Armandina G's NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

I was going to a New Year Party will trouble on my mind as I was having issues with a guy I was crazy about. I was not at the part with nor had I seen him in a while.  I thought as a time like New Years most will be with a lover at the party and me with none.  Though there were singles there they were not my type nor me theirs.  Like most BYOA I took a L of Vodka.  Usually when parting with friend we bring our own to share, drink and be merry.  I started drinking at 7pm. a mix drink of 1 shot Vodka and the rest cranberry juice.  For the next 5hrs there was must festivities & I was feeling sorry for myself I guess cause I was not as happy of the couples there.  Yes I was acting crazy I faintly remember, but at one point I could even tell my cranberry and Vodka mix became lopsided.  I did not care because it was dismissing my pain and in a way I was having fun.  The next think I remember was the neighbors asking some of us at our party to join them in their hot tub. 

The next think I remember was vomiting and gagging, spiting up vile and I guess falling like a jolly green giant would hitting the cement of the garage way hard.  I could feel my body in pain and ache, my head hurt so bad and I could hear people saying just take her to my bed and let here sleep it off, she'll be alright.  Well there wear so may people trying to pick me up, even the strongest guy there, but I was so dead weight it took a couple of people to lift me up, but for those moments that people were telling my best friend that I could sleep it off I could hear telling them "no no this is more serious I have seen this before".  For those few moments of her trying to convince them I need to go to the emergency room is when I guess blacked out/ lost consciousness. 

All of a sudden I was somehow normal and not drunk I don't know if I was sitting, standing or laying there as I was, but I clearly realized someone or I don't really know if it was a person, ghost or not cause as I was look forward at a slight right angle I heard a slow gentle command voice asking " Do you want to come (as if to sway his hand/palm open from forward to back) or do you want to stay (as if now motioning his hand from the position in back to where it started with hand and palm open)  Now I certainly heard it but I did not see it, although the motion I felt seemed to be clearly inviting.  I paused for a moment (thinking to myself I am being given a choice to live or die WOW! this is crazy this could really be it and it's really not painful at all, my death next time could be painful should I take this) and said out loud "well if I go I would not have to worry about bills, boys, debt or anything", then I said, "but I'm to young to die", then I said immediately, "but I couldn't let Amy live with the fact that she was the only one who tried to save me, I couldn't let her live with this in her consciousness (as I knew she'd been in nearly a fatal car accident when she was young and had recently lost her godfather)  I realized she would live with this pain for the rest of her life. 

At an instant moment/ a flash I was back to hearing everyone talk and someone trying to pick me up.  I mumbled to them what had happened and of course they were saying no we were just talking to you.  No No No, this was not that way.  I was 115 lb with a blood alcohol level of .18, so the doctor told me after I woke up because I'd sucked up all the sugar water and I was dehydration, and needed to used the rest room real bad, when the doc finally came to check on me he told me he was shock as the tiny frame I had with not having eaten since lunch by this point yesterday he was surprised I hadn't died.  For like four days straight I was bed stricken, Amy took care of me at her place.  for the first couple of days my body then entire time felt achy and like I could throw up any minute again, it totally sucked.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No      

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Uncertain            Well I had of choose of living or dying, but those around me were saying I could just have slept it off instead of the action of one person choose to take me to the emergency room against everyone else recommendations.  So I don't really know if I could have died I'm not sure how to really answer this without explaining it in person more eloquently

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    Um, if I was drunk no not really cause I had blacked out/ lost consciousness, but the paranormal experience itself Oh heck yeah, I was consciousness I was not drunk at all during this because I was clearly able to rationalize out loud for him to hear me. I helped him make the decision for me, I guess cause he weight out my will to live two for living against one to just give up on life and have no more problems on this earth ever.  (there was no more time with him to rationalize more or anything, I probably could have come up with more reasons to stay, but maybe they were not good enough)  I guess he believed I still had a reason to live.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    Normal consciousness and alertness

            Um, if I was drunk no not really cause I had blacked out/ lost consciousness, but the paranormal experience itself Oh heck yeah, I was consciousness I was not drunk at all during this because I was clearly able to rationalize out loud for him to hear me. I helped him make the decision for me, I guess cause he weight out my will to live two for living against one to just give up on life and have no more problems on this earth ever.  (there was no more time with him to rationalize more or anything, I probably could have come up with more reasons to stay, but maybe they were not good enough)  I guess he believed I still had a reason to live.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     Well it's like a part of me wanted to look back but like some aura or something kept me focus forward rationalizing my thoughts.  As if I was not allowed to look back or something for fear that, I don't know maybe out of respect for something my core would not allow me to look back.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Yes     it sounded like those audio tapes that you hear when you are receiving instructions to do something, kind of like that.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            really I was calm, immediately the voice was slow gentle and commanding there was nothing for me to be afraid of it was very soothing and pleasing.  I felt very privilege and honored that I would be given such a choice, over having drank to much alcohol, because I was trying to drown out some pain of a guy I wanted to be with, well among various other events that I guess really lead up to me really passing out like just having a low self esteem about myself.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Uncertain      enclosure?

Did you see a light?           Uncertain     

Did you meet or see any other beings?           No      

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No           

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Uncertain      just again as those few minutes that most were tying to convince my friend that I could sleep it off is when it happened in reality it probably only took a minute, to everyone it was probably like I had just fallen asleep or something.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes            well um I guess he let me live cause aside from my rationalizing with him, maybe he also believed I had still not fulfilled my reason for living, I don't know, but when times get tough for me know I wonder what really is it that I was supposed to have live for.  I don't know, being in the Marine Corps I have to be tough sometimes (mean) and the environment can be pretty sexist in my opinion, but I have to bite my tongue a lot and be patient.  I did not used to be this way, but I wrote before I stopped asking God for help a year or so ago, because of something that happened to me that has changed my perspective.  Ok I am getting pretty tire of typing.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No      

Did you become aware of future events?       No
           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     No      

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     They said they were the ones talking to me, no not really.  Most do not know how to respond to it.  One church lady said it could have been the devil tricking me.  That is sure a scary thought, she told me good thing I still had the will to live.  Nothing more of it.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    Uncertain            I was not really NDE, but I had pin worms when I was young and it is really a pretty gross story.  Like the story is really weird and gross, but in the end my family went to fetch a priest whom was preparing for a service at the time.  They'd told him it was an emergency.  When he came they put olive oil somewhere and he started called out to the devil sprits to go away.  He starting calling out to Jesus to fight the demons off.  I'd been in serious stress and as he kept shouting out all this I started to feel better, then finally I was.  I could not believed what had just happened to me, it was incredible.  This man had some kind of power, he kept asking me to believe to believe and help call out with him I'd been screaming too, he kept telling me to shout it out like I believed. WOW!

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    I felt lucky to be one of the few people on earth to feel what I felt, is the simplest way to explain it, I truly believe where some come from when they say they have had a sort of paranormal experience.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?            The privilege and honor I guess I was given to be in the presence, it was surreal.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real            cause other people still experience situations like what I had.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Uncertain      As I have gotten older as with getting older comes confidence about why I just still need to keep my head up even at times of adversity.  I might get my ego crushed from time to time, but I bounce back because it is what I am supposed to do.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            Yes     I think God want me to only call out to him when I absolutely must. I mean he is busy busy busy right I surly cannot be in so much trouble or in dire straight to have to call out to him, it was time that I stop being a big baby and deal with this world that can sometimes be harsh and cruel.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         Uncertain      I am just not sure you know, lets say there is a newspaper stand that sells magazine etc etc. on a side walk and usually you just past it and do not buy anything one day you decide to stop and buy something, and you happen to make small conversation with the person.  The person said or did something that profoundly changed a way of thinking or doing.  So you go to that stand to talk to him or her again and they are not there, there is someone else you start to describe the person you were talking to whom had been standing there selling you the paper.  The current person there says I don't know who you are talking about we don't sell papers that early or that late.  Its like WHAT!, the place was open when I came to buy this and I talked to him/her and now its like I am loosing my mind or something.  Well something like this happened to me when I was in Iraq.  Like they are angels that God send down to earth to relay a message even if it is simple enough that it profoundly help you make a decision.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        No I am really tired of typing that my spelling and grammar are probably even worse from when I started.

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes     I have no reason to lie about this, I hope it helps you in your research so on so forth or what ever it is you are doing.