Candy B's NDE

Experience description: 

      I had a hysterectomy. I was out of recovery and in my room when I was allowed to walk to the restroom. I fainted in the restroom. I remember nurses snapping ammonia capsules under my nose but I couldn't stay conscious long enough to walk back to the bed. My toes drug the floor as they half-carried me to bed.

I was in bed when the doctor arrived. He began to push and feel around my stomach when someone screamed. At that time I realized it was I who had screamed, but I wasn't "there".  I was high up in a corner of the room watching the working on me. I "saw" me scream rather than "heard" it. The doctor was taking my blood pressure and said something about it being 35/0.  He called for units of blood and was angry because they weren't thawed out. He gave me two  a clear fluid, while the blood was being prepared.  I continued to watch all the activity floating in a bright white light. It was peaceful and I was didn't want to leave it but a thought of my three year old daughter made everything disappear and when I woke up  I think it was three days later. 

 I woke up very angry and began to yell at my husband who had walked into my empty room because the hospital staff had removed me for a brief exam without informing him.  In short my family assumed I had died and had started making the "calls" to other family members. I was angry at having to return.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience:  No

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes

      What was it about the experience that makes it hard to communicate?  I could hear clearly what was being said and I could watch everything that was being done to me, I just cant express what I felt.

At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event?  Yes

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?  Unconscious

Was the experience dream like in any way?  No, only the cloud-like floating effect

Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body?  Uncertain

Describe your appearance or form apart from your body:  I didn't "see" my body as I floated, It was more of my mind and soul with no substance or body

What emotions did you feel during the experience?  Peace, tranquility, serenity, warmth

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?  No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?  Yes

      Describe:  I didn't pass through but it seemed to be waiting just behind me.

Did you see a light?  Yes

      Describe:  Bright white light, warm feeling on my face

Did you meet or see any other beings?  No

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?  No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?  Yes

      Describe:  I'm sure its in the medical files.  I just never looked. The doctor is now dead 

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?  No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes

      Describe:  I don't know how long this all took or when I woke up.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?  No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?  No

Did you become aware of future events?  Yes

      Describe:  I have a sort of psychic thing going with my sister

Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body?  Yes

      Describe:  I wanted to stay and be with my daughter, But I was so angry when I woke up.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  Described in # 18

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  I'm kinder, Much more empathetic to the plight of others,

Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?  I love law enforcement. I can talk to people

Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes

      Describe:  Most thought I was nuts, Others mere envious.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  Good feelings about the experience. I'd have liked to have " gone further into the light but I was afraid I wouldn't see my children again.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?  Peace was the best, The worst was not being able to talk about the experience until many years later. There was not much information on the subject so it was kind of scary. everyone thought you were crazy when you said anything.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?  No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  Each time I have surgery, I have something go wrong, and end up scaring everyone for a minute or two.