Chad's NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

Everything seemed to get real quiet and slow kind of slow motion, almost like I had time to experience all of the feelings sounds and surroundings in less then real time.  And it was almost like time was not there.  Hard to explain, like 1 min of time took 1 or 2 hrs to take place.  After the quiet, almost too quiet, so without sound like a still night - only quieter. I saw the truck in slow motion. The GMC emblem, the busted plastic grill, the chrome but rusted bumper.  The windshield of the truck was flat, not like newer rounded windshields, the wipers were mounted from the top not the bottom.  Details like that are endless, even now 11 years later. Next the sound of skidding tires, breaking glass, and the loudest bang or explosion I have ever heard.

I remember calling out the side of the mangled car for help.  No one came for what felt like forever.  Then in the blink of an eye, the medics were there and my brother was by my side telling me that everything was going to be ok.  He even got yelled at because I asked for a cigarette.  He lit one and gave it to me, but I had the oxygen mask on.  They didn't like that too much. 

This is when things get a little weird because that really didn't happen, but I remember it happening like it was real. I blacked out. I don't remember being loaded into the ambulance. I have to go by my brother's account of what happened and when the fire department cut the car apart to get me out.  The medic cut the seat belt, which I later found out was acting like a tourniquet. I started to bleed out. I had a right femur fracture; my pelvis was broken in 5 places. I went into shock and coded twice on the road next to the car. 

The next thing I remember, I was in the ambulance.  Everything was dark but I could still hear everything.  Some things were distant, like the siren.  Other things were very clear. Then I could see the inside of the ambulance.  In like a 3 dimensional circle, I saw a person on the cot.  I did not realize it was me at that time. I had an automatic blood pressure cuff on my right arm.  It kept checking blood pressure.  The man yelled, "he's going down!" I watched the monitor read 67/35 then 54/? and the spo2 read 23%.

Then it got all warm and I realized I was dying.  It was me there.  All of the horrific pain was gone. I felt better than I had ever felt before like a peaceful deep sleep feels.  Disconnected. I felt happy.  All of the sound started to get further and further away. The next series of events happened in what felt like about 2 or three months, but was actually about 15 minutes.  No one came to me or anything like that, but more like a movie of what I wanted in life.  The girl I liked at the time was my wife which came true 2 years later.  Kind of like if I had complete control of the future, I got to build the perfect life.  Then what felt like a ton of bricks fell from the highest building onto my chest like three times in a row about 10 seconds apart. 

Everyone tells me that I was in an 8 day coma but I remember waking up and sitting up in the surgery room where they were stitching me up.  I said something I don't remember what something was, but the dr. didn't say anything. I heard a voice telling me to lie down and relax but there was no one there when I woke up 8 days later. All of the warm glow feeling and painless state was gone. I felt the worst I had ever felt ever and at that time mad that I was not in that place anymore.  The recovery took almost a year. I still suffer from pain.  I feel like I was kept here for the reason of raising my to daughters and helping people through the fire department.  This happened like 11 years ago and I can still remember every detail.  You are the first person I have told this story to I hope it doesn't sound to over the top thanks for listening.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     I have not talked to any one about this in 11 years not even my wife.  The fear of people thinking I'm crazy makes it hard to talk about it.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     car wreck

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    in the ambulance watching the monitor

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            in the ambulance watching the monitor

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  No      

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?            Yes     as described in the story above

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            fear of dying, then warmth and welcoming

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     as explained in above story

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     No      

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No      

Did you become aware of future events?       Uncertain              I saw my future or what I hoped it would be

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Uncertain      some strange feelings of intuition about things

Have you shared this experience with others?         No      

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No      

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was probably real    as explained in above story

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?    as explained in above story

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was probably real    not sure

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           No      

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            No           

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        no

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         No       I don't think that anything in words, without being there and seeing what I saw.  Words or questions can not do it justice