Experience description: 

I began the day applying a new lash-curling mascara.  At the end of the work day, I had a raging headache and my eyes were bloodshot due to what I believe was an allergic reaction to the mascara.  I didn't think to take a headache pill before leaving work, so when I was at the light, I decided to pop into the parking lot across the way and go through the drive-thru to get a small drink to wash it down with.  When I entered the parking lot, having been there many times before, I remember being sure to clear a cement light pole before starting my turn into the drive through lane.  I clearly recall seeing the light go past my windshield.  However the next thing I knew it felt like i had run over a newly installed median strip.  I whipped my head back to look and no, there was nothing new there and when i again faced forward i was looking at the pole.

The next thing I remember is lying on a set of beautiful white marble steps that were incredibly comfortable.  I know i was lying there in supplication.  my hands raised above me on the next few steps and my hands were clasped as in prayer.  I also remember clearly thinking that my body was back down there behind me somewhere.

When I looked up I saw grayish ness.  I then realized there was a line of beings standing in front of me.  Behind them was the famous "White Light". It reflecting from behind them gave me a grayish view and so I could not discern who the beings were.  I do know they felt very familiar but I won't go so far as to say they were actually family members.

I remember a lot of whispering.  The tallest in the middle has "his" head bent toward a person whispering in his ear who I view on his left. I remember at that point thinking oh, boy this is it.  I then proceeded to "recall"  all the supposedly bad things I had done in my life.  Then all at once, they all looked in my direction as if realizing that I knew they were there and I was now conscious.  Then all of a sudden I got a rush of warmth and love.  I cannot describe to you, when you fall in love there is this feeling, it's nothing compared to really honestly physically feeling love the way i felt it from them.  I was like awed. 

Then I remember the one on his left was really bending his ear and I really began to hear them and realized they were talking about me.  specifically whether they should allow me to stay or take me with them. I HAVE TO INSIST, THIS WAS NOT A DREAM.  I vividly recall having been awake and aware of my body in the car the whole time.

I panicked at this point, and thought with desperation that I could not leave my husband, not now.  He needs me.  Then that quick it was over.

I was totally awake and aware of where I'd just been and reached up to ask them to let me reconsider.  Then I realized that was not an option.  Then I looked up into my rear-view mirror and saw a dark thick blood coming down my forehead.  My first thought was back to a scalp wound i had as a kid. It was bright red, not a big deal.  I knew right away this wasn't good. The next thought was to turn my headlights off as the car had stalled so as not to kill my battery.  Next thought I needed to get help.  I tried to open my door but it was shoved back & so I had to remove my seatbelt and physically turn in my seat and shove it open a bit.  (I had electric windows, but the thought never entered my head to open it until one of the people helping suggested it).

Fortunately there was an ambulance in the parking lot already, picking up a fall victim and they came right over after the people who responded to me got their attention.  Unfortunately, the official report reads that I was unbelted, with no headlights and starred the windshield, non of which was true.  Anyway, I have since tried to relate this to people.  They act like, okay sooth the sick headed woman and agree.  Or oh no I believe YOU believe it happened. 

I am sure it wasn't that great of an event for anyone, least of all your establishment, but for me whether anyone else in the world believes or not, i am one person who cannot wait until the end, because of my few seconds at the steps of heaven. 

I believe from my experience that God loves us.  That most of the written bad things we may have done can and are forgiven.  I used to believe in a "judgment day". But when i started fretting over my problems in the past and was treated so wonderfully by them, i now believe you are judged when you get there.  No waiting. I believe in my heart I am a good person and God and Jesus exist.  And I believe that for those reasons, I was immediately about to enter heaven if I didn't panic.  I won't panic next time.  I have also helped people I know who are dying to let go a little easier too.  I believe that having my experience and relating it to others makes them less tense about going home.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes

I had an accident and my head hit the top of my vehicle and split open.  I need many stitches.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           I was very alert.  and knew every second what was happening around and to me.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   not at all.  I was conscious the entire time. from the moment of my accident until the ambulance attendance placed me on their stretcher.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

I believe hitting the roof of my vehicle kind of knocked my out of my body.  I don't remember leaving it.  however, coming back was like a punch in the head from the top.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           just the people whispering.  I was physically in my car alone and no one was near my car.  So I know the whispering was what I had said it was.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?         

            Describe:      I did not, however, when they were deciding my fate, i feel i would have gone with them through the light behind them, had I had no problem going with them.  I got scared and panicked though.

Did you see a light?           Yes

it was obvious it was white BEHIND the beings, but they blocked the light and it appeared gray to me.  Murky almost

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes

Several beings, I would guess 5-7 people standing in front of me. I could not make out their faces as I said their features were in gray shadows.  The tallest person was in the middle with the rest flanked to either side.  The middle person appeared to be male, the person to his right (my left as I am viewing them) appeared to be female.  Felt these people felt to me to be male/female.  I could not discern the gender of any of the others.  but all loved me and seemed anxious to know if I would go or stay with them.  I don't know how any of them felt about my outburst of not wanting to leave my husband. but quick as a flash i was back in my car.  no second thoughts about it.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    Yes

I remember some things i did in the past and felt guilt and shame but only for a second before these people seem to come to my rescue. they didn't say it, but i FELT them say it's okay, you don't have to worry about those things. and I FELT the warmth and love like nothing i have ever physically felt before.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           Yes

only that i seemed to be at the threshold of a very beautiful place. the steps were the whitest marble i'd ever seen. and more comfortable than anything I'd ever laid on before.  I just knew that something this beautiful that was so comfortable, was but the beginning of truly wondrous things to come, if I hadn't panicked.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       Yes

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Yes

twice now, i have awakened with the sense that I had just jarringly returned to my body.  Both times as in the time when I returned to my body, I experienced what felt like someone whacking me on the head and a really bad headache following.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes

oh yes, I am no longer afraid of the afterlife or dying.  I live each day knowing this is only a trial run.  I am no longer afraid of living anymore either, because I know they really are up there and watching and looking out for me.  I feel so much safer that I ever had before my accident and experience.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       I haven't really changed my religious practices.  I don't often go to church.  I don't believe I need to go there to commune with my god.  I never really did.  God resides in your mind and sould.  You speak to him, not through anyone else, and not through congregating, but just you and him.  one on one. I know he has time for everyone, right down to the littlest thing he ever created on earth,or he wouldn't have made any of us.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes

Yes I feel absolutely blessed having had this experience. It has made me completely unafraid of this world and my part in it.  I have a confidence I never had before.  But i also know not to show that confidence as arrogance.  I feel privileged to have been able to go and come back to tell about it.  Even though I didn't SEE heaven I knew without a doubt I was at the entrance.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes

disbelief of course.  Humor her, she's nuts.  I know you BELIEVE you had this experience.  Others who claim to believe me, I cannot really gauge their reaction.  I simply say to myself, God gave me this experience for a reason. to tell about it.  So I do, without embarrassment.  And with total sincerity and however they choose to believe it is on them.  I don't have to fear the unknown anymore.  That in itself, bothers some, like my husband.  He's a little afraid and a little jealous i think, because I found out what my fate will be and he still doesn't know his.  I have friends and family who have passed that I have shared this with and they believed, and I think I helped them not be so afraid.  I am glad I could do that.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  anger, at myself, because as much as i love everyone here, i know that I should have gone with them.  Sadness, because I have to wait again.  Expectation that it will come eventually.  I have never, however, thought to take my own life to get there.  I seem to instinctively know that taking my life won't get me there.  I have to do whatever it is i'm am here for and finish this in order to go back there.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      the physical feeling of love was the best part of all. second best was knowing the "bad" things i did in my life were forgiven.  (I have asked for that forgiveness from Christ over and over for the same things sometimes not knowing if they were forgiven and apparently they were). Thank you Jesus.  I am so grateful for that.  The worst part is again, feeling like I should have gone with the instead of staying here.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        Yes, at no time during this entire experience all the way up until the doctor put a needle in my head to numb it, did i ever feel any pain at all.  none.  I crushed the steering wheel with my chest and had no effects from it.  I did smack the crown of my head resulting in a spider web splitting of my scalp which took several many stiches in and out to close, i did appear to have a concussion, which made itself known the next day.  I feel truly blessed in having had this experience.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         Yes

Two out of body experiences. I don't remember being out.  I remember physically re-entering my body and it hurt.  gave me a start out of my sleep and a terrific headache.  But as for any other things that happened to cause the same thing again, no.

I am coming up on an operation.  I'm a little scared because I don't know how it will go.  I will let you know if anything happens then. I don't think it will though.  I'll keep you posted.  But for some reason i just feel my time here isn't over for a while yet. I just feel that certain.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    no this was very helpful in putting the event in story format.  I remember it all as a split second happening.  But one thing is sure, no matter how I'm feeling, when I am under the weather or unhappy, I just remember how it felt to be embraced by these beings by THEIR FEELINGS. It's just incomparable.!!!