Andy S's NDE

Experience description: 

As I stated in a previous answer I was under going surgery to correct a series of SVTs I was having (Super Ventricular Tachycardia a form of severe abnormal heart rhythms).  During the procedure they routine shock, stop, and restart your heart.  They don't give you normal anesthesia as it interferes with the heart rhythms.  So during the 6 hours that I was in the procedure I was on some sort of mild sedative that would put me out at times, unfortunately the drugs never complete knock you out, and you drift in out of consciousness many many times during the operation.  At one point I remember coming to and begging for water with the nurse, trying to suppress panic.  I don’t think my throat could ever have been that dry, I literally didn’t think I could breath.  They test your heart, trying to stress it by putting you under 12 inch blankets heated blankets.  Then when you are under these blankets they give you a shot of heart stimulant, some type of adrenaline I think.  I remember the doctor telling me afterwards that they had gotten my heart beat up 250 beats per minute! That is such a high number when look back and recall that the best I could do on a full cardiac stress test on a treadmill at high incline was 190 beats a minute.  They would also shock my heart viciously at times via these catheters they hand put in the arteries in my neck and groin area.   They burned my heart in a small area about the size of a quarter 32 times then they would shock and crank up my heart to test me, the idea is that they try to burn out the abnormal muscle pathways on the surface of your heart that lead to the abnormal rhythms.  I think it was towards the end of the operation that is all happened. 

I remember coming to and hearing some sort of conversation in the background, but I’ll never be certain what they were saying, I was under the blankets again burning up, parched beyond words, with a my heart just jumping out of my chest because they had given it drugs to speed up.  I heard someone in the control room yell to the nurse and tell them to give me a shot to slow it back down to normal.  Then it just stopped beating, I don’t remember much in this world after that.  I heard someone shout, and then blackness total darkness. 

I wasn’t even aware of it at first, but then I could feel the loneliness the isolation and the cold of the darkness.  I don’t know how long that lasted because time just didn’t seem to matter, but then I felt warm and felt a light, not saw one, it just grew brighter and more intense filling every bit of my being.  It was very bright, crisp white, and it spoke to me, but not with words.  The light ran through me, it was me, and when it spoke it was as if you understood the light not the words.  You could feel it to, not like you feel bright hot sun, but you could just feel the light.  I don’t know how long it all lasted, but then it parted. I remember being pushed back to the darkness and then being the cold for a while. 

Then all of sudden I was aware of huge shocks that were going threw my body as they shocked me on the table with these huge pads they had attached to my back in the surgery prep to restart my heart if it failed.  I think I tried to look over and say something to the nurse and that is all I remember.  They pumped me full of some more drugs.  I remember waking in the hospital with a sense of purpose knowing what I was going to do.  The light has infused me with a vision of what it wanted me to communicate with others; I spent the next year writing a book called The Ithon.  Sometimes I can’t believe what I wrote, other times it scares me.  The longer I stay in the world and the farther the light seems the more scared I am of what the light has given me to do in the world.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     I was under going surgery to correct a series of SVTs I was having Super Ventricular Tachycardia a form of severe abnormal heart rhythms.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    It was dark for a very long time, then I came to a light and a feeling of calm.  From their I heard the voices.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            A feeling of peace with understanding of what I was to do transcended my whole body.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     I could feel the light, not just see it.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?              Yes     It was as if the light spoke to me and I heard the light, not the words but the light.  I could understand what it was saying.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            At first I was lost in the darkness, alone terribly alone, then the light came and I felt calm and peace more than anything.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          No

Did you see a light?           Yes     The light spoke to me, I could feel the light.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Uncertain      Just the light, it was more than light.  Very hard to describe.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Uncertain      I wrote a book based on what the light told me.  I could never write the stuff that I wrote it came from something outside of me.

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     Time seemed to be transcendent.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes     I wrote about a book about from what the light illuminated in my mind called The Ithon.  At times it scares me what I wrote, but then I think back to the light and I can find peace.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you become aware of future events?       Uncertain
            Yes and no, I became aware of the structure of those events, but not the details.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Yes     Yes I can write that which I would never have been able to write. When I write it is totally clear as to what shall be.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     I think the reaction has been good, but at times I encounter hostility.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?            The light fused with my mind just as it is now still fused in a small way.  I'd like to go back and visit the light.  The longer I am away from it the more distant it seems.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Uncertain      To some degree for the people directly around me.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            Yes            Yes I became an Ithonian.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes