Caroline S's NDE & ADC

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION

during the caesarian I dreamt that my father was just up ahead of me on a slight incline and he was exactly as I remembered him, I was trying to walk towards him but he turned around and waved me away and he said "no go back go back its not time yet" I can remember feeling slightly disappointed but the next thing I knew I was being woken up by my husband to tell me that the baby was alright. The next day a doctor came to see me and said that during the operation I had hemorrhaged very badly and that they had nearly lost me my husband confirmed this when he came to visit he said he was told to prepare for the worst. this happened on 22nd June 1982 

my second experience concerns the friend of my son she had been diagnosed with bone cancer and despite extensive treatment she died, on Monday the 13th June 1994 I dreamt that I was shopping at our local shops when I saw Lisa running towards me I can remember feeling delighted because her cancer was in her leg and her last few days she had used a wheelchair, as she was coming towards me she was saying "look I'm alright now" and she was smiling and I felt so happy for her. The next day I returned from work at around four  p.m. and I met my son who told me that Lisa had died that morning. 

My third experience occurred when my mother was dying she had had a stroke and  on the Tuesday had fallen into a coma all my family were at the hospital but I had just had a nervous breakdown and found it very hard to accept that my mother was going to die, I refused to attend the hospital somehow thinking that it would all go away and she would get better. At about 11pm my husband and I had gone to bed and I was having trouble settling as I lay there in the dark I felt a sense of urgency and I also felt someone blowing gently on my face, I suddenly felt that I had to go the hospital to say goodbye I got my husband up and we drove to the hospital and although I found it very hard I said my farewells to her this happened on 11th November 1997

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?            No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          Yes

            Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:    with my father and Lisa they both spoke to me with my mother it was just gently air on my face

            Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?  the voice came directly from the person

            If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?           the voice was exactly the same in both cases

            Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           no

            Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   no

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            Yes

I think it may have been my father blowing on my face so that I would say my goodbye to my mother

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?   unfamiliar

            Was anything communicated by the touch?  no

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?  I don't think so

Did you see the deceased?         Yes

my dad was just as I remember he was wearing his dressing gown and slippers and his hair was grey and combed and he still had his moustache.

Lisa looked the same but obviously she looked healthy and she had her hair just as she always had shoulder length and blond

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            both incidences the person was solid

            How much of the deceased did you see?       all of the deceased

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       both time the person was the age at which they died my father was 67 and Lisa was 12

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            both times they appeared healthy the illness that had taken them was not apparent

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           I did wonder if when I saw my father was it because of the anesthetic

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No

How long did the experience last?        with my father it is difficult to say it felt like a long time because I could not reach him

with Lisa it was a fairly short dream as far as I can tell

with my mother it lasted just a few minutes

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         each time had a gradual conclusion

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes

my father was determined that I would not reach him

when I dreamt of Lisa she was ecstatic

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  no

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           it was too much of a coincidence not to be real

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   Yes

when I saw my father I can still visualize the dream now, but with Lisa the dream is still in my mind and faded slightly

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           with my father I just wanted to be with him

with Lisa I was happy to see her well again

with my mother I was scared

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

I felt that my father turned me back because he knew that it wasn't time for me to die I now had 3 children and they needed me.

with Lisa I realized it was her way of saying that she was alright the pain and suffering was gone.

with my mother I needed to come to terms with the fact that she was going to die and I had to face it

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      when I saw my father the worst part was not being able to reach him but the best was knowing that he knew it was not my time

the best part of seeing Lisa was seeing her so happy the worst part was knowing that she had died

the worst part with my mother was having to say goodbye but the best was knowing she was safe with my father

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         No      

What other attitudes and beliefs about your experience do you currently have? 
             
No particular attitude         

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   No      

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?  Yes            there must be an afterlife or something and that we do have guardian angels

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?        No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?            each time a sadness descended on me

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    No

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?            Yes

when I saw my father I could see other people up ahead of me climbing the incline quite easily whereas I was struggling to keep up

Did you see a light?           Yes  literally a light at the end of a tunnel

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?            No

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     some are very skeptical but a lot of others are fascinated

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?       I can only hope that it means there is an afterlife my fear of death is overwhelming sometimes but I know that if my father or mother or both come for me at the end my fear will disappear

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            Uncertain

with my father was it the anesthetic

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           Yes 

just lately I have had dreams about deceased relatives my parents etc I feel they are trying to tell me something but I don't understand what is happening

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes

these experiences are the most significant I have had the fact that they are still so clear in mind makes me think that they are real 

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    the questionnaire is good.