Experience description:
I suddenly found
myself in a field full of wild flowers. There were also rolling hills. There
was bright light everywhere, but I didn't see a source of the light. I ran
through the field in extreme happiness. Up ahead I saw a fence. The fence was
made of wood logs. They were thick poles that held up two rows of wood. The
bottom row was about 18" off the ground, but it was hard to tell because the
grass and flowers came up from the ground almost a foot. The second row of wood
was about 18" above the bottom row. It expanded as far as I could see. I
recall thinking, "I have to get over that fence." However, I thoroughly enjoyed
the time it to get there. I was filled with joy, peace, and contentment.
When I
arrived at the fence I started climbing over it. I was halfway across when I
felt a touch on my shoulder. I looked to see who touched me (I wasn't
frightened at all) and I saw who I thought was Jesus Christ. My family didn't
attend church, but somehow I knew I was looking at Jesus. He didn't have an
human body and he didn't look like an angel. It was more like a spiritual
being. He told me, "You can't come yet." I asked him why. Everything about me
wanted to be over that fence. I was actually sitting on the top row with one
leg on either side. I needed to experience what was across the fence. It
looked the same, but it felt different. It was even better than the wonderful
feelings I experienced running through the field to get there. I said, "Please
let me come to the other side." Jesus was kind but quite firm when he said,
"No, Brandy, you must go back. There is much for you to do."
Suddenly, I
was back in my body in the emergency room. I remained in a coma for about three
weeks. When I woke up, I asked for a Bible.
Was the
kind of experience difficult to express in words?
Uncertain It's hard to communicate because I generally feel people won't
believe my experience.
At the
time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
Yes I was in a motorcycle accident. I wasn't wearing a helmet. According
to the doctors and my family, they lost me for a few minutes in the emergency
room.
At what
time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and
alertness?
When I was talking to Jesus.
How did
your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare
to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
If your
highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different
from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:
It was very different. I ceased being twelve years old for those moments. My
thoughts and alertness far surpass what I am capable as an educated 39 year old
woman. It wasn't the same as the consciousness I've experienced since I came
back.
Did your
vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such
as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of
solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
Yes I could see much further. What I could see was considerably brighter.
Smells were intensified incredibly. My depth perception was different. There
were more than 3 dimensions. The flowers, grass, and fence were solid. Jesus
was kind of transparent, but I couldn't see through him. He was more like a
different types of clear white.
Did your
hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect,
such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
Yes The clarity was much better. Sounds didn't seem to enter my
ear, they went through my body.
Did you
experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
What
emotions did you feel during the experience?
Happiness, joy, peace, contentment, excitement. I did feel
frustration and disappointment when Jesus wouldn't let me cross the fence.
Did you
pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
No
Did you
see a light?
Yes It was all around me. It was warm, but it didn't burn.
Did you
meet or see any other beings?
Yes Jesus was on the other side of the fence. Somehow, I did know him. He
communicated love and acceptance even though he didn't let me join him. I felt
very special in his presence.
Did you
experience a review of past events in your life?
No
Did you
observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that
could be verified later?
Uncertain Jesus told me, "There's much for you to do." Rationally, I could
say that refers to my life experiences becoming a mother and other significant
events, but somehow I sense, I still haven't accomplished what I was sent back
to do.
Did you
see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions?
Uncertain There was another dimension. Describing it is difficult.
Did you
have any sense of altered space or time?
Uncertain Time had no relevance.
Did you
have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes I understood that there is more to life and death than what we can see
and experience on a daily basis. I understood that I had a purpose not yet
achieved.
Did you
reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Yes The fence. I had one leg over and one leg remained. I sensed if I'd
been allowed to fully cross the fence everything would be perfect.
Did you
become aware of future events?
No
Did you
have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you
did not have prior to the experience?
Yes Many times, I have the ability to see things in dreams, visions, or I
sense things about people.
Have
you shared this experience with others?
Yes I shared my experience when I came out of the coma. The response was
not very positive so I quit talking about it for about 15 years. Then, I shared
my experience with a few trusted friends who've encouraged me to tell others. I
still avoid conversations unless it's clear my sharing can help someone. I
usually keep this to myself.
Did you
have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
No
How did
you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was definitely real It was very real. I openly shared how real it
was until people shut me down. I felt I need to tell people what happened to
me. I was quite surprised at their response. To me, it was like relying any
other event in my life.
Were
there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
Now, I feel
blessed to have a personal encounter with Jesus. It's odd because I still have
a strong sense I haven't accomplished my purpose. Sometimes, I really wonder
why I had to come back. I REALLY wanted to stay.
How do
you currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was definitely real It's been 27 years since my experience. I can
remember what happened like it happened today. I woke up with a desire to know
about God and Jesus that has not left me.
Have your
relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?
No
Have
your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Yes
I know this
experience is why I choose a life a servant hood. This hasn't made life any
easier, but I don't regret my decision to serve God.
Following the
experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or
substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
For all
these years I have avoided anything to do with NDEs. I don't read books about
it and I haven't researched it in any way. I don't want to be accused of making
this up. Recently, I've allowed myself to watch a couple programs about it.
While some of the experiences are different than mine, I've been amazed at how
similar the experiences can be. I feel like writing this down and presenting it
to this research project somehow will offer me freedom from the isolation I feel
from this experience.
Did the
questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes
Are
there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience?
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