Bobby's NDE

I was leaving an art show at the local art gallery that I had put together for the artists I was acting as agent for when I was struck in the middle of a busy intersection by a car. The driver was not looking at where she was going but looking at the Christmas decorations on the building behind me, she did not see me until she hit me. I saw her coming and thought she was going to drive around me into the furthest lane, but she didn't and hit me full force. I knew she was going to hit me before she did and I realized there was absolutely nothing I could do to prevent being struck as she was traveling too fast. I remember making eye contact with the driver just before the car struck me and the last thing I remember thinking before I blacked out was "Who is going to tell my son I am dead?". My son's face also flashed before my eyes. The car struck my left side of my left knee. I remember that my feet were forced out from under me and I remember being thrown over the car hood but not totally and landing on the side of the top of the hood and then being thrown forward in front of the car and actually being pushed down the road after I hit the ground the first time with the impact actually lifting me back up to be propelled even further. I saw or felt all of this happening as if it was going through a slow motion but yet I also realized that it happened very quickly. According to the witness I had been hit, pushed and then thrown about 70 feet down the street before I made heavy contact with the ground. It was the actual speed that the driver was traveling and the exact moment that she swerved to the left that actually caused me to be thrown clear of the car, otherwise the car would have driven over top of me.

I am not aware of when I blacked out but I do remember seeing the rooftop of the City Hall that is right in front of the intersection, which is a tall building and the rooftop of the office building that is a fair distance down the street from where I was hit, plus the local Library which is behind a copse of trees that should have been hidden from my view from where I was. I remember after I woke up that I was curious how I had seen these images when I was on the ground. I woke up in a prone sitting position, again left wondering later how I had managed to be sitting up when I came to. I felt absolutely no pain nor fear. I actually had felt calm and serene. I believed that I had just been nudged by the car and pushed down and that everything was okay, that I just had to pick myself up and dust myself off. I discovered later from the main the witness that he had jumped out of his vehicle with a blanket, he later told me he was bringing it to cover me up because he thought I was dead. He had prepared himself to accept witnessing a terrible accident and seeing a person be killed. Then I sat up and he went into a bit of a shock and he needed counseling to deal with what he had endured because of my accident. People tried to lift me up to get me off of the street but I pushed everyone away and managed to get up on my own. My entire body felt swollen, especially the bottom half, but still I felt no pain. It was at that time that I thought that maybe I didn't get hit by the car, after all I was walking and talking. I was told afterwards that another witness who was a nurse had called an ambulance as soon as she saw it happen, she also was expecting the worst. After they helped seat me on a nearby bench the ambulance, fire truck and police showed up and I was taken to the hospital. There they discovered multiple breaks, fractures and joint dislocations as well as internal bleeding and numerous contusions and soft tissue injuries.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?          No     

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes    I was stuck by a car as a pedestrian

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?  When I saw the car was not going to avoid hitting me and again when I saw the rooftops and upper floors of the surrounding buildings.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?          More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:        I just felt that I was totally aware of every minute detail. The color of the buildings, whether they were brick or wood or concrete. The actual designs and individual colors of each brick in the brick-lay of a building was obvious to me.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?          Yes    Everything was much clearer and in focus. I am near sighted but was able to see things in the distance very clearly. Colors were very vibrant.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
          Uncertain     I did not hear anything whatsoever from the time just before the car hit me until after I woke up.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?          Uncertain

What emotions did you feel during the experience?          Calmness to a point of feeling serene and at peace with everything. Even when I was worried about how my son was going to take my death I felt assured that all would be well. At one instant I felt an overwhelming maternal instinct and deep sadness when I envisioned my sons face as he was being told I was dead.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?        No     

Did you see a light?         No     

Did you meet or see any other beings?         Yes    I saw my son at the opened front door of our house. I saw he had a very blank and shocked face.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?   No     

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?         No     

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?          No     

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes    Only at the time directly after the moment of the impact I felt as though I was totally removed from the accident as if I were watching it from a distance. I saw nothing at all except for the tops and rooftops of the buildings.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     No     

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No     

Did you become aware of future events?      No         

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?       Uncertain     I have always had enhanced premonitions and predictions. My intuition and foresight has always been strong. But after the accident these abilities increased greatly over time. I have made many detailed premonitions that have come true and have happened over a short span of time. Also my mother had passed away around 1 1/2 years after my accident. About 6 months after she passed I saw her sitting in front of me. She was extremely realistic, it was as though I was looking at another person in the room. There were other people present. She didn't speak to me but she was looking at me with what I felt was such a strong and overwhelming look of love that I was overcome with the emotion. It was funny that she was sporting a hairstyle that she wore back when I was a teenager and she was also wearing a sweater that I always teased and made fun of. She looked very happy with a knowing look on her face. She seemed to be telling me that everything will work out and all will be well.

Have you shared this experience with others?        Yes    Two weeks after I discussed it with my lawyer, he was not surprised and he seemed to believe what I was saying and understood. I spoke about the actual accident to a few friends who inquired but besides that I ignored what happened to me. I found that most people did not want to talk about such a bad experience and had a difficult time accepting and dealing with my physical pain and recuperation's didn't speak to anyone about the emotional side for close to three years and then it was a professional psychic that was drawn to me at a convention that I finally opened up to. She explained a lot to me that helped me understand more. That meeting helped me to open up and share my accident and feelings in detail with my son ( who was 11yrs. old at this time), whom was my caretaker and helped nurse me back to health. Because he was my primary caretaker and so afraid that he had almost lost me, he did not want to discuss the actual accident. My son is quite aware of my strong insight and often asks me to help make decisions or read into people and/or events concerning him. Friends often come to me for strong insight and advice.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes    I had also had a severe allergic reaction to a prescribed medication that took over a year to recuperate from. The doctors said I was about 5 minutes away from clinical death when they treated me.

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real   I didn't view it shortly after the experience. I actually turned into myself and ignored the fact that it happened in order to deal with the pain and recuperation. I in fact did not want to even discuss it and felt I was being pushed and forced to re-live it when it became a legal lawsuit against the driver.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? I was told later that after I had come to I had asked one of the witnesses to go to the art gallery I had just left to tell my artists that I was okay and not to worry. I had somehow realized that the news would get to them and because of my distinguishable appearance they would know it was me and leave the show to check on me.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:          Experience was definitely real         I realize and accept what had happened.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?          Yes    My youngest son, whom was my caretaker following the accident, and I have become almost inseparable.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? No     

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?          Yes    My son and I were crossing at a crosswalk three years after my accident when an almost exact replica of my accident happened again. Only this time it was my son and I in the middle of the crosswalk and he was walking slightly in front of me and I pulled him back out of the way for he most assuredly would have been struck by the oncoming speeding car. I then went into a combination of crying and screaming angrily as I followed the car into a parking lot. I was so angry I wanted to cause harm to the unsuspecting driver, I couldn't believe that they didn't even realize that they had almost hit my son. My son physically restrained me in the parking lot until I was able to control myself.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?          Two days before my accident I was leaving my friends art supply store to catch a bus to go to my Art Gallery to open up for business for the day. I was carrying a lot of bags and packages and was loaded down quite heavily. When I got to the bus stop there was an elderly gentleman also waiting for the bus. He approached me and asked me if he had enough money to get on the bus. I assured him that he didn't and how much the fare was for seniors. He reached into his pocket only to find he did not have enough money. He stood there with a bit of a confused look on his face but did not ask me for any money to help him. I immediately put all of my packages on the ground and started rummaging through my purse to find the correct change that would help him. I remember that even though I did this without being asked I felt impatient and frustrated, (which I did not show), at having to put everything down in the freezing cold and the wind and snow whipping around us. When I gave him the money he accepted it but didn't say thank you. But he did after a moment turn back around towards me and say, "An angel will smile down on you for this kindness".  I just smiled as I was picking all of my packages back up and didn't think about this meeting again until maybe a month after my accident.

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes    It seems that your organization is very familiar with NDE's and are very good at asking intelligent well informed questions.

Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience? I am pleased with what you have already offered.