Auriel P's Probable NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

Hi,

 At the age of 49 my death came on very suddenly and unexpectedly.  For me it was an 11 day journey and when you are barely coherent and deathly ill, 11 days can go fast.  I hadn’t cleaned out any of my drawers, I hadn’t said things to people that I needed to say, I hadn’t finished the work sitting on my desk.  I hadn’t even done the laundry! 

My journey started when I woke up on March 7, 2006.  As I looked in the mirror I was as confused as I was alarmed.  Literally overnight the whites of my eyes had turned bright yellow.  My skin was a dark orange and my tongue was blotchy and full of bumps and creases.   As my husband and I tried to figure out what could have caused this I agreed to call the doctor’s office as soon as they opened to be seen that day.  We had agreed that it was such a weird situation that sitting in emergency was not going to be very effective, and to add to the strangeness, I didn’t feel sick.  I had no idea when I arrived at the doctor’s office that I was going to be directed to the hospital for check in and certainly not that I would soon be diagnosed as terminally ill with 5 days to live.  The eleven days went something like this:

On 3/8/06 I was admitted to a hospital suffering from severe jaundice, edema and shortness of breath.

On 3/8/06 my potassium was found to be at lethal levels.

On 3/11/06 I experienced complete liver failure and was transferred by ambulance to a specialist hospital and placed in intensive care.

On 3/11/06 my husband was told that I had less than 5 days to live and was asked to contact family and begin participation in grief counseling.

On 3/12/06 my blood pressured dropped to 85/39, with a sleeping heart rate of 109.

On 3/13/06 I worsened further with pronounced pulmonary edema, acute renal failure, and my heart sinus rhythm was elevating rapidly.

On 3/14/06 the pulmonary edema worsened and the heart and spleen became enlarged.

On 3/15/06 my lungs began to collapse.

On 3/19/06 I succumbed to congestive heart failure and C.P.R. began to be administered.

And then it happened:

It is amazingly hard to describe in earthly words but I will do the best that I can. 

I felt light as if I were floating and then realized I was standing beside my hospital bed.  I could see myself.  My eyes were closed and an oxygen tube was in my nose.  My arms were at my sides loaded with I.V. equipment.  Multiple needles were in both arms and bags of fluids hung above the bed on either side.  I was a very orange-ish gray color and I looked like I was sleeping.  I saw no one else in the room and turned toward the door.

 As I walked out into the hallway I felt an unbelievable warmth.  The best way I can describe it is if you put a big soft fuzzy blanket in the dryer and then wrapped it around your bare skin.  The warmth enveloped me and it smelled like a spring day. 

Then to my left the hallway grew intensely bright.  It blocked everything else out and I turned toward it and began to walk.

I saw myself from behind.  I was dressed in a hospital gown, short sleeved and hanging to mid calf.  Although I had lost most of my hair due to the illness, my hair was now long, thick and hanging almost to my waist.

The draw toward the light was irresistible.  I wanted to go.  I kept walking toward it with an overwhelming peace and serenity.  I knew I was dead.  There was no sadness, no pain, no regret and no fear.  All earthly thoughts were gone.  I was going home.

Then suddenly the light grew less intense and doorways started to appear like shadows on the sides of the hall.  And as I passed by the next one two figures emerged in nurses clothing.  They gently put their arms around my shoulders and started to turn me around.  I said, “No.  I need to go.”  And as she smiled and patted my shoulder one of them said, “No.  It’s not time yet. We have to take you back.”  I remember an overwhelming feeling of disappointment and sadness and as I approached my hospital room and looked inside.  The bed was now empty and waiting for me.  I saw the crease and outline of where my body had been laying and then it went dark again.   I awoke days later still in I.C.U., still hooked up to dialysis and still unable to walk.

So what did it feel like when I died?  All the pain goes away both physical and mental.  It is like a calming fatigue that lulls you to sleep.  The exhaustion of trauma leaves you ready for it to end.  And if your relationship with God and Jesus Christ are in order you become fearless. 

When I came back the first questions on my mind were not regarding my physical body.  I knew I was going to live because I was brought back for a purpose.  Several actually, but the main purpose I am back is to share this story with people just like you.  I thank the Lord for allowing me to be chosen and I would do it all again just for the chance of the amazing and blessed experience.  Hopefully my story may soften the hearts of the unsure and help them to find strength, truth and peace in the arms of Jesus Christ. 

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     It is hard to describe the feelings in "ordinary" words.  The experience was something other than "earthly".

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     I was in intensive care and experienced liver, kidney, lung & heart failure.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    All the way through.  All of my senses felt heightened to an extreme level.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            All the way through.  All of my senses felt heightened to an extreme level.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     The light was so bright it would have been like trying to stare at the sun in real life.  Colors were very vivid.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            No      

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Warmth, peace, relief, happy, love, tenderness, caring

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Uncertain      I walked down a hallway.

Did you see a light?           Yes     Extremely bright, like being able to stare at the sun.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     Toward the end of my experience I saw two nurses who told me that I had to go back because "it was not time."

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No           

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     There was no sense of time.  It felt infinite with no boundaries.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     No      

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No      

Did you become aware of future events?       No           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Yes     I feel a special unity with God that I did not have t this degree before.  I also feel driven by a "greater power" when dealing with animals and humans.  I also now have no fear, literally.  An example would be that my whole life I was afraid of spiders.  Now I will let one crawl on my hand a take it outside.  I see it now just as a frightened small creature and find empathy rather than fear.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     I first shared it with family about 4 months later when I got out of the hospital and have now shared it with others.  I felt very pressured spiritually to share it after I became well enough. I feel that the Lord let me rest a bit before the next journey.  I have been surprised by the reactions.  People want to know.  They are desperate to find out if there is anything after and if so, what it is.  I have experienced mixed reactions.  Some have confirmed their religious beliefs and seem strengthened by my story and some seem disturbed by it as if it confirms there is a beyond, they don't think they have done enough "good" in their life to get there.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    Yes     I just knew the term but I had never know anyone who had experienced it.

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    The difference in my body and mind.  Before I was spiraling quickly towards death and after the experience my vital signs and bodily functions took a radical turn for the better.  Even the doctors described it as a "miracle".  But mostly in my own mind as I would talk to the Lord everyday I was already searching for a purpose.  I knew I had been sent back so I rallied every ounce of strength and determination I could to get well.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?            When I was sent back.  To be told, "You have to go back, it isn't time yet," and then ignore finding the reasons you are still here I feel would be absurd.  I am chosen for a purpose and feel blessed by the opportunity.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real    I am secure in my beliefs and relationship with God.  I now know why I am here, or at least 3 reasons, 1 of which has already been fulfilled.  I know the experience was real by the overwhelming emotion and compassion I feel when I speak about it.  I talk about it whenever I can to anyone who will listen. I have a whole new perspective and a new set of eyes.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     My husband, children and I are closer and it has served to bring a lot of worship back into the lives of some family members.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            Uncertain      Not changed, just enhanced.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        I would go through the same illness all over again just to experience it again.

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes     You provided plenty of room for testimonial to share what ever questions you did not ask.

Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience?   I found it very thorough.