Arlene H's NDE 222

Experience description: 

      I remember being at the swimming pool and my mom going to get some food, well I took the chance to explore around.  With the main pool there were other surrounding pools and I remember getting into the pool and wanting to go to the deep end and then all I remember is getting over my head and the more panicked I got the deeper I drifted to.  I remember thinking that every time I went down I would kick from the bottom of the pool to get up for air and doing this several times then all I remember is like I was falling asleep. 

I remember the overwhelming feeling of calmness and very peaceful.  The most I remember is how peaceful I felt.  Then the next thing I knew I was looking down on people like I was up in the air looking down.  There were people crowded around someone on the ground.  The lady was very pretty and she was giving someone mouth to mouth at the pool.  It was like watching TV.  Then I looked closer and realized that was ME.  I started to feel scared but not attached to that person.  I saw my mom crying and the lady said if she doesn't wake up we will have to give her this shot.  Well that is all it took for me.  All of a sudden I was back in my body and saying please don't give me a shot. 

I guess I was more concerned with the pain of a shot than what was really happening.  I was too embarrassed to say anything to my mom and brushed it off as being a dream until about 10 years ago when I read a book that talked about that....then I realized I wasn't crazy and what I must have experienced was an out of body experience.  I finally got up the courage to ask my mother about the drowning and she said that my hear had quit for several minutes and she told my mother she was sorry and then I just woke up.  I told her was I experienced and she didn't believe me so I dropped the subject and never mentioned it to anyone, because I didn't want people to think I was crazy.  I sometimes wonder if I were hypnotized if I would remember more than I do since I was so young?  I remember some details very clearly like what the lady looked like, she was pretty, black long hair and had on a black one piece bathing suit.  Sometimes I felt as though I were crazy and was very careful not to mention this to my husband and children because I know they would think I have lost my marbles.  Is there a chat room or anyone I can talk to about not feeling like I am ready for the Looney bin?  Thanks, at least I got it off my mind.   Arlene

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience:  No

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes

      What was it about the experience that makes it hard to communicate?  In the darkness the overwhelming feeling of peace and tranquility

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?  unconscious

Was the experience dream like in any way?  similar to a dream yes, but more peaceful

Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body?  Yes

Describe your appearance or form apart from your body:  I was conscience of being above my body looking down wondering who was laying on the ground  I did not see what state I was in while I was above my body

What emotions did you feel during the experience?  peace, calmness, very peaceful, curious, then fear of lady giving me a shot

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?  at first no sound at all only peacefulness, then sounds of mother crying and lady talking

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?  No

      Describe:  not that I remember

Did you see a light?  No

Did you meet or see any other beings?  No

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?  No

      Describe:  what kind of past would a 5 year old have anyway?  I did learn that it doesn't hurt to die.  When I drowned, it was like falling asleep for me.  I do not fear death at all now or I never have through my entire life.  My mother says I don't worry about anything.  My life has been full of problems, but I am not bothered as most people would,  I always know that things will work out and they always did.

Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body?  Yes

      Describe:  I decided I had to wake up so she wouldn't give me a shot!

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?  No

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  No

      Describe:  no too young, only not afraid of dying

Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?  looking back I really do believe everything I read now about NDE experiences I know how these people felt  and they aren't lying.  I do believe that God is just waiting on us to come and join him.  I hear about reliving my life and don't seem too happy about doing that but the extra reading has really changed the way I think about what happens after you die and feel a little slighted about not getting the tunnel, the light, the messenger, relatives and even Jesus. I look forward to experiencing these things, because I know in my heart that they will happen.

Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes

      Describe:  They thought I was crazy and I never mentioned it again.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  very sleepy

What was the best and worst part of your experience?  Best part was the feeling of complete peacefulness and the worst, returning

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? 

Why did I not experience the other things?  Was it too quick?  Did I experience these things and I don't remember?   I hope one day these things will be answered

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?  No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?  No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?  No

Please offer any suggestions you have to improve the www.nderf.org questionnaire?  no