Experience description:
I had an abortion from someone who was supposed to be a "nurse". In fact, 2 other women had died as a result of her supposed abortions. I felt terribly terribly ill. I was in a tremendous amount of pain. Pain everywhere in my body. My partner carried me to the car, and I lay down in the back seat. He started for the hospital. There was a thunderstorm, we stopped at a RR crossing and it was then:
I felt myself lifting out of my body. I did not see my body below me or anything. The pain subsided and at the same time, I KNEW I was dying. I felt my being, my SELF, being absorbed into what I was later to describe as the arms of God. I experienced the most powerful, profound love and
peace. Every hurt, pain, regret, all the negative things of my life were erased, wiped away. They no longer mattered. The only thing I felt was this unbelievable peace and love. The love was so vast, so much greater than anything I had ever experienced here on earth. I have never feared death since. I felt I had been given the greatest gift I could ever receive. The doctors said later that I was so far out there, they didn't think they had a prayer of bringing me back.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening
event? Yes Illegal abortion resulting in severe systemic infection.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? As I was being absorbed into this great realm of love and peace and union.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain: There isn't a way to explain it, as there is no feeling like it here on earth. It was crystal clear. It was like going Home at last, at last. A feeling of belonging, of meaning, of completeness.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes
What emotions did you feel during the
experience? Total relief and joy and union with the Divine.
Did you see a light? Yes
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? Yes Other worldly love and peace. A feeling of final rest and completeness.
Did you have any sense of altered
space or time? Uncertain
can't remember that, but definitely a nothingness as far as time, space just seemed forever and ever.
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes Just that we are not judged, there was no horrible punishment....just LOVE.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Uncertain Even more
sensitive to stimuli....sounds, stories, heat, cold... I do feel I have a gift of working with people who are dying. Have done volunteer work with Hospice.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes I was working at the Edgar Cayce Foundation at the time, and I shared it with a lot of people. It invoked a sense in wonderment in all of us.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I had read about it but others' experiences seemed far more complicated and different from mine.
I did not go through a tunnel, or watch my body below, or see a light or meet any beings.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? I had always been terrified of death, of oblivion. I no longer fear death.
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real
It was so clearly in my consciousness. There was no way I could forget it, not ever.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was definitely real
Because I have never feared death since. I may not like some of the ways we arrive at actual death, but I will never be afraid of death itself.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Uncertain
I still have a lot
of emotional garbage. Still working on these things.
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes I think that every path to God is valid, no matter what it may be called. I think the love that God has for every single one of us is beyond description it is so great, so vast and so profound.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes the questions gave me the room to tell my experience without feeling like I had to conform to any other.
