Cathy M's NDE

May 1984 

The doctors where working on me.  They where removing my Kidney to take to my sister in the adjacent surgery room.  All I can remember is that I was floating over my body.  Not really paying attention to the fact that the Drs. where having problems with my punctured lung.  All I saw was the light that was holding me over my body.  It was peaceful and wonderful!  It was comfortable climate wise and I was just looking down.  Waiting for something, I did not know what.  I felt the warmth of the love and the peace of just floating without a care.  Suddenly, I heard the cry of my baby girl.  I had just had my daughter Elizabeth on January 16th.  The Drs. where waiting for me to re-cooperate from the birth and to re-do all the necessary test for the transplant.  I had gotten pregnant and did know and find out until we where ready to have the transplant.  My sister and I where in the hospital admitted and waiting for the final blood work that would tell the Drs. that everything was ok and that they could perform the transplant.  I remember the Dr. coming into my room with a very worried look on his face.  He told me that my blood test did not match/where not compatible with those of my sister.  I told the Dr. that there was a mistake.  He told me that they could not re-do the test in time for us to have the transplant and that the surgery had to be post-pone until the test matched and where ok.  He told me that if they went ahead the transplant might not work and my sister's body would reject the kidney.  I knew that they where wrong. 

As the days went by, I started to have nausea in the mornings.  I found out that I was pregnant.  The transplant had to be put off until after the birth of my baby.  I know why the transplant had to be put of.  I know why I got pregnant.  It was because the transplant would not work with the team that they put together the first time.  When I was hovering over my body all of this came to light.  I also knew that I wanted to die because my husband was not supportive of my decision to give my sister the kidney.  God in his all mighty power showed me that I could go to heaven and leave everything behind.  I would not have to deal with my husband and the pain of his neglect.  Then my baby cried and she brought me back to life.  The moment that I heard her cry, I knew that I had to take care of her.  It was as someone had snapped their fingers and I woke up from the anesthetic.  I was asking questions about complications during the surgery.  I was told of my lung having been pierced and the fact that the Drs. could not wake me.  I knew right there and then what had happened and I knew that I was trying to escape from the pain of my husbands neglect.  I knew that God sent my daughter to us so that the transplant would be successful and so that I could find a new life with more knowledge and a better awareness of what is important to me, my children.  My life changed dramatically after that.  My belief in the higher energy grew; my intuition became more in tuned.  I am now a practicing Psychic.  What I learned on that experience is the love and compassion that we need to survive and help others survive.  Yes, our energy and our thoughts are what create who we are.  We become what we believe and think.  Our body, spirit, mind and soul are affected by our thoughts and belief. 

If I close my eyes, I can go back to that time and place and I can feel the wonderful feeling of being free.  It is an incredible feeling when we know that we where given a new opportunity to live our life in a better way.  I know that it is because of that experience that I am now able to feel and see things that others may not.  That is why I am now able to help under the practice of a psychic and a more loving individual.  It was as if I had all of a sudden gone to schools that gave me the knowledge to help people with the many and various problems that they face.  I sometimes amaze myself of what I know without having gone to school. 

I thank God for his blessing every day

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?          No      It was not difficult explaining the event and how I felt when I could see myself hovering over my body with a light surrounding me.  I could see my body and the doctors working on me.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes    My punctured lung.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?  Up until the moment that I heard my baby cry.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?          More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:        It was a focused alertness on what was going on with the Drs working on my body and at the same time hearing, feeling the light the warmth, the love that I was experiencing while I watched above my body all that was going on.  Not really caring and still knowing that I had a decision to make.  I could leave because I was feeling hurt and neglected, that is until I heard my baby cry.  I snapped.  The light went away, I was no longer above my body and I woke up.  It all happened so rapidly.  I did not know what transpired until I was told of what had happened and how the Drs. where having a hard time getting me back.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?          No     

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
          Uncertain     While I was hovering over my body and the Drs.  I did not hear them, I was observing but not really hearing what they where saying.  I was more aware of the feelings that I was going through out of my body.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?          Uncertain

What emotions did you feel during the experience?          Peace, warmth, love, until I heard my baby cry.  Then it was a worried feeling. I went back to my body.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?        No     

Did you see a light?         Yes    Yes, the light was around me and it seemed to be holding me over my body and it was warm and loving.

Did you meet or see any other beings?         Uncertain    

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?   Yes    Yes, the experience of my husband not wanting to be supportive of my decision to donate my kidney to my sister.  Yes, I felt the pain and the sadness.  I knew that I wanted to die.  So I was hovering over my body but not really concentrating on that still knowing that I wanted to die and make the pain go away.  Until I heard my baby cry....

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?         Yes    Why I was out of my body and the Drs. where working on my.  Once I was told of the complications, I knew what had happened.  It explained the Drs. working on me.

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?          No     

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes    I had no notion of how much time I spent out of my body.  It just seemed that I was hovering over my body for quite some time but not really...

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Uncertain     I really did not know at the time.  It all just seemed to be very normal and I was not afraid at all, that is until I heard my baby cry.  I felt the worry and concern.  I knew that I had to get back to her and I did.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No     

Did you become aware of future events?      Uncertain         

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?       Yes    Yes, a sense of knowing.  I had to go see my sister right away.  I was able to walk to see her the next day with the help of my sister.  I walked, the nurses where not aware that I had gone.  I knew that they would not let me up from the bed.  I had to see my sisters kidney working and I did.  I knew that it would.  My sister and I had been guided to meditate, pray and speak to our bodies prior to the surgery.  We both have healed and she is as healthy as I am.  Her kidney is working just fine.  We told it to and it is doing so.

Have you shared this experience with others?        Yes    Right after the surgery.  I told my mom and sister.  Once in a while I will share with individuals that I feel comfortable sharing with.  They are amazed and I find that when I share it is because they need help and guidance with personal problems.  It helps them to know and it changes their way of looking at life and their problems.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No     

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real   I became more in-tune with life and the people around me.  It is as if Ihad been sleeping all the years prior to the experience.  I became alive and aware of every day and everything around me.  I found more joy in the things that I did and as time has progressed, I find that I am still finding more about the gifts that have been given to me on that day of the transplant.  I know that I changed and I am a better person because of that experience.  I do not fear death and I am at peace with God, people and the universe.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? Yes, first the sadness and the hurt of knowing that I wanted to die and leave all the pain behind because my husband was not understanding and caring.  Then the knowing and the worry when I heard my baby cry.  She brought me back to life.  I believe that she came to me as an Angel sent by God so that she could bring me back to life.  I know that he planned it all.  I know that the new found intuition and life time experiences that I now have where all learned when I left my body.  I am here to help and make a difference in peoples lives.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:          Experience was definitely real         Currently, just now as I am writing what I experienced the loving light the feelings that I felt then, I am feeling now.  I know that now when someone approaches me with a problem, I will be guided as to how to help them and make their life a better and happier life.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?          Yes    Yes, I care more about people.  I feel their problems and pains even from far away.  I can predict events and tell them about past events in their life.  I am guided and given information that I really do not know.  I just listen and do as I am told.  No questions asked.  It is a great feeling a wonderful feeling that is warm and very, very loving...

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes    I am more open to just doing the right thing and all religions are based on one.  Love and doing the right thing.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?    No         

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? The experience changed my life for the better.  I am blessed to have been given the opportunity to fulfill my destiny of helping people where ever I go.  Bringing love and peace to their spirit, heart and soul.

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes    I feel that you have asked very pertinent questions and it made me think of how beautiful and wonderful it was to be free, so warm, loved and needed...

Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience? You have done a fantastic job of asking questions and giving instructions.  Thank you, for allowing me to re-live my experienced and now with your questions it was a most, most wonderful and detailed re-living of it...