, he was having an affair as
I psychically had seen and it broke up his family and caused a suicide. All sad
stuff.
Did
you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
No It was never talked about or much known at the time and my physician I
tried to share it with, said I was hallucinating. By the way, he was a 7th Day
Adventist. That religion does not believe in an afterlife until Jesus raises
them at resurrection day. Hence, my NDE was not considered valued by this doctor
because (I quote), "There is no afterlife. When we die we're dead."
How
did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was definitely real I felt resurrected with a joy to life I didn't
previously have.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
I'd
been raised in a fundamental religion where women were lesser (polygamy). I
rebelled from that church and lived a life of rebellion. This experience
completely altered my awareness. I never took another alcoholic drink or drug of
any kind afterwards and I'm totally at peace in my own skin but sadden to watch
those in my family, made unhappy by doctrine in their religion.
How
do you currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was definitely real I have become very spiritual, patient and much
more loving. I also became forgiving of people who had wounded me deeply i.e.
parents, ex-husband.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Yes
It
caused a divorce and although I never told my family, they noticed the
difference and my father had me officially excommunicated from the church. His
loss and his pain.
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Yes
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No I've had cancer: breast& ovarian, three more spinal fusions, three
arthoplasty's and NEVER had this repeat. I even took LSD during the '60's and it
was nothing like any drug that entered my body.
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
I
feel it was a gift. I have 10 siblings. I wish I could share this with, but
their religious belief gets in the way
Did
the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes It's almost impossible to really explain other than to say, the
experience changed everything concerning my previous religious belief and I
learned, God doesn't play favorites like religion's do.
Are
there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience?
Just a greater awareness that we are spiritual beings having a
mortal experience and when it comes to "God," the tools of science don't apply.
The spiritual realm can not be explained using physical tools to measure
spiritual concepts. Science can't explain God because it can't explain a koan,
a puzzle, a paradox, a mystery. Quantum Physics attempts to understand our
universe and us in it, but all it explains is, it is unimaginable. The multiple
dimensions of the afterlife is neither explainable nor something we need to
explain. We barely understand ourselves as humans. We need to take one dimension
at a time and realize, life is eternal and we'll have what we need when we "get
there," to deal with that dimension. Having said that, I'm deeply grateful that
NDEs are becoming acceptable. I met many such people during my own practice in
medicine including confirming NDE experience's while I worked in ICU
