Augustin's NDE

 I found myself on active Military duty in the city of Melilla.  At that time, I had a cold and high fever.  I was very weak--  trembling--so I sought relief in the infirmary.  There, they decided to inject me with penicillin which produced a fading of consciousness and then a lack of consciousness.  This I found out later, because the liquid entered my body at the same time that I fainted.

Without feeling pain, nor wanting it to happen, I began to see myself as if dissolved on the floor.  The orderlies were alarmed.  They picked me up and placed me onto the cot, making at the same time comments about my backside and wanting to revive me.  Then, the room folded in from the ceiling and I started rising, each time faster and higher, until I was no longer in the place where this had occurred.  I started to feel an extraordinary liberation of my soul from my body. It was as if I had been released from a lifetime sentence; as if my body had been my jail (WITHOUT BEING CONSCIOUS OF THIS UNTIL NOW).  Everything that connected me to it was heavy and burdensome: having to breathe, having to move my body, etc., as if the bonds from childhood carried family, friends, acquaintances, the town, etc.  FINALLY I RELEASED EVERYTHING THAT TIED ME AND I RETURNED HOME, TO MY MOTHER'S ARMS, TO UNITE ME TO THAT EVERYTHING OF WHICH I WAS PART, WHICH I HAD SOUGHT SINCE BIRTH.

I soon found myself in a space and place unknown to me, having arrived there at a velocity I was unfamiliar with, with a force of attraction like that of metal to a magnet.  I entered a place where it started to turn dark as if I was inside of a cloud, and it was becoming denser and darker, and in that darkness, which became almost total, I glimpsed a tiny star or light, which, from the exact time I noticed it, attracted me without hesitation towards it, with the same breakneck speed and velocity.   At the same time, my love or the most marvelous feeling that can be experienced, was becoming larger, the closer I got, my exultation overflowed, the light each time larger or it was emanating from someplace...I don't know.  The idea is that I found myself in that light.  So brilliant, so white, but without disturbing me; it was pure energy, the force, the love, the life--I was already home. The sensations are indescribable as we are very limited in this life; over there, was an unknown world of new sensations opening up--of understanding of what, up until then, has not been understood by you, and you do love, my God, how you love.

And then, I felt as if someone approached to receive me, until I felt his presence directly in front of me.  As if with a human form but without a physical body, everything was light and energy and love, and we communicated perfectly, not speaking but with thought and the mind.  I started to be aware of more beings like him that surrounded us and received me.  I could not be contained in my joy and contentment; everything was peace and harmony and I began fully to inhabit that space which was mine.

But the way was denied me by something; they did not yet expect me, and this unique being said that I should go back and there was no other option; it was not my decision, but the most convenient,  much to my regret.  I began to hear other voices, to note how I closed my eyes without wanting to, and accepted what was said:  "YOU STILL HAVE THINGS TO DO WITH YOUR LOVE"--which is the bargaining chip; it's the only thing that will let you stay there; not only that you love and that you love a lot, but also that you are loved, and loved much, as that will be the telling sign.

All your acquired liberties start fading and you start to become conscious that you have to enter once again that body, that you must return to breathing, you become conscious of who you are, all over again; you feel the voices (of the nurses). You don't want to open your eyes; you want to return.  You do everything to return, but you are once again in the infirmary, desolate, sick; you can't believe what you have lived, what you have felt, and the worst thing...now you know it, and you must live until you don't know when, but with the happiness at the same time of knowing that I will return and that they await me and I will do everything possible for that to be the case.  And it is so easy and it is so easy and simple.

 Only LOVE.

 Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes

 At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?  Yes

 At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?   During the entire experience.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?   More consciousness and alertness than normal.  The consciousness that we have here is unconsciousness; here we are limited.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness,  depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?   Yes.  A new world is opened, more comprehensive. All has an explanation, origin and a function; there are no questions, all is known.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?  Yes. I repeat the same as before, there are no limits; a new world is opened--of which we know only the very tip.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?  Clearly left the body and existed outside it.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?     Complete freedom.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes. I am not clear yet: whether it is a closed space from where one exits, or a dark space, where the light attracts us.

Did you see a light?   Yes.  Marvelous; it was white as you can get, without it blinding you.

Did you meet or see any other beings?  Yes. Those beings were part of me or I was part of them: force, energy, life, love.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    Uncertain. I was conscious of everything; I did not have to remember anything. Yes, that LOVE is the most important of all.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes. I heard all the conversation of the nurses and I saw the whole building without ceiling or walls and described what it contained even 'though I had not seen it before.

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?             Yes.  In the first instance, I saw a  space like complete emptiness but becoming darker. Then, I saw the dark space where I started to see the light, and at last the light  itself.  A space where peace, harmony, energy, life and LOVE exists.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes. There is no time.  It does not exist and neither does space.  It is like another dimension.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes. The mind is opened; there is knowledge, comprehension.  It is pure truth. There is nothing secret, nor hidden.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes. I was inside but felt a door behind me. I wished I could enter completely

and not come back.

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes.  I notice that I am more sensitive and I have premonitions.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?    

Yes, certain intuitions.

Have you shared this experience with others?   Yes. Several months passed, because I did not think that I would be believed.  I kept it like a secret, wishing to share it.  Finally, I found people who experienced the same situation, and I shared.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:    Experience was definitely real

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            Yes

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?  No

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?  It was real, believe me; and also believe that I love you.

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?    Yes