Barbara R's NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

            I had already lost alot of blood when I was on my way o the hospital. I had asked my husband to go with me just in case I passed out. at that moment I wasn't bleeding profusely, but I felt well enough to take the train instead of the ambulance, I just wanted to go to the hospital of my choice which to me was closer than the hospital that EMS had chosen, besides they had my medical records. I got to the train station which was only a block away and we went up the stairs and paid the fare...when suddenly everything started going black and I couldn't hear anything, so I sat down and laid my head on my husband's lap...after a few minutes I felt fine so I got up and started toward the double doors leading to the platform...I cannot say at what point I passed out but I remember dreaming of a dark space and I saw people dressed in  bright white and the feeling of I had a job to do...a job that was important in the grand design of things... a job that God gave me...but I had so many questions.

I then felt like if someone was pulling me by the back of my shirt and I felt like I was falling and I heard my husband calling me, but he seemed so far away...then I felt him smacking telling me to wake up...when I opened my eyes I asked him why he woke me up, I was dreaming and he yelled at me and said that I was in the train station...I know that I was in and out of consciousness because every time I awoke there were firemen and police around me... they said I went into shock and I had convulsions and I hit my head when I fell....after they managed to stabilize me by giving me oxygen...I was taken to the emergency room and when a doctor examined me I was bleeding like an open faucet...the doctor took me up for emergency surgery called a d&c...they prepped me and I remember dreaming again the same thing but this time instead of darkness, there was an infinite white light and I remember seeing faces with white clothing and what looked like wings but everything happened so fast and again I felt someone pulling me by my shirt...then I remember hearing the voice of the anesthesiologist calling me but he too sounded far, far away and I felt him pull the tube out of my mouth and he started smacking me till I opened my eyes... I have had a d&c done before but they didn't put a tube in my mouth to do the procedure...I had to get 2 blood transfusions and I was given iron through iv and it still wasn't enough... but for a few days after the whole trauma I had lost the concept of time and I felt peaceful and I had a high sensitivity to loud noises...it's like having a migraine without the migraine

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes    

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     severe loss of blood due to a miscarriage.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    just before being pulled back

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    Normal consciousness and alertness                   just before being pulled back

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  No      

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?            Uncertain     

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            peace

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Uncertain      it went too fast.

Did you see a light?           Yes     the second time

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     it seemed like an angel but I don't remember any sound.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No           

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes    

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes     it felt like God gave me something to do

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain     

Did you become aware of future events?       No
           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Uncertain      it is still too soon to tell

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     a few hours

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    Yes     but I never believed anyone

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    like it was a message of my purpose but its still a bit hazy

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?            when God gave me a job or purpose

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real    it seemed like a dream but it felt too real

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           No      

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            No           

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        twice in one day I didn't think it was possible...that makes three...I had a NDE when I was born...my mother said I was blue and I almost died.

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes     if I could explain anymore I would