Experience description:
A skier came off a ski jump at a fast speed, screamed "watch out", & crashed on
top of me. I remember feeling incredible pain everywhere, and then, 'it stopped'
just like that.
My last thought
was "So THIS is what it's like to die...." and I became this 'head'. Not a
weighted down body, more like a light, free, thinking, silent-talking (no words
spoken, but message understood), head. I went 'up' until I reached this white
world. All white with a brighter white 'hole-like' opening off in the distance.
From that hole, while I was 'stuck' as this 'head' just able to watch, two
figures slowly came towards me.
They were
dressed in long white robes, including hoods that covered their identities as
they held their heads downward while they walked. When they were within 10 feet
of me, they both looked up to reveal themselves as my deceased uncle John (whom
I LOVED!) and my grandmother behind him. I was SO EXCITED to see my Uncle
John. I wanted to run to him and hug him, but I was stuck where I was, just
this head peering above this cloud of white. As I was screaming silently
"Uncle John! Uncle John!" (because I admit I was confused and scared and quite
relieved to see a familiar face to help/explain where I was), he stopped short
of me, shook his head as if to say 'no, it's not your time". Slowly he turned
with his head back down, while my grandmother followed. (I should note that they
were the only deceased relatives that I personally knew at that time).
Next thing I
knew I felt like someone was slicing my chest open with a knife. Extremely
painful taking that first breath! I was "MAD"! I remember being ANGRY that I was
SO CLOSE to hugging my uncle and they people must be the reason for ruining
it. The first words I heard was my husband saying "Don't make Danny feel bad
saying anything because he's been crying-he thinks he killed you!:" So of
course, I didn't get to share my experience or get any medical attention! They
bought me a beer for my headache and left me in the lodge to sleep while they
went back to skiing. Nice friends huh?
Overall,
yes it changed my life. I talk to people I don't know now. I love meeting
people, helping people. You only live once. I enjoy my life more now and I'm NOT
afraid to die and having love one's pass on is not so painful knowing they are
all up there together.
I was told by
doctors that I was clinically dead for approximately three minutes based on
brain cells that were destroyed. I have been left with seizures, narcolepsy and
no short term memory. I like to say I am eternally 28 since I haven't made a new
memory since. But that day, being my last real memory, will be with me forever!
Was the
kind of experience difficult to express in words?
Uncertain It is hard to describe the feeling of just being able to
communicate without talking to my deceased uncle...and to describe the all white
world and deeper white hole-like area they (grandmother and uncle) came walking
slowly out of towards me.
At the
time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
No
At what
time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and
alertness?
When my head was above the clouds watching the two figures coming towards me.
How did
your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare
to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?
Normal consciousness and alertness
Did your
vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such
as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of
solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
Yes I suppose, yes, I could see way way off into the distance into that
white hole far away where they walked from towards me. It was very dimensional,
like a tunnel. (I have had my Uncle visit me since in a dream, where he came
down a white tunnel to give me a message that came true)
Did your
hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect,
such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
Yes Well, you didn't speak, but you communicated without words
so hearing wasn't really 'real' so to "speak" (sorry for the play on words!).
Did you
experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
What
emotions did you feel during the experience?
at first when I thought "so this is what it's like to die" I was very
very calm. Then when I reached the 'white world' I was a little scared while I
had to 'wait' in that one spot unable to move while the white figures moved
toward me. Excited to see my Uncle. Sad when I didn't get to hug him. Angry when
I came back.
Did you
pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
No I
didn't pass through it, but I saw it in the distance. That's where the two
figures came out of.
Did you
see a light?
Uncertain Not quite a light, but the tunnel/enclosure area was definitely
brighter than the rest of the white world.
Did you
meet or see any other beings?
Yes Yes, I met my Uncle John and my Grandmother - the only two deceased
relatives I knew at the time. They came from the tunnel towards me.
Communication was only by me, trying to say with words, but no words would come,
only thoughts "Uncle John!" I wanted to run but couldn't. He merely shook his
head to say it wasn't my time and left again back to the tunnel with my
grandmother following.
Did you
experience a review of past events in your life?
No
Did you
observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that
could be verified later?
Yes
Did you
see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions?
Yes Yes, I went up until I my 'head' was just above a white layer of
clouds. The world was all white. It was like I was at a certain stage, frozen in
that spot. Waiting to be greeted by my relatives, only to be told to go back
because it wasn't my time.
Did you
have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes Time didn't matter
Did you
have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
No
Did you
reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Yes Yes, I reached the boundary, being only a head above the clouds. I felt
the next level would have been my relatives reaching out to me and walking me
into the tunnel where they came from, but they didn't touch me or talk to me,
only shook their head.
Did you
become aware of future events?
No
Did you
have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you
did not have prior to the experience?
Yes Yes, I have no short term memory so I can't be specific, but I do have a
way of predicting things, or 'just knowing' certain things about people, etc.
Have
you shared this experience with others?
Yes After the event occurred. No one really wanted to hear or talk about it
for fear of upsetting Danny, the friend who hit me and had 'been crying'. (The
other guys were 'embarrassed' for him....). Since then, I have found that people
who have lost love ones appreciate hearing my experience. They are most likely
to believe than the average 'engineer' type person.
Did you
have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
Yes Out of body experience once during a surgery-floated above my self while
I watch the nurse yelling to the doctor that I was 0 over 60...and I went out
into the hallway and watched the doctor (from above) running down the hall over
to my bed. Then, I was back as a body again.
How did
you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was definitely real It has and will always be real. I KNOW it
happened. I don't care who believes it. They can wait and find out for
themselves someday, but most of them won't come back to apologize to me for not
believing me.
Were
there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
Knowing I get
to see my parents again....I have peace knowing that. I know that they 'may' be
able to be around me when they 'get' permission to come visit me. Somehow I feel
like they have rules to follow beyond that tunnel-it just seemed so 'organized'
the way they came out like they were on a path...and turned etc.
How do
you currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was definitely real The part where I went from 'extreme
pain' to no pain at all and then my LAST THOUGHT being "SO THIS IS WHAT IT'S
LIKE TO DIE." Now why on earth would I ever have that thought. I have never done
that before when I've fallen down or been injured in any way. I pass out all the
time and I don't have that thought. It was ONLY that time. THEN, after that
thought, It all began. Nothing had started yet prior to that thought other than
no pain anymore.
Have your
relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
My engineer
husband doesn't believe anything.
Have
your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Yes
Religion has
nothing to do with it at all. We all do to the same place and get greet the same
way. BUT, there is DEFINITELY SOMETHING beyond that tunnel that is running
things. You just KNOW that because of the orderly fashion in which things are
being run. Something is running all this.
Following the
experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or
substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
Yes Yes,
Uncle John came to me four years after the event while I was pregnant with my
last child in a dream. He came down a long white tunnel, dressed the same way in
white robe, holding something. When I asked what it was, he said "It's your
baby girl and her name is Carly. I have been taking care of your girls these
past few years, but now it is your turn." STRANGE THING IS, I did have a
daughter next month, and her name was GOING to be Brianna, but every time I told
the dream to someone, they said "I love that name Carly". Well, she ended up
being named Carly by popular demand, just like he told me her name would be.
Also, a month after giving birth to my last of three girls, I began having
seizures, and now take medications that would have kept me from having children.
I am sure someone he protected me from these seizures until I had had all my
children, and he made sure they were all born safe. And now "I' protect them.
Did the
questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes
